Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Beasty » Tue Sep 16, 2008 1:44 am

I don't know whom I want. He will have me, so I'll say that it is him. It works out for both of us until I realize that I'm wrong or that he doesn't want me anymore.
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Post by ultimate starshine » Tue Sep 16, 2008 8:21 am

He doesnt realise just how happy he has made me, and i am afraid to show it. Im scared that i only want him to save me rather than himself.
Am i really that selfish.
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Post by Pink_Stars » Tue Sep 16, 2008 10:25 am

You don't know how you make me feel when you won't get up.
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Tue Sep 16, 2008 2:21 pm

i'm pretending. :-?
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:32 am

i like this feeling. i like how it makes me feel. I;m not sorry.
"I saw spiders where there were no spiders" - patti smith
"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
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Post by caged bird » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:36 am

i don't want to do this anymore
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Post by jennikins84 » Wed Sep 17, 2008 6:20 pm

I don't really want to get a job. I want to be able to hide forever.
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Post by volta » Wed Sep 17, 2008 8:47 pm

anonymous08 wrote:to my mom and stepdad:
you're the only ones who don't know. i'm cutting again. and . . .
i'm bulimic. i have been for over a year now. and i wish i could tell you so you could help me.
i told my mom. she's going to help me. i don't have any secrets anymore.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:17 pm

sometimes when I feel disappointed in myself for not working hard enough, I don't allow myself to eat.
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Post by sadgirl2 » Thu Sep 18, 2008 3:58 am

I stopped taking all my meds and have an appt with my Pdoc coming up....I have to tell him :oops:
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Post by amyfairy » Thu Sep 18, 2008 4:33 pm

I still hope that my parents will fall in love again.
Despite having gone through a bitter divorce and never exchanging more than a few words on the rare occasion they happen to see each other in passing. That's a few more politely friendly words than used to be said.

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Post by ambivalent red » Fri Sep 19, 2008 3:37 pm

I wish I wouldnt have gotten married.
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Post by Spidey » Fri Sep 19, 2008 8:35 pm

You think I'm joking.

I'm not.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by Stefani140 » Fri Sep 19, 2008 8:43 pm

I skipped out on a work party saying I was sick....I really just didn't want to be around those people and have to pretend to be cheerful anymore.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Sep 20, 2008 11:08 pm

i really...really wanna find someone who I can explore myself with.

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Post by amyfairy » Sat Sep 20, 2008 11:16 pm

I'm so sad.

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Post by KLove24 » Sun Sep 21, 2008 1:41 am

I wish i hadnt got married

I wish I didnt think about him all the time.

I wish people would answer my stupid texts
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Post by Beasty » Sun Sep 21, 2008 4:50 pm

I cannot fully appreciate such a wonderful guy because part of me will always love and want his brother. I DO appreciate him, don't get me wrong. I just don't think that I do as much as he deserves. Even if I told him, I bet he would keep me anyway. More proof that I do not deserve him.
Why do I have this tendency of getting an amazing guy that I for some reason cannot give as much as they deserve? First it was this guy, so sweet, courteous, giving, and I couldn't see him as more than a friend. Now it is him, whom I can't give everything to.

This blows.
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Post by DecemberLivy » Sun Sep 21, 2008 10:29 pm

I am so utterly scared of being rejected over my new 'lifestyle', it's still a secret
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