Things Left Unsaid *LA*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Mar 04, 2011 7:44 pm

im scared. so so scared. i dont want to have to sit and make polite conversation with you tonight. but i dont know how to admit to you that im not OK. i just..... dont know what to do. i hate being vunerable. it scares me.




i think ive forgiven you. and thats... thats scary. cos i never thought i would do that.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Sat Mar 05, 2011 10:02 pm

LEAVE ME ALONE.
This is starting to get on the verge of stalking, seriously.
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Post by Chey » Sun Mar 06, 2011 2:07 am

don't embarrass me tomorrow...


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Post by a7xcncangel » Sun Mar 06, 2011 2:48 am

Sorry, mom. I had one sip right from the bottle. I promised I wouldn't drink.....
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Post by strider 151 » Sun Mar 06, 2011 2:20 pm

why dont u like me? yes iom stupid and i dont think before i speak and i have a lot of problems, but somehow we need to make this work because we have to work together. im not as bad as i seem, just get to know me. ugh, why does this bother me so much?? i shouldnt care what u think
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Post by capricorn » Sun Mar 06, 2011 5:22 pm

I wish I had your problems sometimes.

And yes, it hurts.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Mar 06, 2011 7:37 pm

really. it amazes me... all i ever get from you is how im not good enough and how i put so much stress on you etc.. so why is it so hard for you to believe i have depression and i hate who i am?? im just believing the crap you give me every single day.
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Post by Descent » Mon Mar 07, 2011 12:30 am

I hate how I have to closely guard everything I say so as not to make you angry. I hate how I can't go to you about things because all you ever do is get mad at me. I hate how you can't even talk things out, you just want to argue and fight. And I hate how even as I try to stop SIing, I always get the urge to do it again because of my stupid arguments with YOU. You're the most immature, hypocritical person I've ever met. You're the only person that I literally hate... And you're my sister.
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Post by Beasty » Mon Mar 07, 2011 5:38 pm

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck you. Please don't tell me how great my paper was and then give me an A-. It brings me up just to drop me on my ass. I need those numbers. I hate this.

I hate how dependant my life is upon those numbers on my GPA. I need them more than I need most things in life right now. I'm about to make a deal with God through Lent, and I am not even a christian.
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Post by Annybelly » Mon Mar 07, 2011 5:56 pm

*rant* *minor sex* *SH*
You don't sleep with someone to get confidence. You don't fucking sleep with someone so you can get this 'whole virginity' thing over and done with.
And the fact I'm a Christian has fuck all to do with this. You want to fuck someone you're not married with, fine by me.. just. Not if you're doing it to get back at La. And I don't believe you when you say she's irrelevant.
Don't get hurt. I can't bear to see you fall to pieces again. I can't bear you sitting there fucking cutting every lunchtime, your graphics descriptions of your injuries.
It comes down to the main thing though, doesn't it? You're not the only fucking person in this fucking world.
So fuck who you like, if you're not expecting me to pick up the pieces afterwards. Because it's not on.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Mon Mar 07, 2011 11:36 pm

*for anyone IRL reading this, it stays on bus, kay??*

M - what you said today hurt. it really did. we used to be so close... and i feel like we're drifting apart. i dont want that. we are practically sisters, but all we do is argue.. you claim that im horrible to you. hun, i may give you shit, thats cos im depressed and its all i can do to hold it together. and im not trying to hide behind that as an excuse, but i sometimes wonder if you really understand. its not like your always so lovely and caring to me is it now?? fuck this....... (grrr)
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"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

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"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

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"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


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Post by capricorn » Tue Mar 08, 2011 12:20 am

You're really a fucking bitch, tbh.
I've been going back and forth over this one for years, but yeah you are.
So fucking self centred, what the hell do you think friendship is?
I'm so sick of people who think that like ...
Yeah, shit, watching someone go through depression is AWFUL. It is HELL. It pushed me to my limits.
But at every stage I knew IT WAS NOT ABOUT ME.
Grow the fuck up.
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Julz607 » Tue Mar 08, 2011 11:11 am

I really wish I hadn't introduced you to my friends.

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Post by strider 151 » Wed Mar 09, 2011 10:29 pm

yes im difficult, yes im clingy, yes i always need attention, yes when i get attention i say that i feel crowded and suffocated, but thats just how i am. i cant help it. im sorry. but if you dont like me then stay away?

J - and you, what on earth are you doing? i cant help you because you've pushed me away. well done. i hope you regret it, i hope you come crawling on your knees begging me to be your friend again. but i know deep down you would only hurt me again, you would turn around a few months later and say it was all a pretend game to you and how you didn mean it, and yet i would still take youback again as my friend. now i know how somepeople can keep getting abuse from someone. now i know how it feels. you always manage to make me feel like complete pile of ****. well done. it doesnt take much and yet you seem to have a gift in it. I told you things that i could never tell D and look were it got me! stop acting gay, grow up, and appreciate what you have.

self -finally you! what the fuck are you playing at??? you have a bf, stop looking at other guys. stop smiling at them, look were it got you last time, did it work out? NO so is it going to this time? NO. its almost as bad as 2 timing. just snap out of it. you dont deserve any of them ayways....


K - i could never thankyou for everything you have done. ever. but thankyou, truly.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Annybelly » Wed Mar 09, 2011 10:37 pm

I still don't know if you are. I'm inclined to believe maybe not. I hope so. But chances are it'll happen sooner or later, before I go anyway. But. I know it's bad, but the thought scares me.
♥ "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear." ♥

♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥

♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥

♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥

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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Mar 09, 2011 10:50 pm

dont keep beating yourself up. its heartbreaking to watch. your only human. dont use that as an excuse, but dont try and be perfect all at once. your amazing, i couldnt bear to loose you, so please take care.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


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Post by strider 151 » Thu Mar 10, 2011 9:36 pm

do u really want me?

all i see is you glad to have some attention, someone to hide behind. this isnt serious, and im not sure i want it to be, but i wish it was more meaningful. dont i deserve that? look, you could do 10000 times better then me. really. please, i wish you would free yourself and look elsewere.
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Post by Chey » Thu Mar 10, 2011 9:52 pm

I am so stir crazy. I don't know why I feel so bored. I feel like I just can't get anything started or finished. Its too rainy and misrible to go out but that seems like such a lame excuse.


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Post by strider 151 » Fri Mar 11, 2011 11:34 pm

im so sorry, oh im so sorry. so so sorry. please forgive me. i couldnt bear to loose you
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Post by Sievert Röntgen » Sat Mar 12, 2011 12:05 am

RP - you are a fucking cunt, why did you do that to me you where always an asshat showing off, how you where the big fucking man all important..every one was a sucking up around you and up your arse too while i come to think of it, you didn't notice because it made you oooohhhh so important for fuck sakes man grow a pair of balls you dumb fuck

If only the people who where your friends( if i could ever use that term ever so loosely by the way) Making yourself important to people who didn't know the true you, a fucking alcoholic who had a tendency to abuse your oldest daughter.. Night after night you came home drunk and smelling of alcohol and you wonder why i told you to get fucked... and we always fight i never trusted you EVER, if you where still alive i would of told the world.. you abused me verbally, physically and mentally you restricted my money, my self esteem and my soul. And Now its coming up to the 1st anniversary of your death... And i am expected to grieve for you just like mum, i am expected to cry over you No I will not... and thats the bottom line

You made me feel like utter shit and now i am devoid of any feelings towards you...... ever...
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