last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by jadestarwalking » Tue Jul 28, 2009 2:33 am

because I am working so hard on not, and I don't want to have another slip that I will have to explain to the people at the outpatient place.
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Post by guest567 » Tue Jul 28, 2009 11:19 pm

the only thing stopping me tonight is the fact its my mum's birthday tomorrow and I don't want to connect it with the first time I self harmed in nearly two years.

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Post by jadestarwalking » Wed Jul 29, 2009 3:25 am

I thought about the fact I am going to IOP tomorrow
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Spidey » Mon Aug 03, 2009 5:15 pm

Because it makes no sense to put physical pain on top of the physical pain I'm already having.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Chey Kizoxie » Mon Aug 03, 2009 8:14 pm

Electric Prophet wrote:Because it makes no sense to put physical pain on top of the physical pain I'm already having.


thats a great reason. I think I will tell myself that when im catching myself doing negitive self talk.


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Post by guest567 » Mon Aug 03, 2009 10:35 pm

the only thing stopping me tonight is the fact I told myself I wouldn't when I started the line of work I am doing now. It makes me resent a job I love at the moment which I hate.

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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by a7xcncangel » Mon Aug 03, 2009 10:59 pm

I know I have to pull myself together this year before I go off to college.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by jadestarwalking » Tue Aug 04, 2009 3:49 am

I know the feeling beneath the urge doesn't really want to.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by LoverlyLaurie » Tue Aug 04, 2009 2:38 pm

still trying to figure out how i haven't yet...maybe because it's just another item on my list of things i'm procrastinating about right now.

...i like what jadestarwalking said, thats sorta how i feel and why i haven't as of right now...
I know the feeling beneath the urge doesn't really want to.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by fragmentedxdream » Sat Aug 08, 2009 6:42 am

last time i wanted to si, i didn't because it would hurt my boyfriend really badly because he was already breaking down because of me and what's going on in his life.
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Post by jadestarwalking » Sat Aug 08, 2009 7:27 am

last time I wanted to si I didn't because I called the crisis hotline and talked to someone.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Spidey » Sun Aug 09, 2009 5:12 am

I decided to work off the urges by cleaning house.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by fragmentedxdream » Sun Aug 09, 2009 5:56 am

because i was with some friends and i don't want them to know i still hurt myself
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Post by zombiepeople » Mon Aug 10, 2009 4:42 am

I remembered that my friends and family don't want to see me hurt myself.
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by jadestarwalking » Wed Aug 12, 2009 2:29 am

I know that I really don't want to, the urges are just telling me that I do.
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Post by fragmentedxdream » Thu Aug 20, 2009 10:07 pm

i forced myself to practice guitar and then call my boyfriend so i would stop thinking about it
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by soul_keeper » Sat Aug 22, 2009 5:35 am

Last time i wanted to SI was yesterday...

I didn't because my girlfriend was there and held me after reading my help post and she reminded me on how she is strong and she hasn't done it in 27 days which made me so proud that when i wanted to i just couldn't because when she held me it just reminded me of how it hurt when she would do it and that's why she is stopping, so she stopped it and made me realize that i could hold back too if she could :pangel:
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by ausnat88 » Sun Aug 23, 2009 1:31 am

I didn't want any more fresh cuts to hide in the middle of summer.

I want to be able to tell my pdoc and T that I resisted my urges.
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by jadestarwalking » Sun Aug 23, 2009 2:23 am

I kept myself in the here and now
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Re: last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

Post by Spidey » Sun Aug 23, 2009 3:40 am

The last time I wanted to SI I didn't because I knew it would take effort.
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