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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sun Dec 21, 2008 9:01 pm

Okay.. I've known you almost all my life, and I've stood by you even when I should have probably given you an asskicking. But seriously.. only 14 credits when you are transfering in? Seriously boy. Do you want to go out and find guys to lay you all the time or what? No, I'm not introducing you to a couple guys I know.. No, I'm not taking you to parties.. hell I don't even go to parties. And bigger no, I am not going to ride up to campus with you. I like my freedom thankyouverymuch.

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Post by kalayla » Mon Dec 22, 2008 2:09 pm

you dont hurt me by telling me that...honestly i dont FUCKING care
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Mon Dec 22, 2008 8:52 pm

You can't hurt me.

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Post by Callisto » Mon Dec 22, 2008 11:18 pm

i hate myself for being fat and think i deserve to die for it, but i'm too ashamed of being a fat corpse.

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Post by southsider » Tue Dec 23, 2008 1:59 am

Holy shit, I have the BIGGEST crush on you. But I don't want to tell you, since I like you as a person. Talking with you is fun and comfortable. I'm afraid we wouldn't talk at all if I were to tell you that I'm attracted to you.

I feel like a teenager again. It's a good thing I'm not acting like a teenager again, slurring my words and making an ass out of myself.
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Post by KLove24 » Tue Dec 23, 2008 2:36 am

When your name pops up when I get a text my heart beats in my stomach.
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Post by brknflight » Tue Dec 23, 2008 3:34 am

I need you right now. But if I were to ask for your help you would go into crisis mode and make me feel worse than I already am. But I need you. I want you to come pick me up and take me away from this place. I'll never ask that of you, so I'll just write it here in this post. I need you right now.

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Post by Stefani140 » Tue Dec 23, 2008 9:08 pm

I wish this would all just go away and for once make my life easy.
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Post by Eva » Wed Dec 24, 2008 10:43 am

Merry Christmas. I love you so much...please come back to me :(

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Post by KLove24 » Wed Dec 24, 2008 5:48 pm

I know you never think about me I am completely aware of that fact. Yet I can't get you off my mind. I feel like if I could just see you in person I would know that it was all in my head

I don't know if I trust the things you say to me. I don't know why I put myself thru the torture of talking to you just so that I can get hurt again.
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Post by Callisto » Wed Dec 24, 2008 10:17 pm

It has really hurt me that you and your side of the family have blatantly not gotten me a present or a card. It hurts that I know you've done it out of spite and to hammer home the fact that I don't exist to you. I feel so rejected and empty and hurt right now. well done for succeeding in ruining my Christmas. Happy fucking holidays.

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Post by Spidey » Thu Dec 25, 2008 12:27 am

I hate the holidays. All it has succeeded in doing this year is making me depressed.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Thu Dec 25, 2008 11:36 pm

the thing is, I'm madly in love with you. I keep lying to myself but I am dreaming about you, in a very specific sense, and it's just not true to keep assuming what I'm assuming. You are so damaged and warped and bad, in so many ways but when I allow myself to think and feel what is innate and natural I come to only one conclusion. I hate being honest with myself because if feels like some sort of betrayal, but I really am mad about you. I think you're the craziest most unique utterly amazing person ever. I just... don't know what to do. What is there to do. Not alot. The two Livy's are saying seperate things, one is rational (sort of) and one is not. I WANT to listen to rational Livy, but what is real is real
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Fri Dec 26, 2008 2:11 am

Okay. here's all the stuff I want to say to you my conservative, religious on some sides family. Screw being what you all are. I'm very opposite from you in so many view points.

Sexual Orientation. Who cares what people are attracted to. It doesn't make them any less of a person. Why should it matter who likes what in their beds at night? You all sicken me.

This brings me to point two, marriage. Totally not for me. I'm not going to be open to the idea until the point of "traditional marriage" is destroyed. Until all my gay/bisexual/any other orientation, can marry who they want.. I don't even want the idea of it.

These two added together brings me to another point. I'm dating an amazing woman. Deal with it. If you are going to tell me I'm going to hell, great! When I'm there I'll turn to my right and wave to ya.

Other things we'll disagree on. Abortion. I'm pro-choice. Don't even think of starting a debate with me. Religion in general. I know some of you border on crazy fundamentalists, damn I'll have fun tearing you to shreads if you start a debate.

Take a look at a lot of the younger generations. We're a bit more accepting of people. You lot sicken me in many aspects. You are more judgemental than should be allowed a great deal of the time. Wake up. You religious folk, you're supposed to accept and love everyone. I sure as hell do not see you doing that.

Open your minds past the conservative limit. Liberals aren't evil bastards ya know.

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Post by Beasty » Fri Dec 26, 2008 4:15 am

The main reason I'm being distant is because I know that chances are, my proximate choices are likely going to make it impossible for us to have a relationship any longer. It will become completely unreasonable for you to date me.

I'm sorry, but I will not put my life aside for you.
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Post by Spidey » Fri Dec 26, 2008 6:02 am

i miss you.
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Post by Callisto » Fri Dec 26, 2008 4:45 pm

ugh you make me sick. you don't deserve a child.

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Post by 5th section » Fri Dec 26, 2008 7:32 pm

there must be more I can do. why can't I see what it is?
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Fri Dec 26, 2008 9:56 pm

please help me.
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Post by volta » Sat Dec 27, 2008 12:27 am

you wanna act like a bitch? do it. go ahead and assume that you're the only one here who's hurting. you finally got what you wanted, and now you're still not doing any better. join the fucking club! so if you're gonna act like a total bitch to me, just wait and see what happens.

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