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Secrets thread - Please read first post

Post by Kltat » Mon Feb 28, 2011 4:10 am

I am scared that I am falling for you. I am trying to pretend it's not happening, but you make me smile.
Hugs and PMs welcome. :-)

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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Mon Feb 28, 2011 8:01 pm

I think you're going to break up with me soon.
Which means I can't SU for the next few months in case people think you were the reason.
I can't dye my hair back to black either.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Mar 01, 2011 9:09 pm

My pain is back. After I'd almost convinced myself the whole thing was in my imagination.
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Post by strider 151 » Tue Mar 01, 2011 11:25 pm

im scared by how much power u have over me
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
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Post by strmdncr » Sun Mar 06, 2011 4:30 am

I don't even know you yet you drive me absolutely nuts with what I can only seem to describe as continuous bitching and whining about everything.

Yet it's not even so much you that bothers me as that so many people seem to respond to you doing this when so many others in this world keep their thoughts and pain to themselves or a very small group of people.

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Post by capricorn » Sun Mar 06, 2011 5:28 pm

Right now I really wish I was thinner.
Or thin, full stop.
Meh.
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Post by Chey » Mon Mar 07, 2011 2:40 pm

I hope you come up this spring. I wish I could tell you how much I really love you and wish you could be here with me.


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Post by capricorn » Mon Mar 07, 2011 11:08 pm

I do judge people. And I am competitive.
Just not with people I love.
And the person I judge the most is myself.

If I'm not clever I don't know what my identity is.
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"I am haunted by humans."
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"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Julz607 » Tue Mar 08, 2011 11:12 am

I really dislike myself. And I lie so compulsively.

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Post by divided_by_zero » Thu Mar 10, 2011 6:32 am

I felt beautiful today.
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Post by Chey » Thu Mar 10, 2011 9:54 pm

I feel pathetic


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Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Mar 11, 2011 10:46 pm

im scared. but i wont admit it to anyone.
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Post by strider 151 » Fri Mar 11, 2011 11:35 pm

i dont wanna be in this relationship anymore.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by Descent » Wed Mar 16, 2011 1:32 am

I want to tell you so badly that I'm not happy. But I'm afraid of what everyone will think. There are so many things about me that no one knows. I'm terrified. You'll all think I'm crazy. I don't want the sympathy. I just want someone to talk to. But I don't want to to bring you down with my problems. Do you have any idea how hard it is to just sit here and pretend that I'm happy all day, when on the inside I'm fighting the urge to scream? I have no one.
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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Wed Mar 16, 2011 1:48 am

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Post by steady hands » Thu Mar 17, 2011 5:22 am

I am scared it never stops.

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Post by Annybelly » Thu Mar 17, 2011 6:05 pm

I need you to tell me I can do this. I'm relying on your words more than I should be.
You're the reason I'm not letting myself even think of suicide. Because you'd get so much shit if I did. Because you'd be in trouble. Not because you'd care. I don't know I'd believe you did.
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Post by Chey » Thu Mar 17, 2011 6:45 pm

I need S again. I know LC is great but I miss S and now that she is upstairs working with my friend and our housemate, I am finding I am missing her all over again but I am worried if I tell anyone they will switch S to another program and none of us will have S.


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Post by strider 151 » Fri Mar 18, 2011 8:31 am

i dont want him anymore
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by SplinteredGirl » Fri Mar 18, 2011 8:19 pm

sometimes i would like nothing but to self destruct, but i know how far i have come. but still, the thoughts linger, i just wonder when i will fall again

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