last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by InsrSanityHere » Sat Jul 12, 2008 4:50 pm

because I knew the reason I wanted to wasn't worth the shame, paranoia and emotional pain that would follow.
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Post by Spidey » Sat Jul 12, 2008 5:04 pm

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Post by Kaelyn » Sat Jul 12, 2008 6:12 pm

because I realised that I actually wanted to take care of myself (the wounds after SI) so I skipped the SI and went straight to taking care of myself by rubbing cream on my old scars.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sat Jul 12, 2008 6:43 pm

honestly???

Because I was tired lol. And I thought "That will be a whole production that could take at least an hour or more, that's cutting into my sleep time!"

And I fell asleep.

And I must admit the sleep was wayyyyyyy better than si would have been.
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Post by Cuppy » Sat Jul 12, 2008 6:57 pm

because it hurts my husband and son so much, I can't stand it..
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Post by Rorah » Sun Jul 13, 2008 5:36 am

Because I didn't want to disappoint myself or the person I love and I don't want to be that person..

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Post by onlypurples » Sun Jul 13, 2008 9:25 pm

I just bought a swimsuit the same day and didn't want to not be able to wear it!! Ha :oops: I just hope having the swimsuit around will help me not hurt myself for a while...
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Post by wabbit » Mon Jul 14, 2008 4:06 am

because im scared of how far i might go and i know that deep down i dont want to
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Post by tears1315 » Mon Jul 14, 2008 9:11 pm

last time I wanted to SI, I didnt because I thought about the fact that I'm working on myself and my relationship with my girlfriend. I countered the action by popping a rubberband on my wrist

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Post by esther_mouse » Wed Jul 23, 2008 3:45 pm

I asked my boyfriend to hide my knife, and I couldn't really do anything because I was in the same room as him :)

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Post by Inthebox » Sun Aug 03, 2008 5:52 am

Because I would just be thinking about the cuts and when I can make more instead of doing other things that I want to do - like clean up the house, art, maybe write about the pain (these things make me feel better in a real way instead of an everything sucks way).

When I start it just progresses and takes weeks to stop and I don't feel like going through that whole stupid process.

I fought all day with strong urges and I kept putting it off and It's kind of nice going to sleep tonight without cuts.
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Post by icecap » Sun Aug 03, 2008 2:28 pm

I'm trying to stop, so I keep trying to ignore the urges and do something to distract myself
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Post by underlife » Sun Aug 03, 2008 3:38 pm

Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't because I went out for a drive to distract myself
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Post by icecap » Sun Aug 03, 2008 9:26 pm

I want to now, but I keep telling myself NO!
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Post by DecemberLivy » Tue Aug 05, 2008 1:27 am

because I know that the blood donor place needs blood, especially young blood, and I won't have the confidence to donate again if I'm covered in scars.
I thought, there's alot more important things than me in this. a car crash victim that needs a transfusion comes before any pitiful self indulgent thoughts I'm having right now.
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Post by 5th section » Tue Aug 26, 2008 10:23 pm

red pens. again.
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Post by onlypurples » Wed Aug 27, 2008 12:26 am

I didn't want to risk bleeding through my white shirts at work the next day.
I'm always a shade of purple...

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Post by bright_red_scream » Mon Sep 01, 2008 3:18 pm

i don't want to disappoint him anymore..
Inside my skin there is this place, it twist and turns, it bleeds and aches. I'ìs such a secret place, the land of tears.

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Post by Rorah » Thu Sep 25, 2008 4:41 am

I want things to be better with him...and if i can deal with it better, I think it will help.

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Post by Morgoth » Thu Sep 25, 2008 9:56 pm

Because i need to stop and want it sooo very much!!
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