Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because...

[bearcat]

Because I'm still waiting to see if I really have to do it. I know I don't have to do it, but I have to prove to myself that I really can do other things.

[bearcat]

I called him back and questioned what made me feel so bad about our conversation.

Got some insight.

Came on here and posted about my strengths.

Because if I SI I will really cause him grief. Terrible grief.

[bearcat]

Because it really won't help anything....

[bearcat]

so when they ask "do you want to hurt yourself?" I can say, 'of course I do.... BUT I HAVEN'T'

[bearcat]

Because for me it's a slippery slope toward other behaviours. And for the reason that I would enjoy it too much, it would be too gratifying. It would confirm my pain. I should reach deeper for the capacity to express this stuff. Because it would mean everything and nothing.

[bearcat]

I didn't SI recently, even though I been having lots of thoughts that are friendly towards it, because I can't live with SI on an ongoing basis. I am an all or nothing person and I just can't get into the middle of it again. I didn't do it because instead I listened to the weary feeling and could not deal with doing something that would make me waste away and deteriorate.

[Licentia Poetica]

Post the reasons or distractions you did the last time you avoided an urge to hurt yourself.

This thread is a continuation of this thread started by tenar.

Last time I wanted to si, I didn't because actually, I couldn't be bothered. Which is probably a good thing!

[Pea]

The last time I wanted to hurt myself and didn't was because I wanted to be comfy when I went to bed later on and not in pain. It's only a small thing but it worked.

Last time I wanted to si, I didn't because actually, I couldn't be bothered. Which is probably a good thing!

I do this a lot too.

[butterflydust]

the last time i wanted to SI, i didn't because i don't want to move backwards in my life

[Just Pomegranates]

The last time I wanted to SI but didn't was because I didn't have all the appropriate after-care stuff.

[VerMOZZica]

I couldn`t get up the energy to do it.That`s how bad it`s been getting.

[capricorn]

I just got a sign.

[pelagic]

The last time I wanted to SI but didn't was because I didn't have all the appropriate after-care stuff.

Very nice to read this


Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because... I thought about all the progress I've made, and the tattoos I've gotten to cover up the scars, and I thought about my GF and how hurt she would be if I didn't talk to her before I SI'd. So I talked it out with her and the urges ebbed away as I hugged a pillow. Waiting it out can work!

[capricorn]

the elastic band was enough, and then I had a chat with my friend about movies and stuff and felt better.

[RG]

I care today. I care about the people that a relapse would hurt. I care about the repercussions professionally and educationally.

[Just Pomegranates]

The last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I thought about my new dresses on the way/all the money I spent on them and that I want people to look at those instead of what I'd done to my arm.

[Bittersweet*Bonbon]

Today, I wanted to destroy myself an hour ago... but I decided to log in here and although I still feel like crap, I'm glad I have BUS... I haven't SI since February and I'm still SI free.

[TheRockingHorse]

The last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I promised J that I wouldn't until after graduation

[awkward-shark]

Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I didn't have the knives. I didn't want to go buy some and mainly because I refused to go back on my steps. My gf was so happy when I told her I had a week clean and I don't want to let her down.

[Spidey]

I decided to watch football (soccer) and clean out my DVR instead.