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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sun Jun 22, 2008 4:01 am

sometimes I say I'm going to ask, but I don't cause I KNOW my parents will say no. Then I just tell them my mom said no. Because it makes things easier at home if I dont even ask.

And sometimes I pass up amazing offers because I am scared. I'm scared of people and scared of amazing things.

like this trip to New York.
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Wed Jun 25, 2008 10:37 pm

im scared its coming back...
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Post by volta » Thu Jun 26, 2008 1:46 am

i'm so scared of my own power.

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Post by Callisto » Thu Jun 26, 2008 7:52 am

i'm scared that i can't compete with the others in your life. i'm scared you'll forget me

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Fri Jun 27, 2008 5:05 am

Im scared my dad's going to hurt me.
I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Fri Jun 27, 2008 5:18 am

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didnt want this here
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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Jun 27, 2008 10:30 am

Yep, I'm definitely confused. And I hate it and it makes me want to not exist anymore. I want to talk to someone about it, but I dont know if I can say it aloud...

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jun 28, 2008 6:25 pm

i'm scared that my anxieties and paranoias are actually based in reality and are preminitions more than they are nonesense, but i just can't see it yet

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Post by Beasty » Sun Jun 29, 2008 5:23 am

This secret sounds so stupid to say on this web board. I'm sorry.
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I want to cut
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Jun 30, 2008 12:49 am

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Post by robotxface » Mon Jun 30, 2008 10:49 pm

i'm afraid he'll leave me because of my stupid self. i'm scared i'll never get better.
"my gypsies talk in distant voices from where my happiness has clouded over. his face stares me down as i splash his memory from my tears. the scars ache and itch, and the new ones are new members of the family. i've caved into my nightmares, but i can't help it. i am recovering. i still lose it, and break free of this chamber i've made to myself; but i am unbreakable."

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Wed Jul 02, 2008 5:35 am

if i think about that day and that moment

it's like I open up a box and it's all just sitting there
it's like traveling back in time.

All of a sudden I am in that moment.

I am having to tell someone that someone is gone/


I get so scared.


god I can't even write this out now or I panic.
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Post by infectiousbrain89 » Thu Jul 03, 2008 11:29 pm

Sometimes I wish I'd never met you,but I know that's not what I really want,and I hate that.
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Fri Jul 04, 2008 4:27 am

I'm either delusional or I'm going to die within 3 months, within 119 days to be exact.

Either way I'm really fucking scared.
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I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sat Jul 05, 2008 8:39 pm

i keep dreaming that he's goin to die and me and kayleigh are going to be left on our own. im terrified it will happen
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Post by S » Sat Jul 05, 2008 10:37 pm

I don't want to talk to my ex. I don't want to see my ex. I'm addicted to keeping in contact with my ex. It just feels gross.

My relationship with food is growing unhealthy.[/i]
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Post by InsrSanityHere » Sun Jul 06, 2008 1:41 am

I feel like I didn't deserve a bite of the dinner I just ate.

I'm afraid to get out of bed now...
In the deepest, darkest hour of the night, admit to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And ask yourself, the answer, where your heart spreads it roots to the deepest part, Must I write?
If there were no rewards to reap
I certainly would have walked away by now...
...and I still may.

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Post by screamtobreathe » Sun Jul 06, 2008 11:05 pm

song lyrics, but exactly how i feel....:

and no i'm not afraid, at least not to die. i'm afraid to live and not remember why.
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Post by S » Mon Jul 07, 2008 4:42 am

I really don't want to be around people right now. I don't want a solution. I just want a nap.
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We tell everyone we know it hurts our eyes
When the real reason we don't like it
Is it makes us wonder if we're dying."
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Post by KLove24 » Mon Jul 07, 2008 4:49 am

I am terrified that I will fail.
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