Things Left Unsaid *LA*

[knocking]

How can you pass diagnosis on me after meeting me once... How do you know that you aren't jumping to conclusions.. How do you know that I'm not just being a freak or something.. Or maybe just on strike or something.. How can you tell....

[oops*I*did*it*again]

J - your'e friend is right,I don't know what I want, I know I have feelings for you but things are just so complicated. I lack so much self belief that I can't even believe in my own feelings anymore - I don't know if my feelings are as strong for you as yours are for me and that scares me because I hurt people who care about me without meaning to. I know I hurt you when I turned you down the other day,and I said those things about wanting to hurt myself when you touch me, I don't know why I still feel that way - I guess my body remembers alot of what happened with A and JN alot more than I realised. It was like a flashback with no pictures and I felt terrified of myself and us but not YOU and it wasn't anything that you did. I want us to remain friends and it's complicated because may-b I even want more than that, but I just don't know. I don't want you to put your life on hold for me,because I don't know if anything will be there at the end of the waiting.
Hurting you makes me want to hurt myself, and there is so much I cannot say to you because it would hurt you - and then not saying it still makes me want to hurt myself.
I thought I was past this, I'm not, not nearly close.
I'm sorry

[knocking]

I really appreciate you coming out to work with me. But everything you said and the resources you gave me have just made me so much more confused. I'm so frustrated that I am confused and it's making my head heavy and full of fuzzy air. How can I explain this to you though.

[ShadowsOnTheMoon]

I don't know why I still like you. You're annoying and irresponsible and horrible for what you did. So why can't I just forget it. You suck, leave me alone.

[knocking]

I have to admit that I was a little annoyed or pissed or something with you today, I wait a month to get in and see you to sit there and watch you read something for half an hour and spend about 10-15 mins talking.. Couldn't you have read the letter before hand so we could actually achieve something more in there? I'm sorry, but that's just the way I felt.

[roseleaf]

No, it wasn't okay.

[stripysocks4christ]

of course we weren't fine... of course we needed you... you wanted to believe that we were managing, and so it was easy to lie to you... but you didnt help... and now I'm not sure how much I can trust you :/

[ShadowsOnTheMoon]

Why did you have to go and ruin it, it was so perfect. I should have known it was too good to be true. You couldn't just leave it how it was. It's never going to be the same is it.

[Just Pomegranates]

What a waste of time. Ugh.

[Just Pomegranates]

I can not believe you went through my garbage. I am so disgusted beyond words with you and what a nosy bitch you are.

[RG]

I so want to tell you how I am feeling and what I am thinking, but I cant keep calling you. I dont want to burn you out...

I give up. I have tried to be supportive and be there for you, but I cant keep doing this....

[Birdie]

You have no idea what you're getting yourself into.

I. Am. Toxic.

[Birdie]

Fucking know-it-all. Can you shut your mouth for one fucking second? You think I don't KNOW that? I'm really disappointed in you...I don't know what changed, me or you or both, but I'm fed. the fuck. up.

[Neviah]

I dont understand why you love me. But im really glad that you do.

[Birdie]

I know what you're going through, kid.
That look in your eyes is so familiar it scares me...
But don't give up hope.

Don't be like me.

[ShadowsOnTheMoon]

trust you. trust you, yeah, when the second i do you go and do that and then blame it on me like how was i supposed to stop you why do you even tell me when i cant stop you stop it this is not helping either of us

[zyn]

Shite.

[secret_writer]

It really hurts, to feel you walk away without ever saying. You act like we're just fine, than talk with her about what I've done wrong. You make little comments that really do hurt, and you two are ganging up on me, making me feel excluded and not good enough. I don't even know why anymore. I lost my two best friends, with no reasoning. What happened to you two?

[Birdie]

I know you weren't trying to be mean or anything, but it brought up some really painful stuff for me...are you really just like all the others?

I love you...please prove me wrong.

[Bittersweet*Bonbon]

S**, this is the last time you'll ever have the power to hurt me. I removed the pretense that you cared, and I'll never forgive you for manipulating me. I deserved better..