Why you won't SI

double_agent15 · Post by **double_agent15** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 2:52 am

Hmm this is a weird and cool idea that I just had while talking to Twilit_Star and so this was what I came up with.
We all have reasons why we don't want to SI and why we don't want to hurt ourselves, so I thought that this would be a great place for us to all post and remind ourselves all the reasons why we don't want this
much love,
double_agent

double_agent15 · Post by **double_agent15** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 3:00 am

Reasons why I won't SI:
I don't deserve to be forced to relive everything I went through everytime I look at my arms
I don't deserve to be hurting myself for things that are out of my control
I don't want to hurt anyone other than myself because I am hurting
I want to be able to find new ways to cope
I want to be able to say that I can get over this
I know that even if things seem bad now if a few minutes/hours/days it will all blow over and be better and then I will feel stupid for it and hate myself even more
It just isn't worth it

Twilit_Star · Post by **Twilit_Star** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 3:09 am

yay! so glad you decided to do this!

i don't want anymore scars

i want to find a coping mechanism with a feeling of releif that last long term

i want to be able to look my mom in the eyes and tell her that i have stopped for real

i want to grow up to be an actress

i don't want to worry about what to wear to cover me up

i don't want to be scared of swimming or getting changed

i want to be able to honestly say to my new t that i don't cut anymore

lying is no fun!

i want to stop hurting everyone around me

i want control again

there are probably more, maybe i'll post again when i think of them. you are the best double!

love
twilit

Post by **Jomomma** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 5:05 am

I can only think of one reason right now.

I do not want to lose control again!!!!!!!!

JO

lostandalone · Post by **lostandalone** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 5:14 am

i don't want anymore scars

I want to me a better influence on my moms soon to arive baby and i don't want to explain to my kids and freandkids why i have scars

I don't want another runed relationship because people can't deal with me

I want to find new ways to relase my anger

I want to be in control.

I wnat to be happy

Hammurabi · Post by **Hammurabi** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 6:15 am

- I don't want my gf worrying about me any more than she already does
- I don't want to hurt my parents
- If I was ever declared a 'threat to myself' and locked in a hospital by court order I know without a doubt I would loose control and kill myself within a week.

(s)aint · Post by **(s)aint** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 10:24 am

I dont want anymore scars

I dont want to hurt my bf anymore

I want to b happy

I dont want scars to remind of everything

Laura · Post by **Laura** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 11:54 am

SI is messy

I spend a fortune on first aid stuff

I don't want to be in hospital

I want my GP to be proud of me

I want to feel better permanently

Healthcare workers treat your depression worse if you SI

Sometimes SI doesn't even help

Oh well.
Laura

silent_scream · Post by **silent_scream** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 12:21 pm

:- because i deserve respect and kindness espcially from myself

:- because i don't deserve to hurt anymore.

:- because i want to heal

:- because i dont want to.

:- because i dont want to hide and feel sahmeful about my past and who i am anymore.

cariad · Post by **cariad** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 5:09 pm

i dont want to hurt anyone

i dont want the scars

i want to find a better way to cope

i want control

i want my life back

Pearl · Post by **Pearl** » Thu Jun 05, 2003 6:51 pm

There is something counter productive about hurting myself, to cope with pain.

Like it or not, I have to get along with this body. Until I can buy cheap replacements for parts damaged during SI, I have to be more careful. (I learned this the hard way, and my arm may never work right again.)

I'm lonely to begin with, and SI is driving away people I care about. No good can come from that.

I don't like feeling like SI is the only way to get through anything. If I catch myself feeling like that, 9 times out of 10, I can convince myself to do something else.

2 words: Shock Rock. Ever since Marilyn Manson made SI into something cool that could sell records, I have had a powerful influence against SI.

Those I marked with a "

" also show up on reasons why I SI. It's funny how that works sometimes.

michigansucks · Post by **michigansucks** » Sat Jun 07, 2003 6:39 am

i want to wear more than t-shirts

I don't want to bleed anymore

I want to go to college without using this as a coping mechanism

I want to wear tank tops without wearing shirst over them

chilling_teardrops · Post by **chilling_teardrops** » Sat Jun 07, 2003 11:47 am

because i need to learn to love myself
because it doesnt just effect me
because its going to kill me some day
because i deserve better
because i have the control not it(er mostly)

Nilkku · Post by **Nilkku** » Sun Jun 08, 2003 1:06 pm

Let's see if I can think of any...

It doesn't work for me any more like it used to, I'd have to SI far too severely to get the right effect. And because I really do not want to do that, I could just as well not SI at all.... it'd be more or less a disappointment anyway.

It messes my relationship with my boyfriend. He hates it, and for a reason, I have to admit. We're both so much happier if I don't SI.

This is my life, and I want to be the one in control over it.

The itching sucks.

There are so many beautiful clothes I know I can never wear because of my scars. I know things aren't getting much better, but I don't want to make them any worse than they already are.

I want to be able to like myself, and SI'ing won't help that in any way.

In the end, I know SI is doing no good for me. I'd only end up being more disappointed and ashamed of myself than before.

I know I don't really need to SI. The urges will pass if I just can wait for a little while.

It's messy.

I don't want to be a bad influence on my little sister.

I want to learn to express my feelings and stop being dishonest to the people I care about.

I want my boyfriend to think I'm pretty.

I think life is just so much easier and more fun without SI!

Yay, looks like I've got more reasons not to SI than I thought! Thanks for posting this thread, I think it's really useful.

Wandering · Post by **Wandering** » Tue Jun 10, 2003 8:47 pm

I dunno really. I guess:

- Because it hurts the morning after (yes and thats a reason I do it too)
- Because what right have I to treat my body this way
- Because I don't want future people ie at college/work to wonder why I have scars
- Because I've come too close to getting caught, and it would be awful to have to explain myself to my parents, who have no idea anything's wrong

she_breathes · Post by **she_breathes** » Mon Jun 16, 2003 6:45 am

i haven't cut in a long time and sometimes i really want to and i can't think of many good reasons not to, but here's a few:

- i don't want a serious infection
- i don't want to hurt the people who love me
- i want to heal

surfgurl · Post by **surfgurl** » Mon Jun 16, 2003 5:09 pm

This is very hard to write. I last si on Friday 13th June and I'm making a promise to myself (and everyone on bus - cos a promise only to me is not worth it) to stop once and for all.
Reasons why I don't want / need to si

-It is not a constructive coping mechanism. It only hurts me and others around me.
-I desperately want to be loved. No-one is going to want to love me when I si.
- I don''t deserve to punish myself. I've done nothing wrong. I am not a bad person, despite what my thoughts tell me.
- I want to get better and be happy. I can learn to cope and manage my depression.
-I care about my t enough not to want to freak him out again by handing over my tools like I did last Friday. Likewise my boyf doesn't need to see the scarred or scared me anymore.

surfgurl

racewithdeath · Post by **racewithdeath** » Tue Jun 17, 2003 6:22 pm

- im sick of wearing a sweatshirt and pants in the summer
- i swim, someones gonna notice eventually
- i dont want to hide anymore
- HANNAH

this was a good idea! i'll probably be back later

__________________________________

"theres more to me, then there is to me"

Mystic Mana · Post by **Mystic Mana** » Wed Jun 18, 2003 11:49 pm

i GET SACRED OF MYSELF

i DONT WANT TO HURT OTHER PEOPLE

i DONT WANT THE SCARS AND MARKS

I WANT A BETTER WAY TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING

Mystic Mana · Post by **Mystic Mana** » Wed Jun 18, 2003 11:50 pm

i GET SACRED OF MYSELF

i DONT WANT TO HURT OTHER PEOPLE

i DONT WANT THE SCARS AND MARKS

I WANT A BETTER WAY TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING

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