Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[strider 151]

i dont want this.

[stripysocks4christ]

it amazes me that i somehow find the energy to keep going through this.. but i have very little hope for the future, and i feel like its all going to crash down on me any minute. urgh.

[xPeggiePatchx]

I used to want to leave Northern Ireland.
Now, I'm desperate to go to uni in Belfast.
I can't face not seeing you for months at a time.

[strider 151]

u dont understand

[marshmallowfluff]

I cant wait to move away again, just so i'm not watched all day and i can cut as much and eat as little as i like.

[Licentia Poetica]

Just letting you guys all know that I'm listening, someone is reading all these posts and caring about you, no matter who you are, no matter what your secret is.

[strider 151]

i hate the power u have over me

[xPeggiePatchx]

I looked through your photos on Facebook. Again.
It's obsessive, and it's weird, and it's pathetic.
But I miss you.

[daisy_chain]

My eating disorder is completely controlling and ruining my life, but I have no idea how to escape it.

[Licentia Poetica]

Routine quoting of Guidelines, please read them

GUIDELINES:

- Secrets can often be painful and negative. That is okay. But that <i>doesn't</i> mean this thread can be used as a loophole to get around BUS rules.

- No attacks on other members. If you have a beef with another member, take it up with them.

- No suicide notes, and nothing that is pro-suicide.

- Nothing that is pro-SI or pro-ED - we understand that everyone here is in different stages of recovery, but there are places on the board where you can work out / through those feelings.

- No manipulative comments that you intend someone else to find and have a reaction to.

- You cannot post that you ARE hurting yourself, WILL WITHOUT DOUBT hurt yourself or HAVE hurt yourself if you need and don't intend to get medical help. "Hurting yourself" includes SI, SU, OD's, destructive eating disorder behaviour like purging or starving, as well as putting yourself in dangerous situations like approaching/ contacting an abuser. This stuff is either against BUS rules or belongs in the B&A forum, or somewhere you can get constructive feedback like main or some of the more "analys-y" coping threads.


Can say:

I want to hurt myself.
I feel like I don't deserve to eat.
I feel like being skinny will solve my problems.
I want to die.
I feel fat.
I hurt myself.
Suicide feels like a good option.
I am scared to get help.

Can't say:

I have a blade in my hand and I'm cutting now.
Tomorrow at uni I'm going to hurt myself.
I've taken an OD and don't want anyone to know.
My friend wants to die and I think it's a good idea for him.
I'm not eating anything today because I don't deserve it.
I want to know how to purge better.
I'm going to kill myself next week.
Life sucks, so long y'all.



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WARNING

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Other Useful Links

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The Constructive Venting Thread

How You Feel And What You're Going to Do About It

Reasons For Living

[Beasty]

I've thought about ending our relationship. I think it's because once I have someone, really have them, I no longer want them. I have you. I'm wondering if I still want you. It's a horrible tendency that I should fix, really.

[Licentia Poetica]

I've thought about ending our relationship. I think it's because once I have someone, really have them, I no longer want them. I have you. I'm wondering if I still want you. It's a horrible tendency that I should fix, really.

I think the same way sometimes. I think it's because once I truly believe someone loves me, I start feeling like they're stupid.

[strider 151]

I want to hurt myself.
suicide feels like a good optoion

[Annybelly]

I don't think I can cope with seeing you again, and I'm scared it'll go back to how it was. I don't want to be that helpless little girl again.

[breathing]

I don't know how to respond to negative retorts anymore, even if they aren't (directly) addressed to me. It hurts too much.

[strider 151]

i cant cope with it all!!!!!!!!!

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

I don't want to do this. Not really. Maybe a small part of me does, yes but mostly I don't want to do this to you. I just want help. I want something to change. I want to grow and recover with you - not continue to remain stuck and watch you grow, change and recover. We were always in this together. I don't want to leave you but I don't have the will to live either.

[amerylis]

I only have one exam left to my degree....I can't concentrate on revising for it I have no motivation and right now I don't care I just want it over

[falling...]

i dont know where to go from here. i feel like people IRL dont hear me when i need help. you think im fine when im not

[xPeggiePatchx]

I do believe in fairies. (I do, I do.)