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Post by DecemberLivy » Wed Sep 03, 2008 12:32 am

I'm scared of having sex again.
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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Sep 03, 2008 7:06 am

right now...i don't like my job. and i am not good at it.
but i don't feel smart enough to ever do anything much. i am so tired i'll be inadequate at anything i do.

i need to pull myself out of this.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
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Post by DecemberLivy » Thu Sep 04, 2008 12:06 am

I'm lonely. I am. I know everyone thinks I'm made of steel but I'm not. I need someone to tell me I'm beautiful.
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Post by Callisto » Thu Sep 04, 2008 12:34 am

I don't know what to think/feel now. :-?
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Fri Sep 05, 2008 5:14 am

I really think I have a crush..

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Post by Callisto » Fri Sep 05, 2008 5:29 pm

part of me is tempted to tell you that we can fuck without strings so long as you pay for my train fare. that's how worthless i feel (especially to you) right now.
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Post by acdcrocker1909 » Sat Sep 06, 2008 2:44 am

Part of me just.. wants to kiss you.

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It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live - APWBD.


Music is life.. we each have our own symphony.. and we control it for the most part.. sometimes instruments drop out.. and others join in.. but when the music fades and the symphony is done.. then we have created a beautiful, personal piece. - Me.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Sat Sep 06, 2008 6:46 pm

my brother beats up his girlfriend and theres nothing I can do to stop it.
<center>my walpole cafe

"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
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Post by Beasty » Mon Sep 08, 2008 5:17 am

I think all my secrets are pathetic.
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Post by Manatee » Wed Sep 10, 2008 1:07 am

I think that if my body was scar-free, my boy would not have left me.
i want to be like water. i want to slip through fingers, but hold up a ship.
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Post by DecemberLivy » Fri Sep 12, 2008 6:52 am

I'm afraid
<center>my walpole cafe

"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
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Post by caged bird » Fri Sep 12, 2008 9:39 pm

i'm scared
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Post by Callisto » Fri Sep 12, 2008 10:09 pm

you still mean a lot to me, and the things you do/say still make a difference to me. and i hate admitting that.
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Post by volta » Sat Sep 13, 2008 12:55 am

to my mom and stepdad:
you're the only ones who don't know. i'm cutting again. and . . .
i'm bulimic. i have been for over a year now. and i wish i could tell you so you could help me.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Sep 13, 2008 2:07 am

Even now


EVEN 3 MONTHS after Jonny's suicide


I still think I can save him.


it's pathetic isnt it????




.fuck me.
*Challenges welcome*
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I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

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Post by sadgirl2 » Sun Sep 14, 2008 12:29 am

I wish I could tell my dad I SI and he would still love me.
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Post by idork » Sun Sep 14, 2008 2:11 am

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To let another person in... this is why I do not want to call for help, why I do not make an appointment to see a t, why I'm doing this on my own.
Everyone has a story.
This is mine in all of it's awkward-messy-geeky-bias-spastic-blunt-spontaneous-mad-authentic-aesthetics.
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Post by red umbrellas » Sun Sep 14, 2008 1:37 pm

it seems like an option...a way of controlling something when i can't control *anything* when it seems everything is slipping away
but i'm too weak to even do that.

i feel so unnecessary
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

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Post by treasure » Sun Sep 14, 2008 2:47 pm

i want to be alone. i sometimes wish people were dead - strangers. friends, family - just so that i could be alone. people looking at me makes my skin crawl.
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Post by kristinnie » Mon Sep 15, 2008 8:49 pm

I want my husband to take the promotion that will allow me to stay home with the kids permanently. I don't think I can handle working anymore. I have panic attacks whenever I send out my resume and get a call back.
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