Just One Victory - Coping With Substance Abuse Problems

[nomad2207]

hey priceless, good for you on the 3 years....

i've discovered that i am an alcoholic as well...that is a discovery i don't want to make or admit...i like drinking...

i'm an intensive outpatient program at my hospital...it's a full day of intense therapy...GROUP yuck......i hate speaking in front of people...
but on weds. we only had 3 in group...it was a lot easier to speak...i shared some things i can't believe i did... i'm really glad i did.
my friends were so supportive , no judging, just acceptance...i told my
therapist on thursday, thank you for sending me. i've learned so much about myself...i still want to drink, but i don't want to disappoint my friends in group but mostly myself. i can do this one day at a time....right now it is one hour at a time...distraction is a wonderful thing!! so next week i go for only 3 days. i will be sober 1 week on sunday night.
i will be alone this weekend and it would be sooo easy...but i'm going to
some meetings and keep myself busy....wish me luck...nomad

[Cornelius]

upon coming to this thread, I thought that I might be on my way to substance abuse.... but really wasnt sure, but by what im reading, I think I might actually have a problem, at the very least I can 100% relate. I too jump around from SI, drinking bymyself when I dont have pot, and when I do have pot... smoking till everything goes away. I fear that it will get worse in the future, when I didnt have anything to get high off of I resorted to allergy meds to get high.
I have a family history of alcoholism, my worst fear is becoming my mom... but sometimes I feel like I have no choice. I have started to seek help for the emotional problems, but its so hard.
Stay strong everyone, and thank you for listening.

[steady hands]

I've stopped stealing booze.
I haven't had a drink in two weeks.

si and ed are back, but at least my liver's getting a break.
I'm honestly surprised it hasn't fallen out yet.

gretchen.

[Spidey]

I've cut down - hugely - on my drinking.

There's too much to do that can't be enjoyed drunk. And...I want to have a clear head.

[sindy]

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[Spidey]

It makes sense, sindy.

Welcome

[sindy]

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[Spidey]

i just dont no if i have anything wrong with me. i have been starting to think that the amount i drink and the amount of drugs i do arent normal. but i do them to make me feel better. i think its like a way out of cutting.

If you think that they aren't normal...then most likely, the amount isn't.

A lot of people turn to substance abuse to get out of SI. I think it comes with the territory, although it doesn't make it right.

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My Just One Victory (wasurenai yo...) - I did not drink yesterday. And today I put it off for a very very long time.

[sindy]

sorry i deleted my earlier posts..
i was drunk and upset when i wrote them.
i am trying to cut down on my drinking.. and have only had a little bit of wine since friday, which is good for me as i havent been having a very good week.
i am attempting to completely stop drugs as well..
trying to be better.

[sindy]

argh im drunk..
and so annoyed with myself.

[Spidey]

Keep trying. Start over tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day.

[Angel12]

I have been coping with alcoho mostly and drug abuse for a long time now. I know it is wrong that I am drinking everyday, but now I try to stay sober until the night time. I think that it a improvement considering I used to be drunk by midday.
Also I've managed to stay alcohol free at least once a week, but tis very hard, *sighs*,

[Priceless]

angel12: staying alcohol free once a week is a awsome start, you can do it!

[Angel12]

Thank you

[Luscious Peanut]

If you could say the earliest time you KNEW something was wrong, you saw the first 'red flag' of a problem with drinking, what would you say it was? When you did what? Or drank what? Or whatever?

[Luscious Peanut]

I find myself drinking, JUST so that I have an excuse to SI uncontrollably. I could just say, "Eh. I was drunk."

[myfriendscallmeerika]

nice to find this thread...ive been looking for something like it. to share our stories and our victories? something like that?
ive been drinking and using since i was 9. my silly daddy used to give me hydros when i would tell him i had a headache. i started realizing that they not only got rid of my headache but that they made me feel good. i figured if one made me feel good.....so i started hording them. and taking three or four at a time. when dad started catching on i stole them...lol. at 9 <shrug>

i found my doc at 14 (meth) i did everything else but always came back to meth. started shooting at 17, riding around with meth labs in my trunk and fucking for my next high. i say it flippantly but my shame knows no bounds. i should have known then that i had a problem but i did not. tried a geographical at 18 (moved from arkansas to colorado) but ya know... wherever you go...there you are:) went to my first na meeting at 19 and found out that there was a name for someone like me... an addict.

i really enjoyed na but never got as much out of it as some ppl do. cuz i cant freakin talk. cant "share" i had to pop a benzo to ward off a panic attack before i went in (to the meeting) and during the meeting when i would try to share or even think about sharing my personal feelings with a room ful of ppl my heart would beat so fast and i would get so scared i thought i would faint!

drug use continued.... met my hubby at 20. used together for a year before he gave me the ultimatum... i went to rehab and got clean for a month or so...

drug use continues... got married. finished community college. drug use continues. frequency and intensity fluctuating but never ever stopping.

got preggers with my wonderful son, peyton, my angel:) not a drop of meth the whole 9 mnts preggers. wanted to breastfeed. not a drop of meth the whole 8mnts i breastfeed. why oh why did i start back?

drug use has gotten more and more frequent. amounts larger and larger. time spent on the endeavor longer and longer. begin to do things i swore i would never do. sell. use in front of son:( i always thought that if i hadnt been so young....if only i had known... i wouldve never started doing dope (meth) but now that dont fly. i do know... and i still do it. and it pisses me off to no end. grrrrr

my mom requested heart to heart she cried.... hubby threatens to leave and take kid i cried... went 4 days w/out it. used yesterday:(

my victory? i havent used today

luv
erika

[Angel12]

Hi , I just wanna say that I was moved by your story, can kinda relate.

[myfriendscallmeerika]

tell me yours? (story i mean) you can pm me if you want. or not if you dont:) to update i've been clean since sat and ive turned it down several times since then and i cut ties with my connection and i made appt for drug counseling *crosses fingers* but the damn drug counseling isnt until the middle of jan wtf im supposed to do until jan is anyones guess. lol. when the lady booking the appt asked if it was voluntary or court ordered i told her it was voluntary but that if she made me wait until jan it may be court ordered by then! lol. i thought it was funny, she did not. hehe

luv
erika

[Spidey]

myfriendscallmeerika: What positive steps can you take to further your sobriety until January?