I don't know what to do (Help)

[bg]

Saw my DBT today. I also have a CBT who is my primary therapist for 6 years. Today "they" decided that they would see me together each week at the same time. One week would be CBT, while the DBT observed, and visa versa. So to me, they just cut my therapy in half, I only "process" in CBT, so I only have therapy every two weeks, effectively.

I feel invaded, I don't want to open up in front of two, it intimidates me. And when I see them both together, my CBT is very clinical, not nurtuing. They think it will be more effective, but I see it as a let down. They cancelled my therapy appt's next week, and are starting right away, but the first session is a bitch session, basically, to me, because I have been splitting. Telling different things to each of them, not consistent. I feel betrayed by my CBT, like she doesn't want to treat me as much, but they say that's not the case. This seems highly unusual to me, my CBT said she would never do anything that was not helpful to me, but one of her boundaries is cancelling appt's if i self harm, because she doesn't want to "encourage or reward that behavior", she says.I told them both last time how I thought the whole profession was (expletive). It doesn't help the patient when they set all these bounbdaries.

I agreed to try it, but I'm not very happy about it at all, I want to see my CBT alone each week, now i can't.

[Spidey]

They are NOT helping you. Reading what you've written in previous posts, it doesn't seem like they are doing ANYTHING that is going to help you get a grip on your SI or your life.

Maybe it's time to consider re-evaluating the relationship you have with them.

[Licentia Poetica]

Find new therapists. Doesn't sound right to me.