last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Storme » Sat Dec 27, 2008 5:53 pm

I didn't because I wanted to wear a new top I'd bought without having to worry about hiding.

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Post by Spidey » Sat Dec 27, 2008 7:12 pm

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Post by Skip » Sat Dec 27, 2008 10:44 pm

Because my foster mother hid my lighters and then stood and watched me in my room...so I wouldn't do anything.



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Post by Sam_Crayon » Sat Dec 27, 2008 11:25 pm

i want to si right now, but i wont because i promised my gf i wouldnt, i havent done it in months, i want to be able to show my arms (even if they are a bit scar-ey) im terified someone would find out, this feeling will pass... i think i might just go to sleep to get away from feeling like this
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Post by strmdncr » Tue Dec 30, 2008 9:34 am

*because with each day that passes I'm getting closer and closer to my long term goal of 1 year si free
*because I would feel as though I had disappointed my T (even though I know he would say I didn't)
*because the last time I did I scared myself with how much I actually did
*because I know I have other ways of dealing with the triggers
*because I deserve to care for myself as much as I care for others in my life
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Post by PLAIN JANE » Wed Dec 31, 2008 1:46 am

I didn't cause I'm starting to love myself.

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Post by Sheliya » Mon Jan 05, 2009 6:03 pm

I didn't because the marks from last time were still too visibly etched on my left arm.
How did you know that I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe


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Post by Inthebox » Thu Jan 08, 2009 4:49 am

Because even if the idea sounds great in my head, I really don't want to physically cut.
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Post by ReineDuSommeil » Wed Jan 14, 2009 12:06 pm

I wanted to sleep instead......

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Post by figment » Wed Jan 14, 2009 12:26 pm

I've already had two slips, and really, they just made me feel worse.
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Post by vampirelover » Wed Jan 14, 2009 1:39 pm

I didnt want to slip back to addiction
I would of hurt my best friend
it wouldnt change anthing for the good in the long run
im stronger than that i dont need it
i went to sleep
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Post by SplinteredGirl » Tue Jan 27, 2009 7:45 am

because mt new goal is a month AND a week
becuase my boyfriend would be disapointed
i have no wirstband to cover it right now...
.. my scars are so ugly

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Post by *Ally* » Wed Jan 28, 2009 1:05 am

I didn't because I wanted to make it 6 weeks SI free and I couldn't handle the disappointment I would feel afterwards if I had gone threw with it.

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Post by Sheliya » Fri Jan 30, 2009 11:59 pm

because I didn't want to have to deal with the annoyance of having to try and keep my arm dry in the shower tonight... :-?
How did you know that I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe


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Post by 5th section » Sat Jan 31, 2009 1:27 am

no time - I was late for work
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Post by vampirelover » Sat Jan 31, 2009 9:28 pm

im holding of for 15 min
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days

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Post by zombiepeople » Sat Jan 31, 2009 11:18 pm

I knew it wouldn't be worth the terrible feeling of guilt after
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Post by vampirelover » Sun Feb 01, 2009 6:50 pm

i fell asleep in front of the tv and then i woke up i had basically got through the night so i just went to beb
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
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Post by Spidey » Tue Feb 03, 2009 1:01 am

I watched House instead.

That and decided it was too much effort to hurt myself.
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Post by *Ally* » Tue Feb 03, 2009 3:01 am

I knew it wouldn't help me in the end.

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