Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by 5th section » Sat Oct 10, 2009 12:08 am

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by vampirelover » Mon Oct 12, 2009 1:58 pm

its a month later and i still miss my ex , whats that about we were only together 4 months including two months of summer holidays?
i miss having someone and knowing those times together wont happen again hurts.
I miss having a cuddle at the end of the day
i miss the way he used to look at me
i know the feelings had gone (more from his side) so it was better to end it but i want the times we had the first couple of months. Having him as a friend is good buts not the same :blfrwn: :cry: :cry: :cry:
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by amyfairy » Mon Oct 12, 2009 7:48 pm

I've spent my whole evening caught up obsessing over my body/food/weight.
I wish I didn't have to eat. I'd been doing so well. I messed up. :cry:
I'm ashamed that I haven't been healthy today. I was doing well and my mum was really pleased with me.
I hate this SO much! I now feel disgusting/fat/bloated. If only I could turn back time. I knew I'd feel this way yet I still did it. Fucking idiot.

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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Mon Oct 12, 2009 8:29 pm

i fucking hate this. i'm over xxxlbs for the first time. i hate it. i'm so weak. i should only weigh xxlbs and i know it. i don't care if it's healthy or not.
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Post by amyfairy » Tue Oct 13, 2009 10:08 pm

I was hungry so I made a reasonable food choice and I ate. Simple as. It's okay. It's okay.

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Post by stripysocks4christ » Thu Oct 15, 2009 7:42 pm

i hate the fact that i ate. im so weak. whenever im home alone - i binge. and i hate it. i knew i would feel like this. but i went ahead. id been doing so so well. hardly eating anything. but ive spent this evening snacking. and i wasnt even healthy foods!!! i snacked on chocolate etc. i weigh x.xstone. but thats going to go up tomorrow. and that will make me depressed. its just not fair...... :blfrwn: :blfrwn: :blfrwn:
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Post by jadestarwalking » Thu Oct 15, 2009 9:41 pm

I want to od........ I won't, but I want to, I even looked up info online on the best way to od on one of my meds.
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Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Thu Oct 15, 2009 9:52 pm

fatfatfat
i think its my fault that someone is leaving bus...
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
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-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by Understand » Fri Oct 16, 2009 3:16 am

It did mean a lot to me and I'm sorry I didn't act like it did. I stupidly can't admit that though. agh. I'm sorry.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by steady hands » Fri Oct 16, 2009 7:16 am

I'm sorry I'm such a flake.
And that I change so much.
I just wish I could tell you why.
I have a feeling that this is going to get good soon, and then end so so badly.
(and not for me, either.)

i'm sorry I don't have the words.
it's not for lack of want.

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Oct 16, 2009 2:55 pm

:cry:
even if he doesn't mean it, it still hurts. don't you understand that? it makes me feel utterly rubbish about myself and incompetent. it's just so embarassing.... not again. it hurts.

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Post by stripysocks4christ » Fri Oct 16, 2009 4:46 pm

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i dont know why im so angry all the time. and i dont want to snap at you all. sorry for being so irritable. i dont know whats happening to me anymore.
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

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Post by Eva » Fri Oct 16, 2009 8:11 pm

I miss you tonight. But I'm letting you go... :blfrwn:

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Post by jadestarwalking » Sat Oct 17, 2009 1:26 am

I still love you even though I keep telling myself that I don't. I don't want to love you, I wish I could just hate you!
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Post by nomad2207 » Sun Oct 18, 2009 3:12 am

i h urt myself and i don't care...
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Post by Eva » Mon Oct 19, 2009 6:27 pm

I'm sad, but it's ok. I will survive. And I have to learn from all this. I will miss you, but I'm letting you go. Bye... :blfrwn:

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Post by Dorky&Weird2 » Tue Oct 20, 2009 5:49 am

Since when the do you care who I am "friends" with and what I do?
You're not always right get over yourself and stop to just listen to me and know I'm not a liar.
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Post by amyfairy » Tue Oct 20, 2009 5:48 pm

help....

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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by xXelmoscaresmeXx » Wed Oct 21, 2009 2:35 am

How could you not tell me I have a four-year-old half brother?
I mean really? I'm your fucking daughter! You fucking have my email. I check it every fucking day. Why does he get the father that I never had? Why does he get your love? IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT THAT YOU "WEREN'T READY" FOR A KID WHEN YOU HAD ME! Stop acting like that. You stopped all your bad habits because of him. Was I just not a good enough reason? Was I just your little fuck up practice baby? You couldn't even get the fucking courage to tell me yourself, not even email. You had to call my mom and then get her to tell me. Do you know how fucking awkward that was? Do you know that I cried myself to sleep for months when you stopped sending me cards on holidays? Now I know why you fuck forgot my birthday(your own daughter's birthday!). It was him. I did the math, the year he was born is the year the cards stopped coming. Do you just want to forget me, forget your little fuck up? You didn't even want me, you wanted my mom to abort me! I almost broke down crying in front of my english class just because the someone fucking asked me if I had any siblings. :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
Recovery is possible, I promise
My Aunt is Ultimate Starshine. My mom is snowangel_03. My big sisters are jadestarwalking and Birdie.
dont click this link
Facts of life:
-Purple monkeys eat grapes, not bananas.
-The answer to life is five point tomato [toe-may-toe]
-Zebra is not 'zee-brah' it's f-ing 'Z-eh-brah' like Debra
-You will need to count your toes
-The f-ing Zebra will ALWAYS eat your cookie. Nothing will stop it
-Pooh Bear is dead
-There will always be a moose, don't fight it, it will win
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-----My PBH-----
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Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Post by calypso » Wed Oct 21, 2009 4:15 am

AAAH, I HATE WRITING FOOD LOGS.

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