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a7xcncangel · Post by **a7xcncangel** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 2:01 am

I still want my ex back despite how he treated me

I want to punch R in the face for stealing my ex away and being so fucking inconsiderate.

I don't want a boyfriend

Yet none the less I can't control myself from latching onto every guy that shows interest and and is nice to me, even if I know he's a player and has had like 6 gfs over the past year...

I kind of do want to get intimate with him despite by fears of STDs.

I really want to have a relationship with a girl.

I'm not sure I'm emotionally and mentally stable enough to go to Germany w/o my parents and much supervision and having WAAYY more freedom than I do here in the US (ie drinking, smoking, clubbing, etc).

I have a crush on my German host sister.

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 1:24 pm

I'm really missing home today. I feel like crying when I shouldn't because in general, life is good. Something exciting is happening and I don't know why I think it's ruined when I have evidence to the contray. I am just so fed up of living here and having no friends when I'm living. I have ace friends but they're not here.

And I see no end to this situation. I honestly feel that I'm going to be stuck here forever and it makes me want to cry and not take care of myself because it's an awful thought. I miss home today.

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Wed Jun 10, 2009 2:15 pm

I think I'm about to make the wrong decision that I'm gonna regret. I hope to goodness my gut feeling isn't going to be proved right.

ChangeTheWorld · Post by **ChangeTheWorld** » Thu Jun 11, 2009 4:02 am

i don't think i've gotten any better from whatever it is i'm meant to have.

a7xcncangel · Post by **a7xcncangel** » Tue Jun 16, 2009 12:29 am

I can't say no to a relationship, even if I know it's not right.

I can't help but be nice and pretend things are ok around my ex despite what he's done to me.

I kind of want to SI, just so I know I still have the option.

I feel fat.

I'm craving junkfood so badly right now.

I know how to fix my problems, it's just that either I can't or I don't want to.

I'm scared of being away from BUS when I'm in Germany.
I want to watch porn.

scooter · Post by **scooter** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 1:40 am

****ED****SI*****

I relapsed with my Ed

i miss my abusive dad

i lost XX pounds in 4-5 weeks 2 months ago, you never noticed

I threw up today

I want to Si (burn) the fuck out of my arm

I miss my treatment centers and their security

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Fri Jul 03, 2009 4:46 am

I can't stand others' happiness right now. It just depresses and triggers me more.

And I just remembered that tomorrow, the new forums are going up. I don't SI that much anymore but I am now suddenly paranoid.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Fri Jul 03, 2009 9:31 am

I didn't text you just because I wanted to talk to you again.

I texted you because I know that you're the only one who I could maybe talk to about all of my shit that could possibly handle it.

I'm sorry I can't find the right words to say.

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Sat Jul 11, 2009 1:09 am

I am so lonely right now... but, at the same time, I don't want to be around anyone.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon Jul 13, 2009 5:27 am

I AM COMPLETELY TERRIFIED.
ABSOLUTELY AND COMPLETELY TERRIFIED.

where do I go from here?

HakunaMatata · Post by **HakunaMatata** » Mon Jul 13, 2009 11:00 am

Please don't judge me

The only reason I'm still with you is cause I can't afford our bills on my own. Hell you still owe for the gas and electricity at the old place, yet you won't discuss it with me. Thanks for picking up some of the responsibility. I'm not unhappy with you, just ambivalent, so I figure I can hang in till Christmas so we can sort the house out. I don't even feel like splitting up over Christmas is mean. I don't care anymore. I've not forgotten you strangling me, nor how you tried to twist it into it being my own fault, but it's easier not to argue. Keep my head down, mother you, ensure the bills get paid and have sex with you. You'll be happy and I can live the rest of my life as normal. It shouldn't be that way but frankly I'm not too fussed, we have some good times and laughs still so I'm happy enough. Then I can be my own person again and start next year afresh

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Tue Jul 14, 2009 3:49 am

I let you get my hopes up again.

damn you

I need to stay over you & away from you.

...at least for a bit.

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 2:49 am

I feel terrible right now. In more ways than one.

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 5:03 am

I'm obsessed with you and that's why I can't be friends.

Because I love you. You were the first person I loved. Because I go crazy. And you don't need me.

xXelmoscaresmeXx · Post by **xXelmoscaresmeXx** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 4:43 pm

Even though I push everyone away...
.............all I want is for someone to say.............
....."I will never let you go".....

Post by **Spidey** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 8:20 pm

I should likely just end the damn friendship, if only to save my sanity.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 9:43 pm

I don't know what this is.
I don't know if I will ever be able to get over this.

snowangel_03 · Post by **snowangel_03** » Thu Jul 16, 2009 9:49 pm

I don't love you anymore

amyfairy · Post by **amyfairy** » Fri Jul 17, 2009 12:35 am

I don't care anymore.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Wed Jul 22, 2009 4:12 pm

i love the rain.. because it means I can cuddle close to you under an umbrella and people won't assume we're dating.. just that we want to stay dry..

bus

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