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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by SplinteredGirl » Wed Apr 14, 2010 5:18 pm

i now know i am enabling you. i can not be going to your house while you are getting high. its like saying im okay with it. but, im not. im not okay with watching you destrpy yourself. i remember once you told me, people hurt themselves in otherways to.
That night i had to call the ambulance i cried so much. And you act like its no big deal, like you had fun with your psychotic trip. When i said it wasnt funny, i ment it.
its hard for me to say no to drugs when theyre right infront of me, and yet, i dont want anything to do with a drug that has the potential to do that to someone. i think your a schixaphrenic. i have no diea how to help you but to just be there, youve told me so before i am like your only real friend.i dont know howto deal with this, OR you getting high with our friend (who ODed) family members?? how do i make you see you crossed aline
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Wed Apr 14, 2010 7:31 pm

im scared of who im becomming.
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Post by CheshireCat » Mon Apr 19, 2010 2:06 am

I think that because I wasn't strong enough to deal with my ex's mental problems, I don't deserve to have anyone help me with mine.
We're all mad here.
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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces. . .
. . . Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday. . .
. . . Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me.

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Post by CheshireCat » Mon Apr 19, 2010 2:15 am

To everyone I am strong and in control. But I'm never strong enough. And I worry that one day I won't even be strong enough to keep trying.
We're all mad here.
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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces. . .
. . . Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday. . .
. . . Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me.

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Post by strider 151 » Mon Apr 19, 2010 9:28 am

i dont want this anymore. any of it.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.

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Post by _kbo_ » Wed Apr 21, 2010 3:26 am

I am in love with my boyfriend's best friend. I dream about him every night.
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Post by caged bird » Wed Apr 21, 2010 8:55 pm

i wish i could make *this* feel ok
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Post by breathing » Wed Apr 21, 2010 9:48 pm

I already feel like a failure because I am so uncertain of everything. I'd like to make at least one good decision, soon.
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Post by strider 151 » Thu Apr 22, 2010 9:38 pm

im suprised at how relaxed i am about the prospect of loosing him, but im scared still
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.

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*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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Post by Beasty » Sat Apr 24, 2010 6:38 am

I think I have a problem with the pills.
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Post by lilabean » Thu Apr 29, 2010 6:03 am

I am in this so much deeper than I think I am
Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.
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Post by strider 151 » Thu Apr 29, 2010 7:29 am

i'm looking for love and attention in the wrong places, and i know its wrong, but im still doing it
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
it only matters who you want to be and where you want to end up.

:pangel: [Working Towards Recovery] :pangel:
*I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, Philippians 4:13*
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Post by volta » Thu Apr 29, 2010 7:23 pm

i don't know if i *want* to get better again. is it really worth it?
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Post by ForgottenMemories » Fri Apr 30, 2010 6:03 am

I want comfort and acceptance but how can I expect it when all i'm doing is withdrawing into myself?
You can have peace or you can have freedom. Don't ever count on having both at once.
There's a drive in me that won't allow me to do certain things that are easy.
This was freedom. Losing all hope was freedom.
I just don't want to die without a few scars.
One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.
War does not determine who is right, only who is left.
You've got to burn me. Make me bleed. Turn my pain into fantasy. And if I scream it's only just, love can hurt much more than lust.
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Post by Maruma-chan » Fri Apr 30, 2010 11:39 am

I get so effing SCARED of nothing; this is one of the hardest things to swallow about myself.

But there ARE things to be scared of this time, except I'm still too weak to latch my mind onto them.
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Post by Maruma-chan » Fri Apr 30, 2010 12:01 pm

Sometimes I hate non-SI-urgey times the most, because when shit hurts THAT much but I've decided that SI isn't an option at the time, then I'm out, totally, utterly OUT, of options.
HUGS and CHALLENGES WELCOME, but no IRL. PMs are fine (as long as they're on a BUS-related topic), but please ask first.
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There's no need to hide

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Post by trewheather3 » Tue May 04, 2010 5:26 am

I know that this is all my fault. I totally take the blame.
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Post by breathing » Wed May 05, 2010 3:52 am

I sincerely wish that my mother aborted me.
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Post by breathing » Sat May 08, 2010 6:53 am

I'm starting to hate happy people. Partly because I'm jealous and partly because misery loves company.
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Post by Sprinklez » Sun May 09, 2010 11:24 pm

I'm so messed up, that I don't even expect people to get me anymore.
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