Things Left Unsaid *LA*

[graceless]

I'm gutted!!! I fucking don't know how to deal with this.
Why is it I'm on the outside? They're saying no contact - you know how hard it was for you when you couldn't be in touch. I have no one else, there are people but its all empty.
This isn't unhealthy, its not that I'm being over the top...but I don't think I can deal with this.
Every fucking person I love - it happens every time.
I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do or who to be real with.
There's no one left now. I miss you, I miss us.

I know that actually its not just about her not being close anymore. I know I'm hurting and falling again, I know that I'm never going to be happy until I fix whats broken... I just don't know that I'm even sure of what it is that's broken anymore.
I want to give up, to erase it all and start again...to have tried harder and been someone else altogether. I can't be this because there's too many contradictions and it tears me up.

God, I need you.
I hate me but I can't change me.

[volta]

dear stupid art professor,
i freaking hate your class with a passion.
i don't give a flying flip about your perceptions of "modern art."
what you have up on the projector screen is not art.
and you need to stop insinuating your insults about people with mental disorders.
it's not funny.
you're an arrogant, self-indulgent jerk.
i don't like you at all. and i don't care about your art gallery.
i would care about the networking possibilities, except that means talking to you.
so f*** it.
i'm going to pass this class with flying colors. with no thanks at all to you.
did you really graduate uni? you said you got a diploma but the school you graduated from cannot find your transcript. how quaint.
all too sincerely,
a real uni student

[Stormy Llwellyn]

I will no longer stoop to your idiotic, juvenile,and demeaning behaviour. I am better than that.

[Helba]

B,
I talked to you today, and the entire conversation all I wanted to say was, I still love you...Tell you how I still dream of you, and miss you so dearly. I know you think of me, but I wonder how you think of me, I wish you would just tell me I am in your heart, if that really is where I am. I know I shouldn't ask anything of you, but I am still in love with you even after all of this time.

You asked me during our conversation if I was with anyone else, and I wondered the same for a part of me wanted to know. I guess it would have just hurt had you. I feel you would have felt the same but I don't wanna put words in your mouth.

[capricorn]

1. Not to be a bitch, but hahahaha.
2. Where do you get off talking about us like that after spending months denouncing any homophobia as ~omg awful~ and hating on people that make those comments?
3. You may note that how you were dancing with J most of the night was 'worse' than how I was dancing with R. Then again you may not, given how drunk you were...
4. Goodbye, I hope you're satisfied with yourself.

[strider 151]

everyday these voices get louder and louder

and inside im really afraid that oneday i wont be able to hear over them






i need help......i really need help

[Twilight]

i miss you so much i was doing so much better but for some reason all my trying went away.
i wrote you another song. i hope eventually you can hear it and really listen to the lyrics again.
I miss you and I love you and i want you hear with me even though i know you're going to do great things where you are

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

It's sort of sad how easy it is to fool you people. How easily you take everything at face value, how little you notice. All it takes is a smile and you're fooled

[Annybelly]

Le, the person i used to consider my best friend in the world,
It is my deepest regret to have to inform you I fall into the group you label 'emo' and you wish would just drop dead. I don't know if the fact we've been friends for 10 years, we were best friends for a good 8 of them would change anything, help you see that, in fact, i am a human, depsite the fat i struggle with si. I very much doubt it. I'm sorry you feel that way. Your judgeing wil no doubt hold you back from meeting some amazing, inspirational, brave people. If i were the same way, I think about the people i wouldn't know [both irl and online], and i'm glad. Glad that at least I dont have to stoop to being that narrow minded.
It hurts, to have your best friend announce she wishes everyone who does what I do would drop dead. I'm sorry, if you ever saw this, i think you'd understand why you don't know about me.
The person you used to consider your best friend in the world is gone. Im here now. and i dont even think u noticed.
I'm sorry, but our friendship will neer be the same, since you uttered those words in my presence,
Annabel

[Helba]

B,
I fight the urge to text you everyday, while our paths have changed my feelings haven't so I write them here that my love for you is beyond any feeling I have ever felt, you said on my birthday that I was in the right place in your heart and that you think of me everyday, even if that is all I hear. I'd like to hear it...

[Helba]

B,
I have so many words I'd like to say, and I would love to know your life once more. It's still hard for me to grasp, that we have become so foreign when I still wish to tell you the world. It's hard by I refrain, I know you must live your life, and I want to see you happy, so I sit in silence, where my words belong.

[Isis]

hug me please

[Annybelly]

^ I know it wouldn't be the same, but if okay ^

ah. you.. you.. well, you're immature. and i want to hate you. and you're making my life a misery, as much as i don't show it. I sh, imma fighting urges everyday, and ur not helping. You should know better. It sounds arrogant to say it, and that's really not me at all, but if anything, you owe me one, not this. I wish i could hate you like everyone else does, i really do, because imma hating me instead, and it hurts.

[daisy_chain]

A- I don't know what on earth i have done to make you behave like this. Yes, that night must have been scary for you, but it was a million times worse for me. Would you really dump one of your best friends because you found out about their mh issues? We were so close from the very start of uni, and i felt like i could really trust you to be a good friend no matter what happened. Well guess i was wrong. Its been almost 6 months since you spoke a single word to me, despite my efforts to mend things. Well i cant try anymore. I will never understand why you did what you did, but i have to accept it. You obviously arent the person i thought that you were. Although im trying to let go and put it all behind me, everytime your name pops up on facebook etc, i feel so incredibly hurt all over again. I'm still confused. sad and incredibly hurt, and i dont see that going away anytime soon. You proved to me why i dont trust people. Thank you for that.

[Isis]

^ I know it wouldn't be the same, but if okay ^

thanks

[capricorn]

That's kind of what you did to me.

[strider 151]

back into the dark pit i am falling, and if i let myself go i'm the only one to blame. i dont know how to stop myself, but if i fall i will break thistime. last time i barely survived, this time i will die


and i know i will, i can already see it

[Eva]

Do you really feel something or was it all a joke? I feel like there's something between us, but I'm not sure if it's only in my mind. I hope you like me too..and you'll do something about it.

[guest567]

I know you are unwell but please, just go to bed. You are not helping yourself by going round and upsetting the entire family just because you feel rotten.

[Helba]

And when we finally see who we are? Do we run in terror from the reflection, do we blissfully look back, and realize he/she was the best you ever had, and sometimes leaving them, but in this night just for a moment looking into the mirror we can see them once more and perhaps a tear may roll down your cheek, but just remember the moment you let them go, after we live in bliss or terror seeing the past has brought? A night full of foolish words from a man no greater than any beggar but you read this, and so I will write it, for this shall be what is thought in all, sometime in their life...when the light finally falls to shadows...

AS you were never one to want my games in simple when your eyes water when you wonder if you messed up your life, your the one who left me in everyway leaving me to dust even when I would still run behind lies and manipulation because you knew I really did and do love you.