last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
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i want to si right now, but i wont because i promised my gf i wouldnt, i havent done it in months, i want to be able to show my arms (even if they are a bit scar-ey) im terified someone would find out, this feeling will pass... i think i might just go to sleep to get away from feeling like this
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*because with each day that passes I'm getting closer and closer to my long term goal of 1 year si free
*because I would feel as though I had disappointed my T (even though I know he would say I didn't)
*because the last time I did I scared myself with how much I actually did
*because I know I have other ways of dealing with the triggers
*because I deserve to care for myself as much as I care for others in my life
*because I would feel as though I had disappointed my T (even though I know he would say I didn't)
*because the last time I did I scared myself with how much I actually did
*because I know I have other ways of dealing with the triggers
*because I deserve to care for myself as much as I care for others in my life
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I didn't because the marks from last time were still too visibly etched on my left arm.
How did you know that I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe
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Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe
My Place: waiting for the morning Feel free to read along! Hugs and replies are welcome!
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because I didn't want to have to deal with the annoyance of having to try and keep my arm dry in the shower tonight...
How did you know that I'm all alone today
Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe
My Place: waiting for the morning Feel free to read along! Hugs and replies are welcome!
Oh I feel so scared and I want to go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming
I'm not gonna hide, I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars, and show you every mistake
Your love has mended my blisters and my bruising shame
Now I'm not ashamed.
Here with you I am safe
My Place: waiting for the morning Feel free to read along! Hugs and replies are welcome!
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