Secrets Thread - Read first post!

[steady hands]

I can't decide that it is a good thing or a bad thing that I ran out of drugs.

[demolition_lover]

If you weren't around, I would probably die. And that's not an exaggeration.

[My Hazey Clarity]

When I have time to think is when i am the most harmful to every aspect of my life.

[strider 151]

i cried for u today, just like i did yesterday. you bring me so much pain and joy, its so bittersweet.

[Kltat]

I am tired of trying

[Chey]

I wish we would hang out more

[Licentia Poetica]

I am a bottomless pit of reassurance need. To satisfy my craziness I would need you to enthusiastically tell me how much you love me every single minute of every day forever. And even then, I don't think I'd ever believe it.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

I never said for sure that it wasn't still a possibility. There is still some part of me that wants to. I never said for sure that I was opting out of this. I think I was just delaying it more than anything and that took the pressure off for a while but time has run out now and I need to make a decision. Live or die. I still don't know what to choose. I really don't want to let you down especially when you're fighting so hard for me at the moment. I feel so selfish. And this is why I am a bad friend. I am sorry.

[strider 151]

i regret it but i dont regret it. im such a fickle cow.

[volta]

I am a bottomless pit of reassurance need. To satisfy my craziness I would need you to enthusiastically tell me how much you love me every single minute of every day forever. And even then, I don't think I'd ever believe it.

this.

[volta]

and

1. every time i meet a new guy, my first thought is if a relationship between us would work. i feel like this labels me as "desperate," and i worry that i'll run off with the first guy that actually pays attention to me.
2. whenever people compliment me, i think they're lying, or just being nice. i wonder if i don't believe them because of issues with my self-image, but there's no way to get outside of my own head to find out. it's a conundrum that's driving me crazy.

[-Apolla-]

I think I could fall in love with you. I just don't want to. we don't fit together and I know you are going to hurt me.

[stripysocks4christ]

sometimes i think it would be easier to hide away from everyone.
sometimes i want to just submerge myself into depression.
sometimes i wish i didnt have to try so hard.
sometimes im convinced the world will be better off without me.

meh.

[zombiepeople]

I wish my fears weren't so debilitating

[Annybelly]

I wish it hadn't happened. I wish it wasn't like this. I'm sorry for wishing.

[Forget Me]

I haven't had sex in over 2 years. It makes me feel worthless and unloved. At first I said "If, in 2 more months..." and then"If, in a year..." and every time the date flows by and I feel like I've failed again. And now I think "If, when I reah the 5 year mark..." and I'm beginning to think I might actually do something then. But mostly I just can't bear the thought of 3 more years alone.

[Chey]

I wish you would stop pretending you don't know what I am talking about.

[xPeggiePatchx]

Part of my head wants to still believe in romance and fate and happily ever after.
It tells me that I had to go through that to meet you.. it's hoping that out of something pretty crap will come something amazing.

The cynical, realistic part of my head tells me if I'm stupid enough to believe that, then I deserve the inevitable dissapointment.

[Annybelly]

She was wearing your hoodie. She didn't look like you did. You won't anymore though, I guess, will you?
And then that makes me think of her hoodie.. I didn't like that hoodie, particularly, but I'd give anything to see it again. Anything.
And then her hoodie, the 'bad' hoodie. That makes me feel horrible.

I need to stop thinking.

[Roxi]

I like you so much. But I'm so f***ing scared that I'm going to get hurt.
And I'm even more scared that if I tell you, I'll scare you away - if I haven't already.