Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by osc » Wed Oct 21, 2009 4:53 am

Yeah - you're a mess...but you were my mess. I miss you.

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Post by amyfairy » Wed Oct 21, 2009 9:34 pm

I hate my job but I'm not good enough for anything else. Every moment there I am near tears/stressed/angry. I wish I could get another job but truth be told, I stopped looking. You can only take so much rejection. I'm not good enough. I don't have a brain that can think for itself. I have faked intelligence but really I know nothing.
Everything is really getting me down. I hurt myself today. I want to hurt myself again.
I want to fall into an eating disorder but I also want to "recover" from a disorder that wasn't quite mine.
We've grown apart and it hurts. Does everyone leave in the end? I feel sad.

It sort of feels as if I am slowly drowning.
I don't think anyone can see.

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by red umbrellas » Thu Oct 22, 2009 12:34 am

Why does nothing ever seem to change?

You only seem to care when it suits you, when it's easy and convenient

I don't want to leave...please don't make me


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Post by guest567 » Thu Oct 22, 2009 6:49 pm

V - I appreciate all you have done for me and my family but please do not do anything with my animals unless you ask me first from now on unless it refers to the electric fence. I am really quite upset that you moved them without asking me and where you have moved them is so unsuitable that they are all attacking each other and in the move you have broken the house so they can no longer sleep safely. It is simply NOT on.

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Post by awake.unafraid » Thu Oct 22, 2009 7:20 pm

F - I'm really fucking hurt that you will take any excuse I give you to push me away. You don't understand how important it is for me to have someone or at least the *idea* of someone and a family to fall back on. I don't like feeling like I've been abandoned in a place thats not my own. I don't like feeling like I'm worthless and uh 'incapable' of real friendship. Why is it now, after four fucking years of friendship you suddenly think i'm incapable? I know it's not me whose incapable but you. I know this is your jealousy issues and your control issues and sometimes i wish you would just shove off your high fucking horse and realize you need mass amounts of help.

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Post by Eva » Sat Oct 24, 2009 12:27 pm

I miss you and I love you

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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:37 pm

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Post by Twinky » Sun Oct 25, 2009 1:47 am

Why is it if we disagree about something you take it personally? I feel like you manipulate me to agree with you about such trivial things! It's not fair. You need to accept that sometimes I'm not going to agree with you -accept it, grow up and move on. Don't manipulate me by making me feel guilty for not taking your side. It's no big deal and you need to accept that we are two different people.
I hate it when you do this and become sacastic and snide. You say you hate manipulative people -then stop manipulating me!

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Post by Twinky » Sun Oct 25, 2009 11:18 am

Are we more just friends?
You haven't asked me for s in such a long time, it's always me. You haven't said l before me for as long as i can remember.
Are you lazy? have you forgotten? do you not really care?
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Post by Beasty » Sun Oct 25, 2009 11:39 pm

I'm sorry I'm doing this. I didn't mean to.
I'm scared shitless. I'm afraid you'll fuck up my life's balance. And I don't know if I'm strong enough to recover.
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Post by breathing » Mon Oct 26, 2009 6:24 am

You can't blame me for being misguided on this! You haven't exactly been the best help. You act like it's so fucking easy for me to do this. Obviously it's not even that easy because you couldn't do it yourself! Don't push me and please, please try to let me figure out something for myself! Because your help is fucking useless!

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Post by Peege » Mon Oct 26, 2009 3:46 pm

i am tired of thinking i am stronger than i actually am and i am sick of being tripped up by life reminding me of the reality.

i hate being made to feel so small and helpless by things past.

And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold


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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by amyfairy » Wed Oct 28, 2009 7:35 pm

I forgot how shit not eating makes you feel.
I feel drained + irritable + exhausted. At the moment it's worth it, if I lose weight.
But then I binge on shit. And I wish more than anything I didn't. I wish.

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Post by steff » Thu Oct 29, 2009 11:40 pm

he is NOT your "baby"
he is mine. i still love him. i still miss him. and i still want him back.
i fucking hate you. how could you do that to me?

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Post by Eisa » Fri Oct 30, 2009 11:06 pm

**SA?**


J, how fucking dare you say those things to me. How dare you say that "cat ears symbolize virginity" and take away my pleasure in my Halloween costume. They do NOT mean that. Not once in 100+ references to what Neko/cat ears mean, did my bf EVER find that they symbolized virginity. They symbolize purity and innocence--and I'm both of those. Thanks SO fucking much for reminding me that my virginity was fucking stolen from me. Thanks SO fucking much for being a complete callous douche-bag BITCH. AGAIN. (grrr)
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Post by lollypop » Sat Oct 31, 2009 10:55 pm

I'm so hurt you chose to go out tonight rather than spend time with me and your son. You say you love me, but it's more like a pacifier so that you can then not feel bad about fucking off, surely your actions need to mirror your words for it to be true? Is this how it's going to be? Life as normal for you whilst I look after your baby and you play superdaddy as and when you feel like it?

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Post by Beasty » Mon Nov 02, 2009 6:18 am

HAH I am out of here bitch!!!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Mon Nov 02, 2009 4:41 pm

do you know how fucked up this is? that you expose me to your second-hand smoke for my whole life, then you try to change and you stop smoking around me. So you still get your ciggs and I'M the one going through fucking withdrawal! I know you're trying to fucking make it better, but goddammit! I don't deserve to be addicted to nicotine when I've never even lit up.
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
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-----My Place-----
-----My PBH-----
*Stephanie*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by steff » Tue Nov 03, 2009 7:26 pm

you hurt me.
you hurt me so bad.
it would be SO much easier if we werent friends.
it hurts so bad to see you there, and knowing you dont want me anymore. knowing that im not good enough anymore.

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Post by Neviah » Wed Nov 04, 2009 7:25 am

im so sorry, i love you so much just please forgive me, i need you so bad. i know we're still together but im absolutely terrified im gonna do something wrong. i know after a few days things will get better i know we're strong enough for that. i just can't bear to think i've hurt you

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