last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Understand » Wed Jan 27, 2010 5:49 am

he would have hated it and is feeling bad enough as it is
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by vampirelover » Thu Jan 28, 2010 4:33 pm

i cant cope with that disapointed look on my bf face
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by satori » Sun Feb 21, 2010 9:14 am

- I'm too tired; I have no energy and am just really apathetic.
- doing it on my leg/hip feels weird; I want to be able to wear short sleeves soon as my arm heals so I'm trying not to add new ones there
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Feb 21, 2010 6:30 pm

i knew how much it would hurt those i love
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
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"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Heidi4DBT » Mon Feb 22, 2010 10:18 pm

I don't want to hurt my loved ones again. I made a promise that I don't want to break. I need to overcome this so that I can deal with life.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Annybelly » Tue Feb 23, 2010 7:35 pm

I wanted to email kitti, and put on my place I'd had a SI free day.

I didn't want to dissapoint.

I felt like if I keep ignoring it, it'll go away.

I will not be dependant on it.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Lucky071307 » Sat Feb 27, 2010 2:20 am

Last time i wanted to SI i didn't because i decided to give it up for lent. This is proving to be very difficult but I'm determined to follow through. :)
"I try to live without you every time I do I feel dead. I know whats best for me but I want you instead, I'll keep on wasting all my time" -Over and Over by Three Days Grace

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by crushedtin » Sat Feb 27, 2010 10:57 pm

I didn't because I gave it up for Lent too. And I need to prove to myself that I can do what I put my mind to; the relief wouldn't be worth how disappointed I'd be with myself.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by southsider » Fri Mar 05, 2010 9:19 pm

Because I want to buy myself a cool ring to celebrate my six year "clean" date next winter. :D
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Apr 04, 2010 6:19 pm

because i promised someone that i wouldnt. and i know how much it hurts people.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
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"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by half/hearted » Sat May 01, 2010 5:51 pm

...because I looked at my now-fading scars and decided that I want to have beautiful scar-free arms again, and if I SI, there will be more scars.

My Mederma-treated, slowly fading scars inspire me to find healthy coping mechanisms and not SI.
Please be gentle with me.

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by strider 151 » Mon May 03, 2010 11:38 am

i need to be able to wear a strapless, knee length dress
it wouldnt just hurt myself but the people around me
it would mean turning away from god again
it would mean thinking up lies to explain the marks
it would mean having to hide in a toilet when getting changed at school
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Post by sweetelisum » Sat May 15, 2010 2:13 am

:blkstar: I realized that doing so was not going to make my feelings go away for good.
:blkstar: Instead I talked about it instead of bottling it up.
:blkstar: I wanted to show myself I could cope without
:blkstar: Like drinking, its only a temporary fix
:blkstar: I didn't want C to feel responsible
:blkstar: I didn't want another mark to explain.
:blkstar: Its spring and I don't want to have to cover it up
:blkstar: I want to start modeling again, and photoshoping it is a real bitch
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by flyingturtle » Sat May 15, 2010 4:45 am

I didn't SI because I didn't want to have to hide it. :osmile: It's springtime and I love wearing short sleeves. I also didn't want the BF to find it. Also it was late and I was tired and didn't feel like cleaning up. So then I slept instead.
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Post by KittyCath » Mon Jun 07, 2010 6:20 am

I was at work.......................I work in a hospital and people may notice my disappearence.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by thewaves » Mon Jun 07, 2010 10:58 am

My cat came and curled up beside me and fell asleep with his head on me.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by calypso » Tue Jun 08, 2010 10:41 am

I seriously distracted myself.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by stripysocks4christ » Tue Jun 08, 2010 9:22 pm

i knew deep down i didnt need to, i had other ways of coping.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Sprinklez » Wed Jun 09, 2010 7:52 pm

I promised my darling CS that I wouldn't.
I refuse to start out this relationship with lies.
I want him to trust me.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Annybelly » Thu Jun 10, 2010 7:18 pm

because i dont need to. because it wouldnt help. because i am worth so so much more than si!
because i can cope without it.
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