Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:00 am

I have a tattoo. It's around my wrist.

My mom doesn't know.

We live together.
I was going to tell her, but the longer I wait the harder/scarier it is to tell her.
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I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

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Post by steady hands » Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:11 am

sidvicious1903 wrote:I HATE being sober.
I don't actually.
If I wasn't sober, I would've fucked up my life even more than have already.

I am grateful for being sober.
I am happy I made that decision.
I am proud that I had the integrity and willpower to make it happen.


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Post by breathing » Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:46 am

sidvicious1903 wrote:
sidvicious1903 wrote:I HATE being sober.
I don't actually.
If I wasn't sober, I would've fucked up my life even more than have already.

I am grateful for being sober.
I am happy I made that decision.
I am proud that I had the integrity and willpower to make it happen.

I am so happy for you! :D

I can also agree with this in my life, to the fullest extent!!

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Post by steady hands » Tue Mar 31, 2009 9:40 pm

adamson wrote:
sidvicious1903 wrote:
sidvicious1903 wrote:I HATE being sober.
I don't actually.
If I wasn't sober, I would've fucked up my life even more than have already.

I am grateful for being sober.
I am happy I made that decision.
I am proud that I had the integrity and willpower to make it happen.

I am so happy for you! :D

I can also agree with this in my life, to the fullest extent!!

I am proud of you. :)
And I'm happy for you, too.

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Post by starcatuk » Tue Mar 31, 2009 11:41 pm

i hate you but i dont want you to leave me

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Post by zombiepeople » Tue Mar 31, 2009 11:55 pm

I like two guys in my school and I'm too afraid to talk to them :( (I know it sounds realliy childish :oops: )
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Post by Strangers_Almanac » Fri Apr 03, 2009 4:50 pm

i hate that he noticed my scars. even when i cover them with make up. i hate it because i thought i had them covered well enough.

i hate it because, i wanted to be a diffrent person with him.


even though i know SI is not that far from my finger tips.
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Post by kgraff » Sat Apr 04, 2009 8:53 pm

i hate that i like you, and you dont even notice
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Post by steady hands » Mon Apr 06, 2009 4:22 am

I really really want to smoke right now.
I just want everything to go away.
I want myself to go away.
I feel like doing that would make everything better.

I feel like such a fuck-up, and that none of this is worth it.

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Post by steady hands » Tue Apr 07, 2009 5:29 am

I wish I could just stick my head out my window and smoke a cigarette.
Or like I had a chair attached to the outside of my house that I could climb outside my window and sit on.


Seriously, I long for a gazebo/porch cover/veranda/etc, so I can climb out on the top of it through my window and smoke when I can't sleep and listen to john coltrane with headphones and look up at the stars.

And this is why I am single. Because I want to sit on the roof, and smoke cigarettes, and listen to john coltrane. No one my age even knows who the hell john coltrane is.


cheers to being alone the rest of my life.


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Post by RG » Sat Apr 11, 2009 6:38 am

:star: I hate that I sometimes manipulate you even though I try hard not too
:star: The pain hurts soo much and I feel like suicide is a viable option
:star: I feel unworthy of everything I recieve

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Post by treasure » Sat Apr 11, 2009 6:19 pm

i want to tell my sister that next week will be 6 months without si, but i'm not sure if she'll care. i feel really small and insignificant, and giving myself a small congrats should be enough. i want lots of attention, but i'm not sure i'd like that if i got it. wish i could make up my mind.
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Post by falllingdown » Sat Apr 11, 2009 7:11 pm

Not sure what to do. Have been before but they said it was nothing and to go back if anything changes but i dont know if it is something more. In someways i want death but not that way.
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Maybe you're the same as me
We see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever

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Post by noldo » Sat Apr 11, 2009 7:33 pm

I really really want him to love me back.
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Post by HakunaMatata » Mon Apr 13, 2009 3:27 pm

I read post-secret every week without fail. I find it interesting, but very rarely associate with it. This week I could have written 2 of the post cards that are posted. It's actually a bit surreal.

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Post by Joseph » Wed Apr 15, 2009 3:06 am

I don't want anyone to know that I want to act out. I am such a freak
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Post by ultimate starshine » Sat Apr 18, 2009 3:29 pm

S - I still love you. I have loved you ever since i met you. But i need to realise i have ruined any chance of us beign together till the end.
I need you to realise i didnt break up with you because i didnt want to be with you. I broke up with you becase at the time i was planning SU and i didnt want you to be any part of it.

Yes. I disgust myself. I hope one day you can forgive me.
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Post by southsider » Sun Apr 19, 2009 2:47 am

I got a very strong urge last night to visit a site I know would trigger the hell out of me.

But I stopped.

Am I finally realizing that I don't deserve to beat myself up?
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Post by zombiepeople » Wed Apr 22, 2009 3:30 am

*ED*
I am still throwing up everyday...and I'm lying to you constantly about it. I hate myself for it, believe me when I say I hate this, but dont' know what to do when lying feels like survival. I don't want to disappoint you and if I tell you the truth, I will.
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Post by breathing » Mon Apr 27, 2009 6:11 pm

sidvicious1903 wrote:No one my age even knows who the hell john coltrane is.
You're not the only one :D

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