Things Left Unsaid *LA*

[dejavu0225]

My parents are in their 80's and I STILL have issues with them. I think my sister told them to back off and quit trying to fix me, I'm grateful for that. But I still don't want to visit them. To formal, sterile...what a bummer to be 55 and not be able to enjoy their golden years.

[strider 151]

by talking to you im hurting, but i like it

[volta]

no.
don't leave me.
don't freaking leave me.
you're the only one i have here who understands what this is like.
please, don't leave.

i know my pleading won't do any good.
you're going back to norway, and there's nothing i can do about it.
i just wish that you weren't so damned happy about it.

[Butterfly.]

Thank you. Thank you for realising what I needed most (even if it took you what felt like forever), and putting up with me. I wish I could be better, and stronger, for you, to show you.

[strider 151]

J ur so much like A it physically hurts when i look and talk to you

[Helba]

B,
I've always loved you since the first time we met.
I couldn't have imagined how close I would grow to you.
Nor would I ever have imagined things would have happened like this.
I know your not there for me anymore,
because you've moved on.
Just know that I have always loved, and regardless of my choices I will always love you.

[trewheather3]

M.

Look. I do have a problem. No, im not looking for attention. Maybe, just maybe part of this is because of the two of you. Hmmm.. couldn't be. Youre too good. You do everything. Ya, everything for you.

[strider 151]

that hurt.


i dont know why, but it hurt. alot.

why should your rejection hurt me? you where the one who liked me, you where the one who 'fell in love'. i never tryed to make u like me, i wss just myself. you where the one who said all those things, promised all those promises and wrote all those love messages. and then u break up with me when we aren't even going out??? wtf???


so why did it hurt so much?

[MusicalMorphine]

What is going on? We used to talk every day like good friends do, i spent 2 days with you recently and we've barely spoken since. You haven't said anything to me when i've been having a rough few days lately. This wasn't how it was meant to work out.

[5th section]

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[5th section]

3 shows? so, counting back that includes Sorcerer...


well of course I understand the situation you're in, & i know it can't be easy. but seriously, the things I said to you (you do remember that night, don't you?) were pretty unambiguous, and I wish you'd told me then that I was being stupid, rather than waiting a few months to let me find out for myself. But never mind. we are still ok aren't we? this isn't going to go where I hoped it would, but you won't hold a grudge against me for that, will you? you are probably still one of the best friends i have ever had.

anyway. good luck.

I love you
(but don't worry, I will get over it. I will. You deserve better than this. so I will.)

I love you

some people would blame you for your part in this, but I don't. I couldn't. none of this is your fault, because you have no faults.

I love you

I love you

I love you

[strider 151]

i am waiting for something that i should never have known about, hoping for something against gods will, praying that it will happen quickly even though its 100% impossible and never gonna happen....

[ForgottenMemories]

C-I know you love me but I have to move on with my own happiness and that means not depending on you.
T-I'm moving on. You'll always be a part of me and I'll always love you but I need to let go.
A-We've been good friends for years. I loved you then and I think I love you still but I won't say it. I'm not going to mess up our friendship for something unattainable. You mean too much to me. Just stay where you are, kay?

[Roxi]

I hate that we walk past each other and don't say a word. Like we're complete strangers; I know it's been difficult for you- but YOU fucked up. You cheated on me. You couldn't handle the commitment and intensity. You couldn't deal with your insecurities that they girl who you love and who loves you back might leave you one day in the future... And I was the one who lost a best friend AND a boyfriend.

Yet despite all of this, I hate that whenever I see you around you never smile; you always have a pained expression on your face, like you're not happy. And I wish you'd smile when I see you walking or turn around in a lecture , not because you see me and feign happiness - but because you're happy. Even though you really hurt me I still care about you.

[strider 151]

*dnt read if u know me irl*sorry but i couldn't do it, i cant be surrounded like that.....not only is it bad for me but its unhealthy for u J and H. i know it wasn't ur fault but it still hurts. i dont wanna move cos no one else will talk to me. stay and get hurt of move and get ignored. not good options. thanks life, you runined another lesson for me. i now dread every history lesson. i'm scared of going to history, how lame is that?


I WANT AN ESCAPE DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[southsider]

I still think I might be falling for you. And I'm scared. D:

How can I ask for what I want when "what I want" is to have every possible conversation with you? But there's not time for that. Real life gets in the way. Our other relationships get in the way.

I'm trying to be content with letting this unfold and just be what it is. But like I said, it is hard for me to trust the universe that much.

[caged bird]

sometimes i *really* wish you'd get off your high horse and stop acting like you know everyhting. i really thought that it'd be ok working with you but you proved me wrong. you two shouldn't spend time together becasue you're bad for each other, you get together adn you're poisonois about a system that might have some flaws but overlal does a damn good job. and your prejudices are so abvious to everyone but you. you should take a look in the mirror and start recognising how judgemental and patronising you can be. sometimes it's not about them beaing awkward or a pd, it's about you not having the right skills to deal with them. did you ever think about that, did you ever think that maybe some of the situatuons are just as much your fault as theirs.

[sweetelisum]

I actually have 4 persons in mind right now...


C- I so badly want to trust you right now. I feel guilt because of my previous actions..and yours. I love you with all of my soul, but you have to know how horrible this whole situation looks. I've been with you since I was barely 20..you were 55. That was such a hard thing for me to get over, but I did. Please don't be betraying me. I don't think I could handle much more defeat right now.

B- What can i say... 9 years and I just can't let you go. It leaves me divided and sometimes the thought of you coming back...even just to talk keeps me going when everything else is going to shit. I'll never be able to blame you nor will I ever be able to stop loving you. Maybe its best that you stay away. I'm afraid if you ever did return, I would walk away from everything I know to follow you.

S- What the fuck? Look, I understand that you are going through a hard time right now. But so am I. Its been 2 weeks and you still haven't paid me my commission check, you know I haven't paid my rent..you are supposed to be keeping me updated and nothing! Not only that, but lying to the dept of labor about my wages/taxes I have been the only consistent employee you've had over the last 3 years????seriously, what the fuck???

M- Okay, I understand that you are hurting right now, I really do. I don't want you to be homeless any more than you want to be. I offered to try and help if C agreed and if you could find some little job to help out, b/c you know I've been struggling since the flood too. But you refuse to do anything other than try and have me take you in rent free so you can sit around and drink. You have money for booze but not a place to live? And then send me suicidal text messages for days b/c I cannot just let you freeload like you have with your ex who has now kicked you out??? I'm sorry. You are my friend but I cannot jeapordize my livelyhood and let you just loaf around here and drink all day. I don't think that makes me a bad friend--just someone who can no longer agree to enable you

[sweetelisum]

J- I fucking despise you right now you cowardly piece of shit. I have every right to be angry at you and you pull this shit where its like you get to be the one graciously walking away??? Fuck that! You had a blackout. You were out of control and put pornograph on only to tell me that you like looking at my myspace profile picture at the same time??? I took care of you so you didn't get alcohol poisioning and die. I think I have every right to feel weird. But rather than realize that I'm trying to get over all this frustration so I can move on and try to overlook this insanity-- you had to be that way. So I'm being this way, pansy ass, stay out of my life!

[ForgottenMemories]

G-I'm sorry. You know something I wouldn't trust with anybody. Don't abuse it, please. I wish you didn't have feelings for me but I need you as a friend right now.
D-You manipulitive, uncaring sob. You really did that? I'm done with you.
D-You freaking acted like you cared. Not only did you not care about me in any way but you also prompted me into revealing more of myself than i wanted to. Stupid freaking asshole. I should have seen that coming.
A-I'm head-over-heels in love with you.