Things Left Unsaid *LA*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Mon May 09, 2011 7:14 am

ugh why are u so annoying???? cant u give me some fricking space!!!! i dont need u around me 100% of the time, can do things myself, i dont need u there. im independant, i dont need a imature lil boy telling me what to do or how i cn do something, especially about food,. u dont understand my issues so stay out of it. no, i dont wnana walk to urs this morning, but will i? yes cos otherwise u will give me the old emotional blackmail again. thanks. glad i have u in my life and all that. keep this up and i will MAKE u leave me alone. and i fight more with u then i do with anyone. this isnt going to work. but u dont see it. u dont understand. ugh, why cant u just be more like how i want u 2 be?
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by desperateforgrace » Tue May 10, 2011 1:15 am

Please don't betray me like in the dream. Please. Don't. My heart would be shattered in a million pieces if you did. Please don't be distant like the other person was because here I am hanging on to the ONLY pastor and pastor's wife that I actually trust. And here's hoping you wont ever break that trust I had to work so hard to build.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by mande » Tue May 10, 2011 1:18 am

You're pretty fucking amazing. Let's not screw this up.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Tue May 10, 2011 9:22 pm

Why couldn't you just keep your FUCKING mouth shut?

I thought I could trust you.

I thought wrong.

:(
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by esther_mouse » Wed May 11, 2011 3:55 am

I might have said that I don't expect you to talk to me...and I don't, really. But...I wish you would. I really wish you would, despite not expecting you to. Please do. You helped me out the other night but I still feel like dying, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry...you're my only friend in the world. I think. Maybe I have no friends. You said "probably", it hurt a bit. Know you're not going to talk to me again ever, but I wish you would, soon. I don't know why I think of having a friend if I feel I just annoy you. I don't know what the point is. Please talk to me, remind me that I'm not so alone...please talk to me soon...I know you won't...but I so wish you would

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by mande » Wed May 11, 2011 1:00 pm

My heart feels so heavy watching you in pain. Emotionally and physically. I can't be around you when you're like this - it's only going to end badly for both of us.

B - I can't wait to see you tonight. I need you.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Wed May 11, 2011 10:25 pm

i so rarly feel good about myself, why did u have to make me feel crap? i so didnt need it. and then i bet u bad mouthed me behind my back. ah well, guess i ave to put on a brave face eh? always act happy and in control eh? thats how things are now. its u and her, and i cope. im the one causing trouble, im the one to blame. i dont wanna laugh at all those jokes, i dont wanna be that person. ive been sat apart by god, and i wanna live to my full potential, i dont wanna be of the world. look at our friendship group, its just full of lies, faulse pretences and rude jokes.

and you, dont hurt me again. u dont understand how deeply it goes. dont even.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by esther_mouse » Thu May 12, 2011 2:19 am

You're the only person I can tell and now I can't even tell you...please please please say something to me because I CAN'T say anything to you. And it will be too late. Think it is already. Does it matter? Really? Can't ask anyone else for help and I can't ask you now either. Going to not matter anyways. Nothing will. Don't know if I should write you a letter to say bye. Would you hate me even more for that? I won't write it. Hope you are not too angry. Hope you don't understand, either.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Kaleb » Thu May 12, 2011 10:47 am

Y ou blanking me hurt me more than I can explain, I was only trying to be a friend.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Thu May 12, 2011 8:31 pm

Thank you, you have the ability to make me smile, by telling me you're too busy to reply right now, because it means I haven't annoyed you. Heh.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Thu May 12, 2011 9:41 pm

you. just... urgh. grow up ffs. stop constantly thinking about yourself. your always so immature and fake. everyone sees through your little act. give it up. i cant wait till next week when you have something else to think about. im sick of this attitude, but hey, its ok, lets play happy families. fuck you.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Beasty » Sat May 14, 2011 6:36 am

You broke me. Is it a break that will heal stronger? Like re-breaking a toe to reset it and get it straight again. Is that what you did? Do you even KNOW what you have done to me?
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by -Apolla- » Sat May 14, 2011 4:53 pm

you are my past. you may be my future. if you change if you fight and if you improve. however, you are not my present.
I have no obligations or anything to you. I am going to do what I want to, I am going to get the love I need right now, not from you but from anybody.
I hope you're happy now.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by sweetelisum » Sun May 15, 2011 10:47 pm

ok. really dude? You barely talk to me for 2 months. miss my birthday , all over something stupid. you continue to read all of my blogs and send me a message of support and "hope i have a nice life.good things are ahead" umm... i thought i was supposed to be the younger, irresponsible one here. whatever happened to face to face communication or a simple call? What do you expect me to say at this point? Great friends for 2 years and all of the sudden "well, it was nice knowing you?" really, what are you expecting from me. you abandoned me at a very hard time in my life..what kind of friend does that make you???
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by daisy_chain » Mon May 16, 2011 1:26 pm

E- I miss you. I wish we could see each other more often. However, it makes me appreciate when i can see you much more. I really enjoyed our skype chat on Friday.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Mon May 16, 2011 5:15 pm

GIVE ME SOME SPACE
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by -Apolla- » Mon May 16, 2011 6:14 pm

how nice of you to send her an email and chat with her. well, best you go over to her completly. since you seem to like her that much. thanks, anyway. bastard.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by strider 151 » Thu May 19, 2011 10:27 pm

please, this is killing me, i just need some space!!!!
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Eva » Sat May 21, 2011 1:39 pm

If you're going to dump me, just do it now. Why can't you just reply? I don't understand anything. Ok, so I guess you've regret what you said. Fine. I'm going to move on

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by noldo » Sat May 21, 2011 4:28 pm

I'm getting sick of you. Why is one thing okay when you do it but not when I do it. Sometimes I doubt that I still want to be friends with you. You're getting on my nerves, seriously!!! Imo best friends should act differently!
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