last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

indiegirl · Post by **indiegirl** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 3:47 am

Just struck me that there was a thread about something similar on life-after;
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=36757
Its about what made people decide to quit, may be of interest

L x

Post by **butterflydust** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 3:53 am

i was mad at my mom. passive agressive seemed better than self injury. i took her best, sharpest sewing scissors and stabbed them into the wall.
she never knew, but she did throw away the scissors that night.
they were too dull.

butterflygirl348 · Post by **butterflygirl348** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 5:00 am

too tired, not a good enough reason, and also didn't wanted to ruin my almost two years of being SI free... very long time... so is laziness an option?

Stellaria · Post by **Stellaria** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 12:58 pm

I distracted myself, and kept putting it off, until I got the opportunity to talk about what was upsetting me, and now the urge isn't as strong anymore.

Chrystal · Post by **Chrystal** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 1:10 pm

I was sitting in an advanced applied geophysics class.... and I wanted to do ANYTHING soooooo badly.... I would have just left... but the class only has like 6 people in it... so it would have been too obvious.

Chrystalxx

~Claire~ · Post by **~Claire~** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 4:53 pm

I watched friends videos and then curled up in a ball in bed and cried.

Claire xx

purpleflame · Post by **purpleflame** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 7:36 pm

i thought about my bf and the promise we made to eachother not to si anymore.
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limestone · Post by **limestone** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 7:51 pm

i like this thread.

last time, I phoned people. actually was brave enough to call my cpn for the first time. phoned samaritans twice. phoned another person. I got there in the end. glad i did.

Twist · Post by **Twist** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 9:02 pm

Please don't think I'm really silly - I talked to my teady bear. His name's Green Ted and he smells like happiness.

Twist

tenar · Post by **tenar** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 9:39 pm

i can post here for first time from last night!!

i shut my eyes and pretended i was asleep till i believed myselff
x

Zebraseal · Post by **Zebraseal** » Wed Jan 21, 2004 10:28 pm

Twist--that's not silly! That's soooo cute!

I talked to my wonderful girlfriend. She always understands me. <3

John Galt · Post by **John Galt** » Thu Jan 22, 2004 12:28 am

yellowdreams · Post by **yellowdreams** » Thu Jan 22, 2004 12:31 am

I sat on my hands and cried instead.

Inwë Lessien · Post by **Inwë Lessien** » Thu Jan 22, 2004 12:35 am

I can't hurt my Adam anymore...

anythingbutordinary · Post by **anythingbutordinary** » Thu Jan 22, 2004 5:36 am

I have really wanted to SI every day, all week. Had a rough (sp?) time lately. The only reason that I haven't done anything is because I can't stand to see the pain in my boyfriend's eyes. It kills him everytime I cut.

Emma

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 12:35 am

Why I didn't:

I reminded myself of the promise I made: to not si again in the way that I had done that day, in December, to the doctor who treated me. She held my hand and prayed for me.

If I did si in the same way in December, I would be breaking that promise to her and to me. I would be letting us both down. Whatever happens, I don't want to do that.

I am trying to create things that can be symbolic of the promise I made so that when I hit a rough patch I can draw on the strength and advice she gave me.

Some people in the past, have not been as genuine as she was - if I hurt myself, it would be an insult to her kindness.

Post by **sine nomine** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 12:51 am

these are great! i've stickified this post. i like both kinds of replies the actual action i took and the way i thought about it ones.

deb

angelafree · Post by **angelafree** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 1:21 am

a huge electrical storm came and distracted me!! i love storms!! then we had a black out, so i lit candles and wrote in my journal about my feelings.

i wrote them down!!!!

Twitter Mouse · Post by **Twitter Mouse** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 1:42 am

When I wanted to SI today, I didn't, and made a cake instead. Then I just ate cake

Strange_Panda · Post by **Strange_Panda** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 3:43 am

I did an internet search to teach myself how to knit!!

Now I own a scarf that is longer than me (I'm five foot)!!

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