last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Stefani140 » Sun Jun 13, 2010 1:12 am

initially because I didn't have a proper bandage. but then because I knew I'd have less to hide or feel guilty about if I just cried instead.
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Post by capricorn » Tue Jun 15, 2010 11:18 pm

Because I'm nearly at two years ... and I talked to J and she challenged me to make it 3. Best. Reaction. Ever. :pinkstar:

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Hannah-chan » Wed Jun 16, 2010 12:13 am

Because I had no access to anything, and also because I distracted myself by reading old texts.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sat Jul 03, 2010 8:40 pm

because im nearly at one month free, and i want to badly to be free from this. it simply wasnt worth it...
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Sun Jul 04, 2010 1:34 am

I am better than that, and my body has gone through enough torture without adding more to it. Better to let the emotions flow properly, I am learning that VERY slowly.

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Post by strider 151 » Sun Jul 04, 2010 3:04 pm

i knew it would hurt dad and i couldnt live with the guilt
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Post by 5th section » Wed Jul 07, 2010 4:36 am

I told K that I would make it to the end of 2010...so I have to now....
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by Annybelly » Wed Jul 07, 2010 9:15 pm

i can do this.. i can do this... i can do this!
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Jul 07, 2010 9:52 pm

i couldnt cos i didnt have my tools with me.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
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Post by capricorn » Sat Jul 10, 2010 5:50 pm

...because I'll hate myself tomorrow if I do
because God is with me and I don't need to
because it hurts me so bad when R does it and I don't want to hurt her the same way
because I said I'd make 3 years
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"I am haunted by humans."
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sat Jul 10, 2010 7:44 pm

A reminded me of how far ive come in the past few months.. i dont want to go back downhill again. i know that i dont need to SI to be happy.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."

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Post by strmdncr » Sat Jul 24, 2010 4:55 am

i don't want to feel like i have failed someone who has helped me get this far with being si free
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Post by NotWhoIUsedToBe » Sun Jul 25, 2010 12:31 pm

Becos I could identify where the feeling was in my body.
Becos I listened what the urge was trying to say.
Becos I did art to express it instead.
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Post by capricorn » Mon Jul 26, 2010 6:55 pm

it would only have made things worse
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My Chemical Romance

"I am haunted by humans."
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"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey

"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by SplinteredGirl » Wed Jul 28, 2010 2:28 am

i started counting my scars and lost track. i thought about my boyfriends reaction and disapointment. i realized there wasnt really any "room" anyways.
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Post by Twilight » Thu Aug 26, 2010 6:59 am

last time i wanted to si i didn't because my scars are almost all gone except for the last cause it was the worse so it reminds me of everything i almost lost because it.
Last Slip:October 8th 2009

Always say "see you later" never goodbye because goodbye is forever

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie

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Make her cry. You love her right? Everything
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Post by Twilight » Thu Aug 26, 2010 6:59 am

last time i wanted to si i didn't because my scars are almost all gone except for the last cause it was the worse so it reminds me of everything i almost lost because it.
Last Slip:October 8th 2009

Always say "see you later" never goodbye because goodbye is forever

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie

my place come talk to me

Its no big deal. Break her heart. Let her down.
Make her cry. You love her right? Everything
is fine. Hold her hand. Lead her on. Its no big
deal. She's just a girl.


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Post by Annybelly » Thu Aug 26, 2010 6:20 pm

*rel

because I'm worth more than si, because God created me, I want my body to be a temple fo God, and I have no right to do that to my body. because i can do this without si, and i dont need si holding me back.
♥ "Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear." ♥

♥ "You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are." ♥

♥ "My thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations." ♥

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Post by Forget Me » Sun Aug 29, 2010 3:19 pm

Because after last time I said I never would again. And I meant it.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Butterfly. » Mon Aug 30, 2010 2:03 pm

Because I want to prove to myself I'm strong enough
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