Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
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I took my PRN, wrote in my journal, and spent my difficult hours (the time I usually SI) with one of my housemates. She was on her laptop and I was sewing, but it was still good to have that quiet companionship.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I started chatting with A. Not about my feelings, just jokes and plans and that actually helped. Her words are always a relief. I'm lucky I have a friend in her.
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I wanna be a belly dance, or an acordion, or a pogo stick..."
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I didn't want to disappoint my brother-in-law who has been wonderful through this whole divorce process.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
It was a relatively trivial situation and not worth having to be accountable to people.
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Because I wanted to really see that the help I have been getting from a DID specialized nurse helps me to not to do SI.
Also because I didn't want more scars...though that doesn't really matter anymore. There's just so many.
Also because I'm closing forty, I'm a male and because of that everybody at ER just looks me like a freak when I end there to be stitched.
Also because I didn't want more scars...though that doesn't really matter anymore. There's just so many.
Also because I'm closing forty, I'm a male and because of that everybody at ER just looks me like a freak when I end there to be stitched.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I took an extra PRN and laid down with a book til I fell asleep. I had to go swimming with clients and didn't need them seeing anything new.
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I watched Doctor Who
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I knew that there were other things I could do to calm down that I wouldn't regret later.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
because..... i want to let all the previous injuries heal without causing more. i want to have some time without any healing injuries.
it doesn't make sense. not even to me, but its working. two days now.
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it doesn't make sense. not even to me, but its working. two days now.
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I feel like it`s not helping anymore.
I am a poor freezingly cold soul
So far from where
I intended to go
Scavenging through life`s very constant lulls
So far from where I`m determined to go
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So far from where
I intended to go
Scavenging through life`s very constant lulls
So far from where I`m determined to go
Seasick Yet Still Docked by Morrissey
Life Is Never Kind~Morrissey
Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
Because my mom would have eventually seen the marks and she would feel bad and guilty that I was hurting. She is still my mommy, even though I'm 25.
Also because I would have to explain to my counselor why I SI'd instead of calling her.
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Also because I would have to explain to my counselor why I SI'd instead of calling her.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
i was hot and didn't want to have to cover up more to keep cuts hidden.
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I talked to one of my nurses and a patient gave me a page from an adult coloring book (like the kids ones but really intricate, pretty pictures) to color. So I did that instead.
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Far from your loving arms,
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I wanted to be able to tell my SO that I had resisted the urge instead of giving in. Because a few days ago my sister was telling me how much better she was doing with managing her own ED triggers. Because I knew I could ride my bike later instead of SI'ing now. Because I had to drive home. So I cried it out and put on my favorite music instead.
Essentially SI free for a 10 years now. Go me!
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After all that bus has done for me in the past, I'm giving back.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
i didn't think i could lie about it and i knew there'd be consequences once i told someone. and i would feel like i disappointed people.
Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I decided to go to bed instead
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
It's no longer an option. I'm better than that. SO much better.
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
I didn't want to think about how I would have to hide the SI.
I also don't need more prominent ones than the ones I already have.
I also don't need more prominent ones than the ones I already have.
Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
It isnt good idea
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Re: Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...
i knew i just had to get out of my current headspace
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