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Post by capricorn » Fri Dec 17, 2010 2:32 pm

I don't feel the same anymore. I feel like it died.

I still have your ring.
~Capri
xoxo

"Awake and unafraid."
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"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
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"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Fri Dec 17, 2010 2:57 pm

If anything traumatic ever happens, I hope I slip into some sort of fantasy world, and cease to be aware of reality.
The Patch Stop Bad Poetry


If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love.
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
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Post by hiddensorrow883127 » Wed Dec 22, 2010 6:30 pm

*si*
Im finding it too hard to fight the urges. To hard to fight back.
And to my ex: you cheated. You lied. But I didn't. I LOVE YOU!
"I thought I could trust you...you said I could...you lied and I was so wrong."
"You said you would be there for me. That you would always love me. That I'd never let you down. Then you changed your mind..so now I have memories. AND I WEAR THEM ON MY WRIST."
-Endevour Now. Do Something Intense...to end this
END SI
if only it were that simple
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Post by capricorn » Thu Dec 23, 2010 12:42 am

I don't know how to cope.
I think one of my friends raped my girlfriend.
~Capri
xoxo

"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey


"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
Dune

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Post by Beasty » Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:58 pm

I keep falling for my professors (in a different way than I have fallen for my bf). I love women differently. But how I love her, specifically.
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Post by strider 151 » Fri Dec 24, 2010 7:08 pm

:star: im doing better than ever, but i need you. im nothing without you.

:star: im keeping you at bay because your not a christian. but how can i tell you that when theres no way you would understand?

:star: i dont love A anymore, i have no feelings towards him at all, but how can i leave him again when ive already left him so many times before? and aparently he needs me....
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Post by capricorn » Sun Dec 26, 2010 7:04 pm

Right now I do actually want to go back to how I was.
~Capri
xoxo

"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey


"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
Dune

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Post by strider 151 » Sun Dec 26, 2010 10:01 pm

im falling for my step-mums brother
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by volta » Mon Dec 27, 2010 6:54 am

i'm afraid i'll be alone forever.

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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Mon Dec 27, 2010 12:42 pm

I think about you more than anything else.
The Patch Stop Bad Poetry


If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love.
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
Writers aren't exactly people...they're a whole bunch of people trying to be one person.

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Post by capricorn » Mon Dec 27, 2010 10:50 pm

I have lost so much tolerance for people lately :-?
~Capri
xoxo

"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey


"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
Dune

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Post by volta » Tue Dec 28, 2010 9:07 pm

i don't know how i got here.
to being somewhat healthy. to being almost normal.

why do i want to throw that all away now?

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Post by hiddensorrow883127 » Sat Jan 01, 2011 4:58 am

guy friends...I'm sorry...I feel like I somehow let you down...I should have noticed signs. But i didn't. It breaks me in two.
"I thought I could trust you...you said I could...you lied and I was so wrong."
"You said you would be there for me. That you would always love me. That I'd never let you down. Then you changed your mind..so now I have memories. AND I WEAR THEM ON MY WRIST."
-Endevour Now. Do Something Intense...to end this
END SI
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Post by anna--xo » Sun Jan 02, 2011 10:19 pm

I'm scared of getting better cause it feels like my illness is all i am.
I'm so scared of being alone, but i'm also scared of being with you in case you hit me again.
I sent you to go out tonight because my urges are so massive.
I complain i have no friends left, even though i deliberately drove them away.
I don't know what to do anymore.
"Give me direction to perfection."

PMs, hugs and everything is welcome :)

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Post by Annybelly » Sun Jan 02, 2011 10:22 pm

She kissed a guy, and she liked it :D
And its not me. But I'm not allowed to tell, and it made me smile.
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Post by guest567 » Mon Jan 03, 2011 12:05 pm

Admitting to friends I have feelings for someone is both exciting and scary. They will be expecting progress with him and I am not sure I want to jepardise things with him as a friend.

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Post by Chey » Mon Jan 03, 2011 12:10 pm

I feel ashamed to call you a friend. you are not nice to some of your friends so how can I trust that you are not the same to me.


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Post by strider 151 » Mon Jan 03, 2011 1:54 pm

sometimes i just wanna kiss a girl to see what it feels like. i'm not gay, but i just wanna experiment :-?
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.


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Post by healingmoon » Mon Jan 03, 2011 4:19 pm

I'm scared of people, yet I need people so much.
Maybe I'm really scared of myself?

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Post by a7xcncangel » Wed Jan 05, 2011 3:28 am

:blkstar: I'm joining a Christian worship team on campus just so I can play guitar and hang with a cute guy. I'm not a Christian.
:redstar: I really don't want to stop smoking weed, I'm only doing it because my parents are making huge consequences if I don't.
:lgrnstar: I want to dex the night I get back to school :oops:
:blkstar: I have no immediate plans of quitting smoking cigarettes unlike what I told my parents.
:redstar: I'm scared of giving up weed, alcohol, and dex. Basically, I'm scared to be sober all the time.
:lgrnstar: I have no desire to have a relationship with my parents, even though they've been relatively good to me my whole life
:blkstar: 794 days until I turn 21. It scares me that I'm counting down. Will I ever be able to drink alcohol without abusing it?
:redstar: I hate living with my parents. I want to move out as soon as I can.
:lgrnstar: I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm only in college because everyone else is going.
:blkstar: I hope my parents don't drug test me before I leave, I know I wouldn't pass. :roll:
:redstar: I'm bisexual but only a select group of friends know
:lgrnstar: I have a lot of secrets and it's hard to hold them in. It's kind of scary looking up at this long list
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