who are you right now? *lang trigs*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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SisterMidnight
meeting the neighbors
meeting the neighbors
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Post by SisterMidnight » Mon Jul 14, 2008 4:10 pm

i am...
scarred
a mom
struggling
moving forward
a survivor

i am not...
weak

i feel...
alone
isolated
scared
hurt
hopeful

i want...
peace
inner acceptance
to stop judging myself
to move forward
to not stop myself from reaching my goals
to feel worthwhile

i need...
to believe in myself

i have...
love

i love...
my family
music
my guitar

i hate...
violence
judgement
intolerance

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KLove24
just plain inspiring
just plain inspiring
Posts: 7363
Joined: Thu Jul 03, 2008 3:49 am
Location: somewhere, yet nowhere

Post by KLove24 » Mon Jul 14, 2008 4:16 pm

i am...
lazy
unhappy
procrastinating on going grocery shopping
wishing i had better friends

i am not...
happy
alive
really trying to care about her stupid drama

i feel...
used
unhappy
pissed off
did i mention USED

i want...
to not care
to be able to tell people what i think
to be happy

i need...
better friends
more money

i have...
an awesome son who makes it possible for me to go on

i love...
my son
music
my cell phone

i hate...
listening to people create drama that doesn't need to be there
having to pretend i care
not having money
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simplyme311
meeting the neighbors
meeting the neighbors
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Post by simplyme311 » Tue Jul 15, 2008 9:26 pm

i am...

tired
depressed
pessimistic

i am not...

assertive
pretty
funny
optimistic

i feel...

sad
angry

i want...

to be happy and positive.

i need...

friends who won't leave me.
Someone who honestly cares about me.

i have...

only myself

i love...

my two cats
my sister

i hate...

my mother
myself
people in general
being sad

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neverENOUGH2010
unpacking boxes
unpacking boxes
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Post by neverENOUGH2010 » Wed Jul 30, 2008 6:26 pm

i am...
-strong
-understanding
-caring
-brave
-able to do this....

i am not...
-a slut
-whore
-skank
-worthless
-crazy
-doing this to get attention...

i feel...
-fragile
-broken
-consumed...

i want...
-to be loved
-to fight this
-my friends to fight this
-everything to be ok...

i need...
-time
-support
-love
-my friends...

i have...
-strength
-friends
-faith....

i love...
-courtney
-chelsey
-becky
-myself....

i hate...
-zach
-alan
-evan
-any boy who has hurt me
-sarah kirby
-being told who i am by other people...
+MySacrifice+

Its the little moments in life that make you realize how worth while it is to conitinue on even in the worst of pain.......


"obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is truly worth fighting for"

I do not need to SI. I am stronger than my depression. I will not let it get the best of me or my life. My cutting does not define who i am.


36 hours SI free....

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alkatraz
unpacking boxes
unpacking boxes
Posts: 59
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Gender: female
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Post by alkatraz » Wed Jul 30, 2008 7:26 pm

i am...
-brutally honest. If you want the truth, come see me.
-a self injurer.
-smart.
-a cynical realist.
-a writer.


i am not...
-stupid.
-ignorant.
-a great typist.


i feel...
-lonely.
-unwanted.
-under appreciated

i want...
-to be loved by some one other then my parents.
-joy without regret.
-to feel truly wanted and needed.


i need...
-to be loved completely, as I am, how I am.
-to finish my current novel.
-some more coffee.


i have...
-hopes and dreams.
-the ability to act my way out of anything.
-too many scars and burns.


i love...
-books.
-to write.
-long walks alone.
-long walks with a friend.
-how wheat moves in the wind, like an ocean.


i hate...
-the person I've become.
-the way I shove people away from me.
-the fact that I can't trust.
-that I can't help my mother as much as a good daughter should.

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icecap
town councillor
town councillor
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Location: Tim Horton's

Post by icecap » Thu Jul 31, 2008 8:51 pm

i am...

-not who I was before, and I hate who I am now, and don't know what to do

i am not...

-the same person

i feel...

-ripped off

i want...

-the life I wanted

i need...

-more people to care

i have...

-alot of problems right now that need solving and that's really hard

i love...

-My Mom

i hate...

-What's happened to my life
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underlife
creating your space
creating your space
Posts: 204
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Location: UK

Post by underlife » Tue Aug 05, 2008 3:25 am

i am...
confused
caring

i am not...
ashamed
particularly good looking

i feel...
low
numb

i want...
these feelings to go away
to be remotely normal

i need...
chocolate
a hug
a cup of tea
love

i have...
32p
faith

i love...
everyone but me
chocolate (too much :()

i hate...
my past
my present
Jenny x

My Place: here

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VowsOfSadness
sock rocker
sock rocker
Posts: 3975
Joined: Sat Dec 04, 2004 1:33 am
Gender: Female
Location: Pittsburgh, PA AGE:20
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Tue Aug 05, 2008 6:06 am

i am...
Amanda
often fearful
teary
depressed
entertaining (so I'm told)
secret-keeper

i am not...
shy
solely an alcoholic or my illness
weak... well in the long run
fake
worthless

i feel...
tired
slightly depressed

i want...
to go to sleep
to not be fighting off these memories

i need...
people to talk to
my friends
new & more friends

i have...
a lot if I would think about it :(

i love...
Jonny </3

i hate...
death
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!

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onlypurples
bus addict
bus addict
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Location: Texas
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Post by onlypurples » Thu Aug 07, 2008 2:37 am

i am...
- wishing I didn't remember that today was 6yrs after my great-grandpa died
- waiting for the dryer to finish, so that I'll have clean clothes to wear tonight for work

i am not...
- invisible, despite how I feel
- sure if I'll get the afghan done for Habitat for Humanity done by Monday morning so I can drop it off at my orthodontist's appointment
- deserving of the lack of support I receive at my job

i feel...
- apprehensive about going into work tonight, after having a mini-melt down last night
- nauseated, crampy, and upset at my stomach
- fat!
- stressed out about EVERYTHING going on in my life

i want...
- to go out to lunch with Lindy on Monday :)
- my stomach ache to go away
- the scars to disappear

i need...
- a hug
- a shoulder to cry on
- someone to listen to me and not judge or freak out by what I NEED to say aloud
- to work on the afghan for my supervisor tonight because it has to be finished by Monday morning
- to pay my rent tomorrow, as it will be 4 days late :o

i have...
- 1.5hrs to get ready for work
- to make sure I switch the clothes from the washer to the dryer before I leave for work tonight or I won't have clothes to wear tomorrow afternoon to work
- a stomach ache, still...
- a wonderful supervisor at work who genuinely cares about me :star:
- someone praying for me

i love...
- to crochet
- to be hugged!
- to write in my blog

i hate...
- stupid internet IP relay calls!!!
I'm always a shade of purple...

"Forgive me for shedding blood, O God who saves; then I will joyfully sing of your forgiveness" - Psalm 51:14 (TLB)

"The dream begins with a teacher who believes in you, who tugs and pushes and leads you to the next plateau, sometimes poking you with a sharp stick called 'truth'." ~Dan Rather

http://www.mercyministries.org/

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*Ally*
sprouting branches
sprouting branches
Posts: 1236
Joined: Wed Jan 30, 2008 6:33 am

Post by *Ally* » Sat Aug 09, 2008 10:48 pm

i am...
Alyssa
forgotten
depressed
shy

i am not...
using my full potential.
happy

i feel...
tired
lost
alone

i want...
to be thin.
to feel alive.

i need...
to get over my anxiety.

i have...
something to look forward to.

i love...
Jason.
cozy winter days curled up inside watching tv.
quotes.
music.

i hate...
death.
anxiety.
being fat.

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sleepflower
unpacking boxes
unpacking boxes
Posts: 46
Joined: Mon Feb 07, 2005 9:58 pm
Location: Amsterdam, the Netherlands.

Post by sleepflower » Sun Aug 10, 2008 8:38 pm

i am...
- alone
- useless
- isolated.

i am not...
- needed
- happy
- "whole."

i feel...
- tired
- unwanted
- frustrated
- lonely.

i want...
- to be needed by someone
- to be a part of society
- to be happy with myself.

i need...
- someone to confide in
- to realise that this is reality and this is who i am

i have...
- a job
- a stable family

i love...
- my cat
- my family
- reading

i hate...
- my own insecurities
- my job, at times
"Our greatest pretenses are built up not to hide the evil and the ugly in us, but our emptiness. The hardest thing to hide is something that is not there." -Eric Hoffer.

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faegirl
building community
building community
Posts: 674
Joined: Tue Jul 15, 2008 3:09 pm
Location: New England. Age: 30ish

Post by faegirl » Sun Aug 10, 2008 9:42 pm

i am...
alone
afraid
fat
dizzy
hungry
apparently virtually entertaining
getting better at using PhotoShop

i am not...
sure i can do this
going to get to talk to anyone today
ever going to be a supermodel

i feel...
stupid
desperate
urgy
cold

i want...
to sleep for days
to cut
to not cut
to talk to CJ
to move out of this place
to have someone hold me right now

i need...
to feel loved

i have...
a dog
a old stinky spoiled cat
a headache

i love...
my dog
my old stinky spoiled cat
my iPod
my blanket
my flip flops
CJ & JC, but don't tell them

i hate...
that i'm such a screw up
that i feel like i'll always be one
"lonely doesn't even begin to cover it."

faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places

i :heart: the disco cow :disco:

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the edge of the world
knows the ropes
knows the ropes
Posts: 4717
Joined: Mon Jun 12, 2006 7:04 am
Gender: female
Location: the edge of the world, duh!...

Post by the edge of the world » Sat Aug 23, 2008 8:38 pm

i am...
-alive
-a student
-human

i am not...
-dead
-subhuman

i feel...
-unwanted
-lame
-upset
-angry
-negative
-destructive

i want...
-to be nice
-to be wanted
-to be more successful

i need...
-friendship
-time
-water
-food
-sleep

i have...
-friendship
-time
-water
-food
-sleep

i love...
-my family (plus pets)
-many friends
-the world
-beauty
-contrast
-light

i hate...
-the shadow of myself that clings to my back
-whatever makes existence hurt
-bringing up the past that I didn't like
-being such a negative person

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ambivalent red
growing roots
growing roots
Posts: 768
Joined: Wed Aug 20, 2008 7:58 pm
Location: buried deep inside of me

Post by ambivalent red » Mon Aug 25, 2008 1:47 am

i am...
a wife
alone
scared
scarred
sad
mad
far away from my family
crying

i am not...
home
cutting tonight


i feel...
sad
jealous
guilty

i want...
my SI tool
to go to bed with my husband with no new scars

i need...
a hug
a shoulder
my mom
my sister
a fellow SI friend to help me

i have...
my husband
my dogs
my scrapbooking
crappy apartment
clutter
noise in my head
visions in my head
tears in my eyes - how do i explain it this time?

i love...
my husband
my dogs
scrapbooking

i hate...
the scars on the girl today
that I cant make those scars on me
I'm so far away
my husband giving me room to BUS but I need him here!

Ambivalent is the perfect word.

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pelagic
sock rocker
sock rocker
Posts: 3615
Joined: Mon Jul 09, 2007 8:16 am
Gender: Female
Location: International Waters

Post by pelagic » Tue Aug 26, 2008 11:02 pm

i am... Pelagic.

i am not... my anger.

i feel... anxiety

i want... something to do

i need... a warm hug, or some social event

i have... things to do. unmotivation

i love... my pets. my family. my friends

i hate... myself..or my emotions as of now

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xix
settling in
settling in
Posts: 113
Joined: Fri Jul 25, 2008 7:30 pm
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Post by xix » Tue Aug 26, 2008 11:35 pm

i am... this

i am not... that

i feel... the feelings of this

i want... the feelings of that

i need... the strength of that

i have... the strength of this

i love... what that hates

i hate... that that is an illusion
Or am I alone... in this hall of dreams?

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building community
Posts: 681
Joined: Sun Jun 27, 2004 9:19 pm
Location: Lancaster

Post by Arcadia » Wed Sep 03, 2008 8:51 pm

i am... scattered

i am not... worthless

i feel... broken

i want... attention

i need...to be held. Peace.

i have...red nails

i love... sunshine

i hate... loneliness
"Does it really come as a surprise
When i tell you i don't feel good?"
- Garbage

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Beasty
troll sniper
troll sniper
Posts: 14934
Joined: Thu Mar 24, 2005 2:10 am
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Post by Beasty » Mon Sep 08, 2008 5:26 am

i am...
alive
about to start a new adventure
loved by people
intelligent enough

i am not...
alone
happy
homely
dead

i feel...
sad

i want...
him
love
a hug
knowledge

i need...
a hug

i have...
a friend

i love...
her

i hate...
life's asshole moves
"No boom today. Boom tomorrow. There’s always a boom tomorrow. What? Look, somebody’s got to have some damn perspective around here. Boom, sooner or later. BOOM!" - Susan Ivanova

Eisa = Beasty's Twin

Beasty's Place!

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esther_mouse
growing roots
growing roots
Posts: 786
Joined: Tue Jul 08, 2008 3:13 am
Gender: Female

Post by esther_mouse » Mon Sep 08, 2008 9:22 pm

i am...
Going to get professional help eventually.
Tired.
A bit desperate.

i am not...
Beneath the doctor's concern.
Tall.
Happy.

i feel...
Tearful.
Alone.
Urgey.
Anxious.
Unsure.

i want...
My bed.
To SI.
For it to be easier to get help.

i need...
Some compassion.
Someone who knows what to do.
A hug.

i have...
A cool pyrography kit from my boyfriend.
A cute toy mouse.
Sharp implements which I shouldn't have bought.
Dressings in case the sharp implements do things they shouldn't.
My computer.
Lots and lots of random stuff...a metal frog playing guitar...chewing gum...

i love...
My boyfriend.
Going to nice cafés.
Sleeping.
My car.

i hate...
Not knowing what to do.

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Glockenspiel
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forum moderator emeritus
Posts: 28941
Joined: Wed Oct 03, 2007 5:13 pm

Post by Glockenspiel » Tue Sep 09, 2008 9:12 pm

i am...

Rob

i am not...

Lonely

i feel...

Empty. Bored.

i want...

A fulfilling job that pays enough. :D

i need...

To go home

i have...

Too much to do

i love...

My nieces and nephew
i hate...
I always enjoy myself, even when I'm crying -- Jen Johnson

My place

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