last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by jadestarwalking » Sun Aug 23, 2009 4:55 am

I remembered the good things in my life
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by fragmentedxdream » Sun Aug 23, 2009 8:17 pm

i went into the basement and worked out until i fell over...not the best idea but it helped
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Post by jadestarwalking » Mon Aug 24, 2009 1:14 am

I remembered to take my meds and it calmed the urge.
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Post by fragmentedxdream » Mon Aug 24, 2009 5:14 am

i knew the guilt would be worse than how i felt
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by soul_keeper » Fri Sep 04, 2009 2:38 pm

I know how bad it hurts the one you love when you si
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Sep 04, 2009 2:45 pm

cause i am going to fight the urge and anyways it makes my hartburn worse so i rather just eat.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by treasure » Fri Sep 04, 2009 8:25 pm

last time i wanted to si, i didn't because...
* the last time i did last week was a slip and another time would mean i'm going back to relying on it. i wanted to keep counting past 10 months and not start back at 0.
* i wanted to cut which would mean having to hide my arms again in hot weather.
* i didn't want to have to explain it to my sister and feel her disappointment and worry.
* i thought maybe i was thinking about it in response to my feelings so i tried to figure out what i was actually feeling and what i could do about that.
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Post by fragmentedxdream » Sat Sep 05, 2009 3:38 pm

because i know how much it hurts my friends and boyfriend when i do, i hate hurting them
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Post by jadestarwalking » Sun Sep 06, 2009 1:18 am

I am at work and there are so many people and I can't SI with people there to see me
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Post by flawedinsomniac » Sat Sep 19, 2009 11:51 pm

I didn't because I was too tired.
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Post by Spidey » Sun Sep 20, 2009 1:24 am

a friend came over.
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Post by Neviah » Thu Sep 24, 2009 10:40 pm

i was afraid lee would find out
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Sun Sep 27, 2009 7:29 pm

I'll be disappointed with myself tomorrow.
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Post by versarian » Wed Dec 30, 2009 10:45 pm

The people I love deserve me to be the best I can be. I want to stop, for them. :osmile:
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Post by SplinteredGirl » Wed Dec 30, 2009 10:47 pm

i dont have my wrsitband
the possibility of feeling even worse the next day
explaining to my bf
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Mon Jan 04, 2010 4:17 pm

didnt want to dissapoint anyone
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by sunflowerwoman » Sun Jan 10, 2010 5:29 am

i didn't b/c
-i don't want to start over, almost at 1 year free
-i need to feel and deal with the emotions and not store them and use them negatively
-b/c i know that i can do better and people DO care for me even though it may not feel like it
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by flawedinsomniac » Tue Jan 19, 2010 8:24 pm

...because I was too tired.
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Post by Glockenspiel » Sun Jan 24, 2010 11:04 pm

Because I want to be able to wear short sleeve shirts
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Post by capricorn » Tue Jan 26, 2010 7:43 pm

...I know how much it hurts to see someone I love do the same
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