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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by strider 151 » Thu Jul 14, 2011 8:18 pm

i want you to wrap your arms around me and keep me safe. i wanna feel safe
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Post by styled_wrong » Sun Jul 17, 2011 9:53 pm

i think im gay
scars are tattoos with better stories
it's hard to answer the question whats wrong, when nothing is 'right'
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Post by munchalot11 » Mon Jul 18, 2011 3:37 pm

I hate myself so fucking much right now.
Our scars remind us that the past is real

I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people...
... but the only trouble is, I don't know how to give myself advice


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Post by Beasty » Sat Jul 23, 2011 12:22 am

I was a shitshow. Everything I've constructed since then has been in defence of my ever doing that again and in explaining it away. I hate myself for that. I still can't forgive myself. I wonder if I ever will be able to?
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Jul 27, 2011 10:26 pm

im scared :(
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Post by styled_wrong » Thu Jul 28, 2011 9:31 pm

im not strong enough
scars are tattoos with better stories
it's hard to answer the question whats wrong, when nothing is 'right'
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Post by munchalot11 » Fri Jul 29, 2011 10:03 pm

I can't stop thinking about it.
Our scars remind us that the past is real

I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people...
... but the only trouble is, I don't know how to give myself advice


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Post by Beasty » Sat Jul 30, 2011 3:23 am

Perhaps it's a little off, but I'm appropriating it anyway.
"No boom today. Boom tomorrow. There’s always a boom tomorrow. What? Look, somebody’s got to have some damn perspective around here. Boom, sooner or later. BOOM!" - Susan Ivanova

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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Sat Jul 30, 2011 3:27 am

I slept with a stranger.
The Patch Stop Bad Poetry


If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Aug 07, 2011 8:06 am

ED thoughts are pushing in again, and I'm letting them. Even though it might destroy my relationship.
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Post by Stefani140 » Tue Aug 09, 2011 5:21 pm

I don't feel safe, and I'm angry and want to lash out in revenge...no matter how unhealthy I know that would be.
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."

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Post by capricorn » Wed Aug 10, 2011 12:29 am

I read these articles online about sexual abuse/rape by females ... there is just this ball of pain inside me, it feels like my chest is caving in.
I feel so, so, so fucked up right now.
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Post by Nazgul » Wed Aug 10, 2011 4:12 pm

Several years ago I was in a treatment facility that was so bad, so abusive, that I cried myself to sleep every night and prayed that the police would come and rescue me and put me in jail if I wasn't stable enough to be safe on my own. Now, sometimes I become gripped with the fear that my prayer will be answered late in a way I don't want it to be.
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Post by Stefani140 » Wed Aug 10, 2011 6:06 pm

I sometimes wish I could go back to the psych hospital because being independent is too tough and stressful.
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."

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Post by strider 151 » Tue Aug 16, 2011 5:48 pm

when i once thought i loved you, i now hate you, and im struggling to force myself to talk to you because u hurt me and im mad at myself for letting you. but i know i have to because if i dont forgive you then i cant move on
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by Stefani140 » Tue Aug 16, 2011 9:53 pm

I want to hurt, at least then I'd be feeling something rather than walking around like a zombie.
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Post by eccentricfuzzyme » Fri Aug 19, 2011 3:21 am

I am too old to never have known love, and I am terrified I never will.
"The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ, Moves on."
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Post by strider 151 » Fri Aug 19, 2011 11:56 pm

my house got attacked. i havent told anyone yet. i guess im just trying to move on. i dont want anyones sympathy, but im really shaken up. we thought the door would break, his words so harsh....im scared to trust people because they always seem to hurt me in some way. take him for example, it took me a long time to trust him, never thought he would do this, and then there he is. i still hear the pounding in my ears, see him outside the house. im scared. i need help
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.

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Post by munchalot11 » Sun Aug 28, 2011 9:43 pm

I'm struggling. I'm really struggling. I want to fight this, but i dont think i can
Our scars remind us that the past is real

I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people...
... but the only trouble is, I don't know how to give myself advice


On the mission to make the perfect flat white. Because I'm cool like that.
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Post by mande » Sun Aug 28, 2011 10:02 pm

Holy hell that was the best night of my life.

And so self-destructive that I cannot do that again.
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