Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

[Spidey]

I'm "a fool" because I won't do what YOU want. I'm "a fool" because you're so desperate you can't even THINK straight. I'm "a fool" because I value the friendship more than any other kind of relationship that we may have and I don't want to ruin it, with which both parties are in mutual agreement about and you are not.

I am sorry that I am not a Social Butterfly. I don't want to be one. Too bad.

[falllingdown]

Just want to talk to you now, chat about anything and everything it just be cool hearing off you.

[snowangel_03]

• I used to cry when I didn't hear from you.
  I used to curl up, close my eyes and pretend you were there.
  I used to love you.
  But not anymore.
  I won't forget you. How can I...you called me beautiful. You made me FEEL beautiful.
  For that, I will be eternally grateful.
  But you're finally out of my head.
  And for the first time in 6 years...I'm free.

• I'm not what you want. I get that.
  But do you have to remind me everyday that I'm not good enough?
  Do you even know how much you hurt me with your lies and your games and your fake reality...?
  I love you so much. But now I hate you and I cannot and will not ever forgive you.
  I say I've finally learned; you taught me the lesson I needed.

[5th section]

Yes, I will be back. but please don't assume.

how can I think like this? it's disgusting.

[volta]

please, big brother, please pick me up. i've fallen to the ground, and i don't trust anyone but you.

[sinfalcon]

Why don't you just say 'f*ck off' when that's what you mean?

[amyfairy]

This job hunt is really getting me down

everyone says that something will turn up in time, but honest to god it feels like i'm going to be stuck in this job forever. i can't stand it. the thought is awful. I can't live here much longer than a year and I never thought I'd have to and that makes me feel like such a failure. I just wish I could find another one, but no-one freaking gets back to me. It's so disheartening, I feel like shit and I wish I'd never moved here in the first place as I can't escape. I should not have fucked up that interview as it's the only interview I've got after months of job hunting. I don't expect to ever get another one. I can't stress to you enough how down this is making me. Why can't you fucking hear that!? Don't tell me it'll be okay because it isn't.

[snowangel_03]

I know you don't want to be here.
I know I'm not good enough.
But do you have to make me feel so much worse about all this than I already do?

[Beasty]

My birthday is coming up soon. I hope more people remember than did last year (i.e. not many at all).

[jaded melody]

I love you. I wish you loved me back.

[sinfalcon]

Mommy, make me some Instant Breakfast again like you used to, back when I was small and I stopped eating. Notice that I stopped, and ask why. See my arms, before I have to tell you. See my legs. Look into my eyes. See something that tell you I'm not okay, and hug and cuddle me the way that you used to. Tell me you love me, and that everything's going to be alright. Tell me you love me when I'm just the way I was when I was born: naked, and with nothing to hide, no reason to. Just tell me you love me, and keep repeating it until the day I die, because I know that's what you'll be saying from beyond the grave.

Because I love you.

[DecemberLivy]

D - I don't know why I've become a little obsessed with you recently. It is an absolute secret, I haven't even told E about my attraction which is saying something, I tell her everything. It's very weird to me, I'm not used to thinking about someone this way, this year I've mostly dated girls and to suddenly find a guy who I think has everything which makes being with a women so attractive, sensitivity, rapport, real conversation.. it's just strange. Couple this with your very attractive *ahem* physical appearance... Well, it's just annoying because you think I'm someone I'm not. You've only known me this year, only ever seen me with/talking about girls, no wonder you think I'm gay. I wish I could tell you I'm not but I don't think that will help anything. We're probably as close as we are because you don't feel threatened by me, if I turn around and say 'actually I'm bisexual and I've had my eye on you for a while' it will just freak you out, and I'm pretty sure you don't see me with those eyes anyway. It's annoying but I'll get over it. It's just another box I put myself in.

[kalayla]

you don't want me to go, do you?

[treasure]

dad, stop telling me i need to exercise, sleep better, eat better etc. you're no better, and it makes you seem like a sanctimonious jerk. leave me alone to play games

[snowangel_03]

I wish you told me why and how you moved on so quickly. Or was I just a quickie and nothing more? Guess I naively thought you cared.

[volta]

J, i lied. i told you i'm fine, no worries.
i'm not fine. i want you to help me, but you've got your own problems to deal with.
please, someone help me.

[stripysocks4christ]

r u ok?

[snowangel_03]

I'm sorry about everything that's happened. If I knew it was all going to happen, I would have said no.

[volta]

J, i lied. i told you i'm fine, no worries.
i'm not fine. i want you to help me, but you've got your own problems to deal with.
please, someone help me.

i'm okay. just depressed and in need of a friend.

[snowangel_03]

*LA*

I don't love you any more. I want to, but I can't.


I'm angry at you for fucking me then fucking me off.


I want to SI just to feel something other than what I do right now even though I think I may be in recovery.


I'm so fucking scared I'm getting an ED. I can't deal with that on top of everything else.