Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- southsider
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Oh, you'd better believe I'm interested in what you have to say. I'm just too scared to tell you I'd like to hear. I'm afraid you'll reject me, or even worse, that you won't reject me but wish you had.
☼ there is hope ☼
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"If you really want to stay clean, you will find a way. If not, you will find an excuse."
If you do not shut up then I may scream. You're really pissing me off with you excessively loud breathing and your groaning. And what the hell do you think you're doing falling asleep at work?!
and tomorrow will come
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
When today is done...
"To me, photographyis an art of observation. It's all about finding something interesting in an ordinary place... I've found it has little to do with the things you see, and everything to do with the way you see them."
- Elliott Erwitt
- faegirl
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I want you to LEAVE ME ALONE. I want space, I need space, I'm entitled to space.
I told you when I first met you that I'm like this - that I'm a bad friend and I will disappear for extended periods of time without warning or reason and that you need to know that it's nothing you did or said, it's just how I am. I get burnt out on people, and if I'm avoiding you, chances are, I'm avoiding everyone and it's nothing personal.
I thought you understood. You said it was ok. But you keep calling and texting and emailing and showing up at my house. The harder you try to push your way back into my life, the harder I will try to keep you out - I'm stubborn like that, and if I have to, I can be mean - but I don't want to have to.
If you couldn't handle it, why did you agree to it in the beginning? I'm sorry if you don't have anyone else you feel like you can talk to, but that can't be my concern right now. Right now, I need to take care of me, and to do that, I need you to leave me be.
I told you when I first met you that I'm like this - that I'm a bad friend and I will disappear for extended periods of time without warning or reason and that you need to know that it's nothing you did or said, it's just how I am. I get burnt out on people, and if I'm avoiding you, chances are, I'm avoiding everyone and it's nothing personal.
I thought you understood. You said it was ok. But you keep calling and texting and emailing and showing up at my house. The harder you try to push your way back into my life, the harder I will try to keep you out - I'm stubborn like that, and if I have to, I can be mean - but I don't want to have to.
If you couldn't handle it, why did you agree to it in the beginning? I'm sorry if you don't have anyone else you feel like you can talk to, but that can't be my concern right now. Right now, I need to take care of me, and to do that, I need you to leave me be.
"lonely doesn't even begin to cover it."
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
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What do you mean by you might have gotten my diagnosis wrong?!
Searching my way to perplexion
The Challenge
"Why are you so negative?"
"Because I'm unhappy."
"And whose fault is that?"
"Right now?"
The Challenge
"Why are you so negative?"
"Because I'm unhappy."
"And whose fault is that?"
"Right now?"
- DecemberLivy
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not talking to you yesterday killed me. if i dont see you soon i dont know what i'll do. i feel like someones taken away my lifejacket.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
This is making me not feel love. Its making my heart hurt with anger and pain. I do still love you, but I don't feel love right now. I only know I love you because I care that I don't feel love, because I still do care about you-if you're ok and about your wellbeing, I still think of you like I did before.
But this is a huge problem. Its really hurting me. We'll talk about it later I guess.
But this is a huge problem. Its really hurting me. We'll talk about it later I guess.
smr89
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
- caged bird
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i'm mad and i know it's unjustified, i'm glad you're out with new friends, just, i really wanted to go out wuth you tonight and have a break from routine (and i was hoping he'd be there, i'm so fucking pathetic)
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
- zombiepeople
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- 5th section
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stop messing me around. Make up your fecking mind and stick to it!
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
- my place
- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
GOING STRAIGHT SINCE 1ST DECEMBER 2009
yes i've just manipulated you. yes it wasn't nice. yes it makes me a bitch. but yknow what, you drove me to it. i did it because i couldn't see another way, because i've tried every other way that i can think of.
and no forgetting to call me because you're tired isn't a good enough excuse this time.
and no forgetting to call me because you're tired isn't a good enough excuse this time.
- faegirl
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i miss you. i haven't seen or spoken to you in four years, but suddenly I'm aware again of the fact that you're gone... and i don't know why. you broke my heart, and if you showed up on my doorstep, i'd tell you to go to hell... but i miss you... and i hate you for it...
"lonely doesn't even begin to cover it."
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
faegirl is notoriously bad at keeping up with places
i the disco cow
- DecemberLivy
- just plain inspiring
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you're really special. you have no idea the butterflies i get when you compliment me.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
Please. Time is running out.
Eisa = Beasty's Twin
Beasty's Place!
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to my teacher... you are an old hag and it wasnt fair how you lied and said we were all special when you knoew damn well i wasnt. you made that clear. and i will no longer let what you did get to me. you a selfish old bitch.
to sarah... what you did was wrong. you are sick and it has taken me 8 years to admit what you did and accpet it for what it is. you will no longer have power over me.
to alan... you crushed my heart. you promised me so many things and then took it all away. you say it was so i would get better. but you have done nothing to prove that. you go on with your life like nothing ever happened. and it hurts. its unfair i was the only one hurt in this situation. why dont you feel as i do? why didnt you care we ended? i still love you alan... and i always will....
to evan... you are an asshole. you PROMISED you wouldnt be like him. and you were. you stopped calling. and i still dont understand why....
zach... im worth more than your girlfriend so you say.. .SO WHY DONT YOU LEAVE HER?!?!?! im not going to sit around and wait for you to finally realize what your doing.. i can do better than this.
to sarah... what you did was wrong. you are sick and it has taken me 8 years to admit what you did and accpet it for what it is. you will no longer have power over me.
to alan... you crushed my heart. you promised me so many things and then took it all away. you say it was so i would get better. but you have done nothing to prove that. you go on with your life like nothing ever happened. and it hurts. its unfair i was the only one hurt in this situation. why dont you feel as i do? why didnt you care we ended? i still love you alan... and i always will....
to evan... you are an asshole. you PROMISED you wouldnt be like him. and you were. you stopped calling. and i still dont understand why....
zach... im worth more than your girlfriend so you say.. .SO WHY DONT YOU LEAVE HER?!?!?! im not going to sit around and wait for you to finally realize what your doing.. i can do better than this.
+MySacrifice+
Its the little moments in life that make you realize how worth while it is to conitinue on even in the worst of pain.......
"obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is truly worth fighting for"
I do not need to SI. I am stronger than my depression. I will not let it get the best of me or my life. My cutting does not define who i am.
36 hours SI free....
Its the little moments in life that make you realize how worth while it is to conitinue on even in the worst of pain.......
"obstacles are put in our way to see if what we want is truly worth fighting for"
I do not need to SI. I am stronger than my depression. I will not let it get the best of me or my life. My cutting does not define who i am.
36 hours SI free....
i dont understand how you can not see what you did wrong. i know that we are very different people and that you like to talk things over with people, while i prefer privacy. but you knew me, and i don't understand how, knowing me, you justified telling that many people about our (ok, my) problem. you did nto just share with a few close freinds. you told anyone who was there to listen! you told almost every friend i have about how i was a failure as a woman and as your girlfriend, even if you couldn't see it that way. and even though those friends still love me, you humiliated me. everyone was talking about me. i don't like that! you know that.
and you know what else, which i only just realised? no-one even tried to talk to me about it.
and you know what else, which i only just realised? no-one even tried to talk to me about it.
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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<b>FISHY! WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING?!</b>
~"What could I say to you that would be of value, except that perhaps you seek too much, that as a result of your seeking you cannot find."~
Another Lonely Day
~~Laura~~
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- DecemberLivy
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You've changed, I don't know how but you have. Now whenever I see you I just feel this deep loathing. You're egocentric and rude and I have no idea what attracted me to you to begin with. Looking back, you've always been like this, I just couldn't see it.
<center>my walpole cafe
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
</center>
I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
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