Things Left Unsaid *LA*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by mande » Thu Apr 14, 2011 4:29 am

I don't miss you.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Thu Apr 14, 2011 9:53 am

please please dont be lying to me again.... we've been through this before. i thought we had got over it. but now you never give the same story twice. i really want you to be telling the truth. but now im honestly not sure... and if thats the case it means you dont trust me. which hurts.
where is this even going, if neither of us can trust the other?? ive been in this exact place countless times before. each time i keep running back to you... cos i want so badly to beleive you care about me. is that true?? or is this just one big lie??
i feel guilty for even asking that question, but im sorry, im loosing my patience...
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by capricorn » Fri Apr 15, 2011 4:58 pm

You actually expect me to care what you think?
LOL fucking LOL I always knew you were a bitch but I didn't think you were that stupid.
I'm done with caring about what all of you think :D

And you ... oh, you.
How does it feel knowing you have to crawl back to people you hate, people that rejected you, because you had a tantrum and burned bridges with me and her?
Oh and by the way. No one likes you. It's just that I'm the only one with the guts to be open about it. :D
So you can just go back to cuddling up to W and bitching to each other about us and how badly we treated you, and that's fine by me because it just shows so clearly how pathetic you both are.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Fri Apr 15, 2011 7:53 pm

I can't stop. If I stop, then you're right. And if I stop, I leave myself open to be hurt. And I'm scared.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by kipanya » Sat Apr 16, 2011 9:57 am

You know it took me three days work to do that garden right? THREE DAYS! and it was hard might I add. And what do I get for it? FRIGGING NOTHING! How hard is it for someone to acknowledge the fact that for the first time in the 3 years I have lived here your garden looks tidy. Nope, I get no thanks, not even an "I see you did the gardening". HOW HARD IS IT TO GET A LITTLE FREAKING ACKNOWLEGDMENT AROUND HERE! Frigging ungreatful gits!

Also, you're having a party and remember to cater for everyone EXCEPT one of the people that lives with you. I don't expect much, you know I am gluten intolerant. Get something I can eat... gluten free sausaes for exam. HOW HARD IS IT?

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by -Apolla- » Sat Apr 16, 2011 12:36 pm

Have I ever mentioned that I don't like you? I don't think so. you are just one stupid retard. you are ridiculous. you may have had your problems, I don't know - but you have never been near where I am. so stop telling me what's best for me. I think I know that far better than you do. honestly, man, what's up with you? you are so arrogant and annoying and nobody believes you your stories. and even if they're true, I don't wanna hear them. got that? I don't want to hear it, I don't want to know. keep your problems to yourself, I don't want to know about them. you are so young, you do not have life experience and it's ridiculous how you act like you do. you don't know nothing about life. and acting's all that you can actually do. just go away, don't talk to me again, vanish from my life! and please, stop smiling your stupid "I know all"-smile. just fuck off.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by steady hands » Mon Apr 18, 2011 3:34 am

Are you fucking kidding me right now?
I can't even believe this is happening.

I am so fucking selfish.

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Post by strider 151 » Mon Apr 18, 2011 12:45 pm

im in love with the way you touch me and the words you say, i just wish you were everything i wanted you to be
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Jamas » Mon Apr 18, 2011 10:38 pm

I want to go away. I want to leave you, and, sooner or later, I will. I would be better off alone. (grrr)

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Tue Apr 19, 2011 4:14 pm

Is it still possible? I mean. It's been a month since I suspected. But when I saw, Sunday even, it looked like it. But then.. in the month.. it didn't look more. It should've done. And that'd be 4 months ish, if not 5. So you'd have said.
Shizzle, I read into things way too much.. Hang on, no, June.. No. It could be.
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Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Tue Apr 19, 2011 4:55 pm

Why didn't you tell us? We would have wanted to know. I know you probably didn't want to think about it on your holiday, or at least try not to think about it but we would have liked to support you. I am glad you told one of us but it makes me wonder if you were ever intending to let the rest of us know? Then again, you must know that D would tell everyone else at some point? I just don't understand.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Chey » Wed Apr 20, 2011 2:13 am

I can't belive you did that. do you know how awkward it will be now????


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Post by Stefani140 » Wed Apr 20, 2011 3:46 pm

Your insistence on not answering my question by repeating that I should already know, is not helping me feel like I know at all. Just answer the damn question!
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Post by strider 151 » Wed Apr 20, 2011 10:37 pm

*slight sex trigg* rel trigg*

oh CRAP how did that happen? now i have to break up with u AGAIN and its gonna be 100000 times harder then it was. flip. well, there goes my innocence. im so sorry but i did say i wasnt worth it, i said u could do better, i said i was trouble, u saw what happened with DN so this couldnt end any better eh???? ahhh im so sorry. ur pain isnt as hard as my confusion. also, can't u sustain an erection for more then 5 mins?? ahh i miss u already, i miss the way u did that, the way u held me, the way u made me feel, how i made u feel, how things just happened so naturally, how its the furthest i have ever gone. poop. told you, im just a hartless biatch who enjoys hurting people.... hope everyone is prepared for the awquardness at school, especially after that. please, ur soo mucyh better off without me and without the pain. just move on please. u say u love me, whats love? u dont even know what that is. omg cant belive that even happened....oh god please forgive me all i need is you why is this so difficult??? u have already proven that i cant be trusted, now i really know i cant be. please forgive me.

im so scared what K will say when she finds out, if i even tell her. maybe i shouldnt even tell her this. :-?
im so confused :cry:
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by bearcat » Fri Apr 22, 2011 7:30 am

it's just not good enough, this lukewarm bullshit. angry but some other feeling I can't put a name on. maybe disgust? I'm not your friend and you're not going to make me into one. I won't cooperate with this. I will not put up with this call for fucking adaptation. Fuck you and your stupid demands. They are the most boring fucking thing.
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Post by kermit » Fri Apr 22, 2011 12:29 pm

I don't understand how someone so lovely can be friends with such a manipulative bitch.
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Post by Annybelly » Fri Apr 22, 2011 8:34 pm

Well, the answer to that was yes, wasn't it. Blimey, you took your time.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Apr 22, 2011 10:10 pm

god give me patience, cos i dont think i can go through annother day like today with her.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Descent » Sat Apr 23, 2011 3:29 am

I do think I love you. You see things in me that no one else has ever seen, things that I never quite realized about myself. You've seen how paranoid I can be, you know the things that I could never tell anyone else. And yet you still don't think of me any less. You are the only person I have ever known that accepts me as I am. You don't want me to change anything about myself, in fact you love the things that I don't like about myself. I don't know how I became lucky enough to cross paths with someone like you. I just wish I could express how grateful I am that I have you. You have showed me that I really am worth loving. You have made my life, and my view on it, significantly better, and no matter what happens, I will never, ever forget you. You've left your footprints on my heart, and I hope that we never have to say goodbye.
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Post by strider 151 » Sat Apr 23, 2011 3:02 pm

please please please just accept it. we cant. be. together. everytime i see u i feel the guilt rise again. all i can see when i see u is what we did. just. move. on. get the picture? no, u never will. accept it this time or i WILL have to hurt u, which involves hurting me more and hurting everyone else more. we shouldnt have done that, so move on. it was my fault, im taking responsability, now im solving the problem. just leave me alone.
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