Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by (*Haven*) » Tue Oct 07, 2008 12:52 pm

I want to break the rules with you.
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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Oct 08, 2008 6:38 pm

I know it's killing you as much as it's killing me. And we can't do anything about it. :cry:
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Post by ThanksALatte » Thu Oct 09, 2008 4:23 am

i want to cut. really badly.
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Post by Dorky&Weird2 » Thu Oct 09, 2008 4:27 am

I want to send you a message but I know you will tell everyone and I dont wanna seem desperate,even thought I am?

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Post by (*Haven*) » Thu Oct 09, 2008 12:46 pm

I'm sorry. It's just funny and I can't stop laughing.
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Post by xStarBright » Thu Oct 09, 2008 4:49 pm

I'm actualy a jelous & bad tempered peson. O.O That's OK tho'. I'm workin' on it.

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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Oct 11, 2008 7:40 pm

The first time I start to fall for someone, it's for a girl.. and I'm afraid to tell certain people that I am completely entranced by her.

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Post by Beasty » Sat Oct 11, 2008 11:01 pm

I am not staying beyond one semester unless you do something pretty fucking awesome to keep me
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Post by fiona » Sun Oct 12, 2008 4:12 pm

I tell my friends Liz is a friend from college that I've fallen in love with but really she's my support worker.

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Post by steady hands » Mon Oct 13, 2008 4:25 am

I want to smoke that weed so badly.
if I was alone, it would've been gone hours ago.


I wonder if you would notice if I smoked it in my room.
do you even have a clue what I do with the door closed?

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Post by ambivalent red » Tue Oct 14, 2008 3:45 pm

I wish he was gone. I dont care how, just gone.
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Post by caged bird » Wed Oct 15, 2008 1:10 pm

you don't know it but i've given up already, i'm just waiting
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Post by Cuppy » Wed Oct 15, 2008 2:55 pm

I'll die some day being the only one that knows :x :( but I wouldn't change that. Lifes so fucking unfair.

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Post by Pissenlit » Sun Oct 19, 2008 5:00 am

I want someone to feel badly for how horribly they've treated me, and how they've taken me for granted. But I know they won't. I could probably die and everyone would feel like the burden that is me has been lifted from their shoulders, as if them treating me like garbage was doing me a favor. I want someone to cry at my funeral. But I probably won't have a funeral, because no one would care if I died - except maybe the people who hold my student loans that I still owe on.
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Post by Callisto » Tue Oct 21, 2008 1:37 am

I wish I could stop myself feeling for you so that I wouldn't get so worried about losing you.

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Post by Silent_Tears » Wed Oct 22, 2008 1:19 pm

ED?/SA


I can't seem to quit. My mind is set on destruction I think... in any way I can get it. In the past 48 hours, all I've had is a cup of coffe with cream and sugar and a few chips last night with salsa (like 5 chips because otherwise the person would have been suspicious). My doctor and t don't think the not eating is a problem. I've been averaging one small meal a day (yesterday was less). I gave them a copy of what I had eaten and they seemed to think it was a good idea. I guess they feel that way because of my weight. I feel like it's starting to get out of control... that i want to make it so that i eat nothing at all for days. i'm just not sure how i'm going to get out of eating meals at lunch at work. i've got to figure something out.

i'm thinking about the abuse more than i thought i was i believe. maybe this is provoking some of the memory loss and su thoughts that have been ruling my head lately. things got brought up with stupid things like furniture. (my dad made furniture... saw a leaf table at t's and had to keep shaking my head to get my thoughts away from those abuse stuff). the other instance was just talking about bunk beds... and then i remembered i had bunk beds, and the stuff that happened with my dad during that time. it's like i get caught in that time and am not sure how to get out.
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Post by bee.loved12 » Wed Oct 22, 2008 4:52 pm

i finally decided that i dont want you back. and it makes me really happy

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maybe today, we can put the past away.

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Post by caged bird » Wed Oct 22, 2008 10:48 pm

i know i shouldn't but i think i need you to save me, i don't think i can do it myelf
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Post by KLove24 » Thu Oct 23, 2008 5:16 am

I don't know it I will ever get over him
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Post by xStarBright » Thu Oct 23, 2008 4:40 pm

I've just realized I'm unhealthy, and that I've been emmiting for a long time, some ED behavoir.
This scares me.
I want to "recover", but when the weight goes on I freak out.

I wish I'd never realized.

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