Things Left Unsaid *LA*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Tue Aug 16, 2011 5:47 pm

thankyou thankyou thankyou!!!!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by disastercake » Wed Aug 17, 2011 12:08 pm

I had no idea you realized I'm scared to death of you and that you've noticed/ gotten close to my walls. It is very scary and I really, really want to run the other way. We both know a relationship wouldn't work, but even as a good friend you're getting close and it's scary. It's everything I can do not to insult you, be mean, or generally pull away so that you stay away from the parts of me that I like to hide, the parts of me that if you got close to you could really hurt me with. My heart is fragile, that's why it's surrounded by huge walls.

I should just jump in totally, and I would if there was a chance at a relationship, but with friendships I proceed slower and with more caution. I should let myself feel everything and lay it all out on the line. If I get hurt, which I will, at least I'll feel something, and maybe some real positive emotions I haven't felt in a long time before that happens.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Stefani140 » Thu Aug 18, 2011 4:50 am

really convincing argument, "no you shouldn't feel bad, I'm going to bed now." wow, I'm convinced :roll:
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by munchalot11 » Thu Aug 18, 2011 10:59 pm

pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease.
Youre meant to be my friend and i trust you. But you're making me cry.
I can't bear the idea of you hurting anyone. I know you've been through shit and had loads of problems but please.
Please dont :cry:
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Post by strider 151 » Sat Aug 20, 2011 12:01 am

im really scared, you hurt us all so much. idk how i will cope if you come back again.

C - if you didnt wanna meet me then just say so? im hurt that you lied to them, are you ashamed of me? i thought you were different....i thought u were better, one of the good guys. guess your just like the rest of them. why lie? really? it doesnt seem like something you would do. i dont understand
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Post by Stefani140 » Sun Aug 21, 2011 2:49 am

how rich, just a few weeks ago you were whining and bitching to me about how everyone cancels on you, everyone flakes on you, no one lives up to their word. last week....you canceled on me when we had plans. canceled an hour before those plans with no explanation. this week...oh yeah, you canceled on me 2 hours before we had plans.

maybe all your other friends being flaky is just karma. I'm sick of being treated like I'm a dispensable friend.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Licentia Poetica » Wed Aug 24, 2011 12:05 pm

You know how I said if you were in a burning building I would run in to save you? This is kind of the same thing. I'd sacrifice my life for your happiness.
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Post by Stefani140 » Wed Aug 24, 2011 9:00 pm

yes I want to be involved in the interviews for the new employees...my goal is to take over your job and save us all. Not that I tell you that, I just tell you that i have management aspirations.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by bearcat » Thu Aug 25, 2011 6:03 am

I am so angry... angry at you that you brought us to this and angry at you that I have to be in this state where I am angry at you. I think that you want me to support you but how can I do that when your freedom has meant trampling me. You have said so many things that have humiliated me and made me feel so small that I can't breathe... how could you underestimate me so much... only through your selfishness could you think that I didn't understand. You thought that my understanding should mean steadfastness while I was trampled. That I should accord so much respect and understanding while you threw me under the bus...

And I am angry and hormonal and I can't trust anything that I think or say because I am at such loose ends
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by [iamacliche] » Thu Aug 25, 2011 10:55 am

this job is a fucking joke.
You have to become what you fancy. Paperback head, you get carried away. Stitch up your spine to keep the suitors away. Must draw your own aid. Must sift your affairs. Must frame up a material girl. ♥


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Post by Stefani140 » Fri Aug 26, 2011 4:47 pm

what's the point of having me train someone if you just drag him off someplace else every 5 minuts. can't really teach him anything that way!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Birdie » Sat Aug 27, 2011 8:14 pm

Do not drop anchor here. I know it's hard, but you can't give up. You're too young to waste your life rotting away in a cell.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by munchalot11 » Sun Aug 28, 2011 9:44 pm

I give up with you. I really really do. You guys.... I don't have the energy to try any more.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by breathing » Mon Aug 29, 2011 5:49 am

I am now ready to seek help - please help me.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by zyn » Mon Aug 29, 2011 8:28 pm

Fuck off. Seriously, fuck off.
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Post by capricorn » Mon Aug 29, 2011 10:40 pm

You know, I just remembered again that there were OTHER reasons that I walked out of your life.
Like the fact that you're a fairly shitty person, and either a liar or a fantasist or both, and egotistical, and I don't trust most of what you say. Those kinds of reasons.
So much better off without you.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Fri Sep 02, 2011 12:24 am

J, WTF!! IM SO FUCKING SICK OF THESE GAMES!!! I DONT WANNA PLAY ANYMORE! I NEVER WANTED TO! I HATE YOU! I WANNA FUCKING KILL YOU!!! I WAS TRYING TO BE NICE, WHY IS THAT SO FUCKING HARD!! I WANT MY BOOK BACK. ITS MINE. BELONGS TO ME. FIND SOME OTHER STUPD GIRL TO MESS AROUND WITH, I JUST WANT MY BOOK BACK, WHY IS THAT SO HARD???? GIVE IT!!!!!!!! I DONT WANT ANY PART OF ME LINKED TO YOU, I WANT NO REASON TO TALK TO YOU. EVER. FUCK OFF!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YOU MAKE ME SOOOOOO MAD!!!!!!!

and i hate myself for letting you get to me. these tears are as worthless as you.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Fri Sep 02, 2011 12:28 am

i wanna take it all back. every word, every touch, every look, every thought, everything i told you. i wanna block out everything you did, everything i did, everything you told me. please. just take it all away, i cant do this anymore. please...i cant holdmyself together anymore.i cant takethis, i hate feeling this way, i hate remembering. please...just give me whats mine, give me no reason to need to talk to you again, ever.


im falling apart here. i think i've been hiding it pritty well, trying to give it to god, and mostly its worked. i just have a hard stone in my heart full of all of the memories of us, poisening me, making me bitter and angry. i dont know how to grt rid of it and i dont think i can live like this anymore

please, someone help me
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Eva » Fri Sep 02, 2011 7:55 pm

I know it hasn't been easy, but I miss you..I miss you so much. We have to get back together..we just have to :cry:

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by zyn » Fri Sep 02, 2011 8:42 pm

I'll miss you more than anyone else. You little fucker, you.
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