Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
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i'm sorry i hurt you, it sounds cliched but it's not you, it's me. i have too many issues and problems to let you in, i just keep screwing things up one by one -
i wish i could just give in
i wish i could just give in
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
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I'm scared about leaving. I have no clue how the next 2 months will go...
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
Right now I hate my fiance. Maybe I dont actually hate him but I certainly don't feel any love. Will I ever again?
6/27/08 Actually I love my fiance, when I wrote this we were fighting. It was anger I was feeling, not hate. I didn't feel love because anger was taking up all the room. I am so honored to be marrying such a wonderful man. It makes me sad that I would say such a thing about him, even if it was said in anger.
6/27/08 Actually I love my fiance, when I wrote this we were fighting. It was anger I was feeling, not hate. I didn't feel love because anger was taking up all the room. I am so honored to be marrying such a wonderful man. It makes me sad that I would say such a thing about him, even if it was said in anger.
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"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
**possible triggers
I feel like killing myself. I think about it a lot. The only 2 things that stops me is that I don't know for sure I'd still go to Heaven and my that it would really hurt my mom. She doesn't deserve that. Itd be so easy though.
I'm not stable. Gee what would make me think that?
I feel like killing myself. I think about it a lot. The only 2 things that stops me is that I don't know for sure I'd still go to Heaven and my that it would really hurt my mom. She doesn't deserve that. Itd be so easy though.
I'm not stable. Gee what would make me think that?
smr89
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
God bless our troops! I love you guys! You are my heros!
in a twisted way i miss the days when i just didn't want to eat. i wouldn't be on my way to being the disgusting whale that i am now. i almost want to totally run out of money so there's no chance i can buy food. i don't deseve it. i've eaten far too much. binge binge binge. it really needs to stop.
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I think I have finally achieved indifference to you. Or, at least I'm getting there.
Hating you took effort. I'm glad that pleasing you is no longer my problem.
Hating you took effort. I'm glad that pleasing you is no longer my problem.
If we knew each other's secrets, what comforts we should find.
John Churton Collins
I was only there for two hours, but when I knew you were away it threw off my entire day. I miss you and I need you. Not even to talk about the big things. Just to know there's someone in my life who cares.
<center>"You were
water to me
deep and bold and fathoming....
You were
sunrise to me
rise and warm and streaming....
<b>Go to your wide futures, you said.</b>"
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."
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water to me
deep and bold and fathoming....
You were
sunrise to me
rise and warm and streaming....
<b>Go to your wide futures, you said.</b>"
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."
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I'm really questioning my sexuality. I want to talk to W about it cuz he is bi, but he is too distracted with his crush on E. Goddammit, I am so fucking confused... And feeling like I dont want to exist anymore.
~Megan
~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )
"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead
Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics
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Iim really scared of visiting them this weekend; the last thing I need to be told right now is to "pull myself together".
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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"'My hands', she said, 'I've left them somewhere and now I can't find them.' She was holding her hands in the air, helplessly, as if she couldn't move them.
'They're right there', I said, 'On the end of your arms'
'No, no', she said impatiently, 'Not those , those are no good anymore. My other hands, the ones I had before, the ones I could touch things with.'" - margaret atwood
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fighting scares me so much, please make up
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
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I think my boyfriend killed himself because of me.
I think if he called me I would have been able to stop him.
I think if I hadn't told him bad news that day we would have made it.
I think I made the biggest mistake of my life.
And it's so hard to hold on. It's so scary.
And everyone says "Jonny would have wanted you to live"
And all I can think is Jonny would have wanted me with him.
I think if he called me I would have been able to stop him.
I think if I hadn't told him bad news that day we would have made it.
I think I made the biggest mistake of my life.
And it's so hard to hold on. It's so scary.
And everyone says "Jonny would have wanted you to live"
And all I can think is Jonny would have wanted me with him.
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
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today is 2 months si free. longest i've made it in a really really really long time. and nobody cares or realizes how very hard that was. all i want to do is si. a lot. but i can't, because i'm a stupid camp counselor.
everything started making sense again and getting better and i have to go screw it up like usual.
everything started making sense again and getting better and i have to go screw it up like usual.
We can not do great things, only small things with great love. It is not how much you do but how much love you put into doing it. -Mother Teresa
i'm at my summer job as a camp counselor, if it takes me a while to answer, its not because i'm ignoring you...just don't get on a computer much.
last SI 4-13-08
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i'm at my summer job as a camp counselor, if it takes me a while to answer, its not because i'm ignoring you...just don't get on a computer much.
last SI 4-13-08
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I don't have anyone I can go to.
I can't stand half my friends.
I can't stand half my friends.
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Even though I know that I can' t have him
Even though I know that I don't want him
Even though I know that I'm happier without him and that he's happier without me.
Seeing him with someone else hurts a lot.
Even though I know that I don't want him
Even though I know that I'm happier without him and that he's happier without me.
Seeing him with someone else hurts a lot.
Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.
But I got my new favorite record today.
My favorites change every single day.
Except you,
You'll always be number one.
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I am a lier and a manipulative person.
You said you were hurt
and I said turned it against you and made it seem like you were in the wrong ... I am sorry. But somethimes damage conrtrol needs to done.
You said you were hurt
and I said turned it against you and made it seem like you were in the wrong ... I am sorry. But somethimes damage conrtrol needs to done.
We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving… We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins… We are relentless, judgmental with ourselves, and forgiving to others. We are the daughters of the feminists who said, “You can be anything,” and we heard, “You have to be everything." - Courtney Martin.
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