last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Stellaria » Thu Sep 02, 2010 2:24 pm

... it didn't seem like my thing anymore.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by capricorn » Thu Sep 02, 2010 8:40 pm

I can't remember :-?
Maybe just not wanting to go back to how I used to be...
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Post by capricorn » Fri Sep 17, 2010 5:36 pm

I promised R.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Annybelly » Fri Sep 17, 2010 6:17 pm

I texted F, and she persuaded me to try it without, give it a chance to improve.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Stormy Llwellyn » Sat Oct 09, 2010 7:49 am

Because my friend at work said I would be okay. She believed in me and told me I was strong enough to resist it.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Neviah » Sun Oct 10, 2010 10:18 am

because i didnt want to hurt my boyfriend
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Post by PokemonGeek » Sun Oct 10, 2010 3:31 pm

I knew I didn't have to do it to cope anymore.
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I will survive
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Post by Annybelly » Sun Oct 10, 2010 3:39 pm

Because F had been so amazing at reassuring me when I was paniattacky and I didnt want to throw that back in her face, so to speak, or remember London badly due to si.
♥ "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear." ♥

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by loveLights » Sat Oct 23, 2010 7:29 am

I didn't want to start all over again.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by everylittlething » Sun Oct 24, 2010 7:17 pm

Hilariously enough, because a very good friend of mine sent me a text that he was too drunk to walk home and asked me to come find him and walk him to my house. And then we sat around talking about assorted nonsense until we both were tired enough to sleep. Always interesting when the need to help someone else overpowers the desire to hurt myself. I like that. :)
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Oct 31, 2010 8:04 pm

i realised that doing so wouldnt actually solve the problem, in fact, it wouldnt change the situation AT ALL...
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by capricorn » Tue Nov 02, 2010 6:24 pm

It would only have compounded the problem at hand.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Annybelly » Sat Nov 06, 2010 8:16 pm

I'd chosen not to take tools with me, so I didn't have the opportuinity to do something which probably wouldn't have helped anyway.
♥ "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear." ♥

♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥

♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥

♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥

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Post by callmebaka » Fri Nov 12, 2010 6:22 pm

My rat was wondering around, so i pet her instead. :mus: Nothing like unconditional love to quash the urge
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Because it is bitter,
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Annybelly » Fri Nov 12, 2010 6:24 pm

It would have been throwing back in F's face, much, after she gave me her time!
♥ "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear." ♥

♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥

♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥

♥ "I lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace." ♥

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by capricorn » Sun Nov 21, 2010 11:41 am

I called my gf instead.
And she would have blamed herself if I had.
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"Awake and unafraid."
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"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief

"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey

"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Neviah » Wed Nov 24, 2010 9:23 am

because i don't *need* to
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by hiddensorrow883127 » Tue Dec 28, 2010 2:18 am

I talked to a close friend of mine who is amazing. Like a brother. He talked to me until i decided that it wasn't worth it for the time being and calmed down.
"I thought I could trust you...you said I could...you lied and I was so wrong."
"You said you would be there for me. That you would always love me. That I'd never let you down. Then you changed your mind..so now I have memories. AND I WEAR THEM ON MY WRIST."
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by strider 151 » Tue Dec 28, 2010 1:03 pm

*rel*

because god says i dont need to
because i still have the scars from before to remind me
because god has more for me than that and i wanna make him proud
because i dont want my future children to see my scars
because I AM strong enough
because im showing my friends its possible

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Elfgirl » Tue Jan 04, 2011 10:32 pm

I realized SI would not rid me of the chaos in my head.
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