Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by WalkingStick » Tue Jan 27, 2009 5:39 am

im sorry for how much i hurt you. i'm sorry for the silence.
i feel we don't have closure, but i'm not sure how to get any, at this point.

you need to move on. clearly, i have. im not the one for you. i'm the one for him.

move on, and find someone new.
be happy.


im sorry we didn't have closure.
it's something i truely regret.
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Post by kendra » Tue Jan 27, 2009 7:32 am

I don't think I'm cut out for this, part of me thinks I should just drop out now...

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Post by Mind Explorer » Tue Jan 27, 2009 8:00 pm

Everytime I speak out my mind, tell what I'm dealing with and take some (mental) space, I find myself attention sick.

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Post by zombiepeople » Wed Jan 28, 2009 5:09 am

Though I try to pretend, I am still not doing well in my recovery from my ED :(
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Post by travelgirl » Thu Jan 29, 2009 7:05 am

if you asked me to move there with you, i would do it in a heartbeat, without regret, or looking back, i would give up my dreams for you, every last one.

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Post by Stefani140 » Thu Jan 29, 2009 7:54 pm

I know you were here. I know you were online, hiding from me, while I was sitting there waiting to talk to you for 4 hours. It was really stupid to change something on your name while hiding, since I'd be able to see it. The only thing I don't know is why, but I will find out...without telling you I know about today.
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Post by vampirelover » Thu Jan 29, 2009 10:40 pm

i wanna cry myself to sleep but im too afraid of being caught
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Fri Jan 30, 2009 4:27 pm

I can see myself spending a large part of my life with her. I'm scared what my family would say.

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Post by steady hands » Sat Jan 31, 2009 10:22 pm

I'm afraid i'll fail.

but at the same time, there's this part of me that wants to do this.
I can do this.

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Post by breathing » Sun Feb 01, 2009 2:34 am

Every aspect of the world makes me feel so dreadfully alone.
And no one understands it.

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Post by kalayla » Mon Feb 02, 2009 3:48 am

I need someone to tell me that I will be okay, I need someone to hols me and let me cry... I just really need someone
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Post by starcatuk » Mon Feb 02, 2009 1:41 pm

i love him even though it would never work

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Post by Spidey » Tue Feb 03, 2009 1:00 am

greenstar wrote:I'm afraid I'm getting dreadfully depressed again and no one notices.

I want my old friends back. It feels like I have to be depressed to be loved.
I heart you hardcore irregardless. Granted we've never met IRL but I think you fucking rock.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by WorkDaySarcasm » Tue Feb 03, 2009 7:23 pm

Thinking back over my Ed behaviour it's been going on for years.

I feel I should really be a lot smaller.
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Post by kgraff » Tue Feb 03, 2009 9:09 pm

how did it get so bad that i tried to kill myself?
what did i do wrong?
i just want it all go away and for someone to save me
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Post by mithz » Tue Feb 03, 2009 10:44 pm

I don't know what to do. This thing is really getting to me.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Tue Feb 03, 2009 11:53 pm

I have a folder called "Four Years" on my computer. In it are pictures I saved for a certain kind of occasion if it should arise.. in four or less years.

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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

Less Traveled Roads <-- Everyone Welcome.

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Post by vampirelover » Wed Feb 04, 2009 11:41 am

why do i care about her she made me miserable
am i not cabable of hatred
longest with no slips - 2 years , 6 months
time since last slip : 2 days

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Post by HakunaMatata » Thu Feb 05, 2009 1:25 pm

Maybe slight ED/SU triggs.
I feel like I really don't belong. Anywhere. I am healthy and fine. But I want something to be wrong with me. I've lost weight, now I'm eating like I'll never see food again. If I'm not careful it will all go back. And I don't want that, I don't. I want to be thin. Thinner than I am now. Now is normal, I so HATE 'normal'. I have 2 friends. And yesterday I realised how little I actually know one of them. I feel like a loser. Because of money trouble I now can't get a cat, the one thing I was holding out for. Every night I go to bed and hope I won't wake up in the morning. And every morning I wake up. I don't want to kill myself, but I definitely don't want to be alive right now.


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Post by kalayla » Thu Feb 05, 2009 3:14 pm

i know that it is my fault... i know that it is all me... that you just dont want me
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