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Post by Beasty » Wed Jan 26, 2011 6:20 am

I'd trade, if I somehow had the opportunity. I think.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Jan 26, 2011 8:02 pm

Ive just got used to it being me K and M, now D is involved, im not sure how to react :-?
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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Thu Jan 27, 2011 12:19 am

I'm going to lose my virginity to you, probably this weekend.
I already regret it.
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Post by nagligivagit » Thu Jan 27, 2011 10:42 pm

I love him,
he is the reason I am still living
and sometimes I disdain him for it.

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Post by DuchessN » Fri Jan 28, 2011 2:57 am

I love you more than I will ever be able to tell you.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Jan 28, 2011 10:04 pm

im really worried bout my sister, im terrified she will start following in my footsteps. i would do anything on earth to protect her, i just dont know what to say/do
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


xx Kitti xx


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Post by Annybelly » Sat Jan 29, 2011 8:39 pm

I miss you.
A lot.
And I wish you didn't have to go.
You made me laugh, and you annoyed us, but I loved you.
And it hurts to see you on facebook.
Laughing with them.
When you should be laughing with us instead.
And when you said you wanted us to be your bridesmaids.
It made me tear up.
I wonder if you still have the necklace we all bought you when you left.
I wonder what happened to C. She was a cute baby. I loved her. I remember her.
Did you want to give her up? Did they take her off of you?
I want to know, but I could never ask.
But I miss you, more than I admit.
We've started choir. We went to Newday again. I wish you were there. Grapevine wasn't the same without you.
I wonder if you'd have come to choir too?
I wonder what you'd think of uber.
I want to give you a hug again.
Yeah, I miss you J.
Hopefully we'll be able to meet up. When you're 18, perhaps we'll be allowed.
And I know the circumstances in which we met weren't ideal.
But I'm glad I met you.
You were a good mum to her. You loved her.
I wonder if you got to keep her until Christmas.
I wonder if you bought her what you were planning to.
I wonder what happened with the court case.
Gosh. I want to know so much, but I guess I never will.
I can live with never knowing, I just want to see you again J.
There was so little warning. We had your leaving do, all in a rush.
And I made you that bead thing, and you cried when you had to hugs us good bye.
And then they took your phone, and snapped your SIM card so you didn't have our numbers.
Then you found me on facebook..
But I miss you still. It's not the same.
I know our chats are probably moderated. I just want to see you.

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Post by Chey » Sat Jan 29, 2011 8:50 pm

why did I have to go reminding myself of that incident. I feel really dirty now. I feel like it just happend today and I just want to go wash myself but I worry that I will be letting the feeling get stronger if I try to scrub myself clean.... I just feel gross.


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Post by strider 151 » Sun Jan 30, 2011 10:46 pm

i think i did it all for attention, all of it. everything. and i risked everything for nothing.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by stripysocks4christ » Tue Feb 01, 2011 12:01 am

everytime i see her name, i feel a pang of guilt - like its my fault...
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


xx Kitti xx


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Post by daisy_chain » Fri Feb 04, 2011 7:56 pm

I never thought i would get sucked into an eating disorder. I always thought i would be able to stop when i wanted to, that i was in control. But i'm not. It is completely controlling me and taking over my life.
I'm just dreaming out loud.

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Post by strider 151 » Fri Feb 04, 2011 11:03 pm

i think my feelings were real for him, and now ive lost him forever. dam.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
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Post by nagligivagit » Sat Feb 05, 2011 1:28 am

sometimes I feel like I should go to my therapist appointments drunk so I'll be honest. I'm new to therapy (about 3 months of it) and I desperately want it to help. any suggestions on opening up or how to talk? I get real bad anxiety right before and almost back out but somehow I talk myself into going.
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Post by mande » Sat Feb 05, 2011 3:12 pm

Thank you for showing me that even someone I trust so much is a total douchebag.

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Post by Annybelly » Sat Feb 05, 2011 4:38 pm

Idk how I'll cope with you in my life again. Does that make me a bad person?
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Post by strider 151 » Sat Feb 05, 2011 9:04 pm

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PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by Chey » Sun Feb 06, 2011 9:28 pm

there is too much to do, i feel like I can't do it. I almost wish I hadn't terminated my lease and just stuck here. Even though I know the move is the best thing.


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Post by river's dream » Mon Feb 07, 2011 5:06 am

I'm afraid of leaning too hard on you.

I'm afraid the reason you can't decide is because you still love her.

I'm afraid I'm worthless and you're all trying to decide who gets to tell me

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Post by steady hands » Mon Feb 07, 2011 7:09 am

don't give up on yourself.
don't give up on yourself.

you deserve so much better than this.
you deserve so much better than this.
you deserve so much better than this.


you are worth it.

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Post by Chey » Mon Feb 07, 2011 5:48 pm

I don't think I will trust you after this.


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