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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Stormy Llwellyn » Sat Sep 11, 2010 5:57 pm

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God,grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and the Wisdom to know the difference


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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Sat Sep 11, 2010 6:22 pm

I don't know what love is.
All I know is that I've never felt anything stronger than what I feel for you.

The only reason I call it infatuation is becuase I doubt you feel the same way.
And unrequited love would suck.
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If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love.
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
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Post by capricorn » Sun Sep 12, 2010 9:21 pm

I am getting sick of my group of friends. I just really am.
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"I am haunted by humans."
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Stawberry_Lollipops » Tue Sep 14, 2010 1:30 pm

Fuck...I'm falling apart at the seams. I don't think I can keep going much longer. I don't think I'm stronger enough to fight this anymore. The cracks are getting bigger and bigger everday and I think, this may be the end of the road for me. I can't see anyway out. Fuck.
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Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.” - Lewis Carroll


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Post by capricorn » Tue Sep 21, 2010 9:25 pm

To the best of my knowledge, my ex only SHd once.
She cut my name into her arm.
I just remembered seeing it.
I didn't know what the fuck to do. How I was meant to cope with knowing she did that.
I still don't.
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"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
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"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Peege » Sun Sep 26, 2010 11:28 am

I always thought that losing you would be the worst thing that could happen to me. Now I realise that it's actually losing my trust in you...

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They can always fly away from this rain and this cold


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Post by Isis » Sun Sep 26, 2010 2:50 pm

i know why you're in a bad mood, and you don't know but it's my fault.i hope you'll get better soon :blfrwn:

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Post by DuchessN » Thu Sep 30, 2010 5:42 am

Sometimes, I just really hope things end badly for you . . . because you've acted so stupidly.
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Post by breathing » Mon Oct 11, 2010 3:44 am

I really don't know what I want to major in. I love my current major but I'm not sure if I really want this one, or the one I've wanted since I was younger. Every time I look at the beautiful skies, I want to change my major. But I'm just not certain.

I hope I die before I really have to make a decision. It's too difficult and I feel like I can't do it on my own, even though I eventually have to.

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Post by Stefani140 » Fri Oct 15, 2010 9:51 pm

I really resent you for being the one person I should be able to tell everything and I can't, because you freak out and make me feel like a fool when I do.
"Even if you're the lone voice in the wilderness, it does not mean you're wrong."

PMs, comments, challenges, advice and hugs welcome.

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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Mon Oct 18, 2010 2:47 pm

When you were sitting so close to me for those few minutes you asked me, 'Too close for comfort?'
It wasn't.

I resent you for making every guy you meet fall for you.
And I resent myself for being like those guys.
The Patch Stop Bad Poetry


If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could've won.
It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.
Must I be content with discontent...I cannot bite the day to the core.
To die would be an awfully big adventure
And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Darkness can only be scattered by light, hatred can only be conquered by love.
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
Writers aren't exactly people...they're a whole bunch of people trying to be one person.

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Post by Nazgul » Tue Oct 19, 2010 2:44 am

I just wanted you to hold my hand, hold my arm, touch me. I would have been okay. I wouldn't have needed to be tranquilized.
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Post by everylittlething » Fri Oct 29, 2010 5:22 am

I want to come clean to someone about every last thing that's wrong with me, that I've screwed up, for which I feel I need forgiveness. But I can't bring myself to trust anyone with all of my secrets and sorrow, not only because I'm terrified they'll hate me, but because I don't think I deserve forgiveness. I'm living in my own personal hell and no one knows it.
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Post by Leaf » Fri Oct 29, 2010 8:41 pm

When I asked you last week why you didn't put distance between us after I told you I was in love with you, you answered by saying: "If I felt our closeness really hurted you, I would have."

I felt like laughing and crying at the same time. I never told you I SI'd for the first time in years after you rejected me last year.
No hugs please.

I'm sorry if there's some mistakes in my comments. English is not my first language.

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Post by namaste » Fri Oct 29, 2010 9:12 pm

I wish there was a way out.
Every time I close the door on reality
it comes in through the windows

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Post by DuchessN » Tue Nov 02, 2010 5:31 am

I sometimes think that I'm not even worth falling in love with nd that it will never happen for me. :blfrwn:
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sat Nov 20, 2010 3:03 pm

*ED*



i hate myself because you can make yourself be sick and i cant do it properly. i hate it that your parents let you get away with so many things that my parents would flip out about... your so lucky, im almost jelous.
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Re: Dirty Little Secret (similar to TLUS) *LANG*

Post by helpinghayley » Wed Dec 15, 2010 11:04 pm

this is quite an awesome idea...

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Thu Dec 16, 2010 12:09 am

Sometimes when I'm in pain, I almost wish there was something more serious wrong with me. My somewhat "non-existent" pain diagnosis is so bloody frustrating.
:redstar: the time to tell a person you care is now :redstar: the paper crane chain of hope :redstar:

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Dirty Little Secret (similar to TLUS) *LANG*

Post by Kltat » Thu Dec 16, 2010 3:30 pm

I am going to convince you and everyone else that I don't love you anymore. Even if it is going to break my heart.
Hugs and PMs welcome. :-)

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