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Post by Callisto » Sun Jul 20, 2008 4:33 pm

i don't want you to have to leave....but i feel like its selfish for me to tell you that.

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Post by caged bird » Sun Jul 20, 2008 6:48 pm

sometimes i wish it was still an option, some days i'm mad and resentful that it's not
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sun Jul 20, 2008 8:23 pm

I hate my family which is sad.
If I felt no guilt ever I would run away and burn this house down.
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Post by Spidey » Mon Jul 21, 2008 12:19 am

I geniunely thought that I would be dead by now.

But I am alive.

And that is, all things considered, pretty damn good.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by xCheerUpFailurex » Thu Jul 24, 2008 3:46 am

I am scared of the day when my parents will decide to disown me. :oops:
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Post by prettyvacant » Sun Jul 27, 2008 3:15 pm

I get mortally embarassed about being sunburnt. Even though I wore factor 30 I'm still burnt and feel like a tool :oops:
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Post by Callisto » Sun Jul 27, 2008 4:35 pm

i'm more ok than i thought i would be......and i find that stranger than if i'd fallen apart.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Jul 28, 2008 12:42 am

okay so I ran away to Niagara Falls and even there my hapiness was tainted. As happy as I could be I looked around and saw all couples sharing it & I thought about how Jonny is gone.

And everyone was like take a picture of me & my boyfriend/husband. Meanwhile all my pictures are just me.

How could this happen? :cry:
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Post by Callisto » Mon Jul 28, 2008 1:13 pm

the only thing holding me together today is an aroma therapy bracelet

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Post by Geordie » Mon Jul 28, 2008 2:16 pm

I really do love you. I'm sorry I find it so hard to touch you, or let you touch me, but I hate it. Please stop.
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Post by icecap » Tue Jul 29, 2008 1:53 am

Since I remembered all of that stuff year to a year and a half, I can't watch movies, listen to music or watch hardly any TV, it's too triggering for some reason and I hate it and wonder when I can go back to normal?
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Post by icecap » Sun Aug 03, 2008 2:26 pm

I got a weird email yesterday and I don't know what to think of it. It was from an old best friend who cut of our friendship about a year and a half ago and really hurt me, sent me really mean emails and would have nothing to do with me over lies about me, she would not listen to the truth, just believed the lies.

Now I get this weird email saying she's ashamed for what she did, she enjoyed our friendship etc... but not sorry and not that she wants to be friends again. I can't figure out why she sent it? Just to soothe her guilty concience? It just brings it all back again and makes me feel bad, esp. when she doesn't apologise for what she did, she just says she feels ashamed and is going to work on it...

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Post by InsrSanityHere » Sun Aug 03, 2008 8:41 pm

I did everything for the first time in one night.

And I can't remember most of it.
In the deepest, darkest hour of the night, admit to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And ask yourself, the answer, where your heart spreads it roots to the deepest part, Must I write?
If there were no rewards to reap
I certainly would have walked away by now...
...and I still may.

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Post by icecap » Fri Aug 08, 2008 4:10 pm

I'm so afraid to go tonight, but if I don't go, I have the option, I would probably feel worse with guilt. It's a no win situation, I gonna feel bad no matter what I decide! :argggh:
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Post by Holi » Sat Aug 09, 2008 2:19 pm

I feel like that everything I do, I do with the purpose of trying to hurt myself, self-destruction, pull it all down.
I also feel that I brought this all upon myself, with the sole purpose of punishment, and harm. None of this is really hurting, all of it self-induced, self-inflicted.

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Post by Beasty » Wed Aug 13, 2008 6:07 am

I hold information in my head that can tear his entire world apart in such a way that he can never EVER be the same again. I can ruin his life in one paragraph. It's a terrible power that I am ashamed to know.
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Post by Geordie » Wed Aug 13, 2008 1:34 pm

I resent you to the fifth circle of hell. You have EVERYTHING I want, and even though I love you, I hate you for it.
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Post by Cuppy » Thu Aug 14, 2008 7:19 pm

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I feel guilty when ya care about me, because I'm not gonna make it
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Post by sindy » Mon Aug 18, 2008 2:40 pm

the only reason im holding on so tightly,
is because if i let you go,
i will have nothing.
If you say nothing left to lose,
Then you have not lost your voice.
And if you've got the guts to choose,
I will still give you the choice.

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Post by caged bird » Thu Aug 21, 2008 3:46 pm

i cancelled the appointment, i need to do this on my own
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly

The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs

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