Things Left Unsaid v.7

[Spidey]

Do you have something you want to say to someone (friend, family member, you, etc.) but can't say?

Then say it here.

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[Spidey]

I am not going to help you if you refuse to help yourself.

[desperateforgrace]

This is what I would say to all my naysayers IRL, that thought I was worthless and couldn't do anything:
*RELS triggers*
Further 2/11/2018
You said I wouldn’t amount to much
You said things that invalidated me as such
You made me cry and cry
And you almost made me die

But you don’t know my Savior
You don’t know how far
He has taken me
And what He has created me to be

You don’t know the love
He has lavished upon me
And how far I’ve come
Because of the one from up above

And the loving friends He sent me
Because they believed in me
When you wouldn’t
And just couldn’t

Yes, you wouldn’t even believe
I would make it this far
But what you couldn’t perceive
Is that I made it further

[Butterfly.]

Just stuff the lot of you.
I followed the rules, I managed to do what you wanted me to, and yet it's still not good enough. You are still making my life difficult. I thought finidng a job would be the end of dealing with you lot, but no, still you make my life hard. Stupid government agencies.

[Spidey]

You can be angry here.

[Pokemon Geek]

Someday I hope you’ll pay for what you did to me and you suffer big time as a result. I loathe you and hope karma hits you so hard that it’d be the equivalent of a truck hitting you followed by a train followed by a plane falling on top of the crash followed by the Intternational Space Station followed by the moon and finally followed by Jupiter dropping from the sky. You don’t deserve to be in society. You deserve to rot in prison where fellow inmates violate you just like how you violated me. You deserve to suffer.

[Spidey]

They say to forgive you and move forward, that being angry with you means that you somehow win, but I refuse to let abuse apologists tell me how to feel.

So yes. I am still angry. I am still never going to forgive. I will never forget. Or we will. Because you split me.

[Butterfly.]

Really, you’re going to use your agency status? You’re being paid to help look after your patients, the least you could do is, you know, actually do your job. Especially important things like get my medications right and find out the information I need.
I cannot believe what just happened. :shock:

[shiny]

what you just said seemed to be internalised abuse and saying it like that made me feel uncomfortable. i am happy that you are starting to recognise our parents did screw you up, that it isn't your own fault, but i'm also really sad that you are realising the amount of pain and suffering that it caused. i've been working through those things in therapy for a while and it's still more painful that i can express and not actually getting any better. i'm sorry that you probably need to keep going to therapy for years before you'll be able to separate some of what we learned as kids and how to actually take care of yourself mentally and physically.

[Spidey]

dude I get it

It's my life now

[Pokemon Geek]

Some people say that we all should forgive people for the wrongs they’ve done to us but there are some that don’t deserve forgiveness. You are one of them. If I forgive you it’s like letting you go free for sexually assaulting me and you win and that I never deserve to see you get the punishment you deserve. Why should I forgive you? You never acted like you were sorry for hurting me that way or making me afraid to go to class. I bet you are still a sexual predator that is still hurting others like me and if you are, I will make sure you are locked away for a very long time and you are branded as a predator for life. If we ever ran into each other at Walmart, you’d be very lucky if I don’t run off to the sporting section, grab a bat, and start beating you with it. I wouldn’t even be worried about being arrested for it because you’ve had it coming for close to twenty years now! You don’t deserve to be free and happy at all. And you most certainly do not deserve any forgiveness for your crime either.

[desperateforgrace]

You hurt me so much. I thought you were my friend, but I know who you really are. Know that I don't do fake.I don't pretend to be people's friends, and then stab them in their back, and spread untrue rumors about them. Whatever I say about someone else, always is true. I know your only mission right now is to try to discredit me and bring me down. But I am a survivor in more ways than you ever could know! Know that I will never be your friend again, but I will still love you because that is what I am called to do for everyone. Know that I forgive you, not for your sake, but for mine. But know that that does not mean I will ever trust you again, because I sure as heck won't! You told me once that you didn't know why so many people didn't like you. Well, THIS is exactly why! Maybe if you treated everyone with kindness and respect, and did not have an "I'm entitled to all the good in the world" attitude, then people would like you better. Because this is what it means to be authentic. It means being willing to be vulnerable and honest, even at the cost of your reputation. It means loving others because you truly want what's best for them, and not just to get something from them for yourself!

[PokemonGeek]

Edit- We made up and this post no longer applies.

[treasure]

my words say 'don't squish me', my body language is me pulling or turning away. i don't want to hurt your feelings but what i actually mean is i don't want to be touched right now. if i'm not making eye contact or you know i've been more jumpy than usual, could you please ask first before giving me a hug?

[Chey]

I do not hate you. I do not like you, that is all. I won't talk to you or about you. Could you please do the same? Please stop talking about me and making up stories about me to others. Live your life and let me live mine. Peace out. Thank you.



Chey

[Chey]

Right now the words of Cher ~ Turn Back Time sums up my feelings on something I said last year to a friend. She says we are still friends so I am thankful for that. She did ask for space so I want to give her the space, but want her to know I want to build up our friendship again; when she is ready.


If I Could Turn Back Time
Cher
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
I don't know why I did the things I did
I don't know why I said the things I said
Love's like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons, they wound sometimes
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't want to see you go
I know I made you cry, but baby
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give 'em all to you
Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to do
If I could turn back time
My world was shattered I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it
Deep in my heart
You walk out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darling then and there
Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong
I know that I was blind, and darling
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give 'em all to you
Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to do, oh
If I could turn back time (If I could turn back time)
If I could turn back time (If I could turn back time)
If I could turn back time, oh baby
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't want to see you go
I know I made you cry
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
If I could reach the stars
I'd give 'em all to you
Then you'd love me, love me, like you used to do
If I could turn back time (turn back time)
If I could find a way (find a way)
Then maybe maybe maybe you'd stay
Songwriters: Diane Warren
If I Could Turn Back Time lyrics © Realsongs

[PokemonGeek]

Dear you,

You’re lucky Facebook has policies that prohibit groups and pages that violate privacy but I really want to destroy your image so badly after what you did to me. You are a monster and the world needs to know it and shun you for eternity. You are a monster who never showed any signs of remorse for sexually assaulting me. I am sure you’ve hurt more people like me and they’re too afraid to say anything for one reason or another. I’d create a group for those you may have hurt so we could all take you to court and see that you get what you deserve. I will refuse any type of payment you offer me to drop the case. I would take you to court to see you be punished not for money.

[Spidey]

I knew you were with me every time I asked Mom a question and the next song would be something quintessentially you. Or something you knew I would make fun of or love.

And I knew it was right when that song came on right before we left.

I miss you

I love you









Thank you

[Chey]

It will be 4 years next week since you died. I am falling apart without you.

[desperateforgrace]

*slight RELS triggs for mention of Deity*

If I told you how much I cared about you, you would not believe me. If I told you how much I aspire to be like you in certain aspects of my life, you would be amazed..and maybe a bit afraid. I know that in the past that I would never think about being anything like you...much less wanting to say this out loud! In fact, I hated you. I wanted you out of my life for good. But now I want you in my life as long as God allows you to be in it. I think you have grown and changed so much! I am so proud of you for being who I know you are in many situations. That you actually bought food one time for the people that worked hard for you is amazing! And not just a snack either...real food! Although I get worried when you work yourself to exhaustion, I love that you work diligently, even when so many other people around us don't care about their work. You have something valuable to offer--passion and diligence. I so want you to taste the fruits of your labor and have joy everlasting with God. No matter where life brings you, just know that I always want the best for you.