![:( :(](./images/smilies/icon_frown.gif)
like I'm holding in a lifetime of stuff that will eventually blow me apart
like I should go to therapy
like crying, but I've already cryed an ocean in my life and it never fixes anything
glad that I went on a tough hike yesterday, but frustrated and pissed at myself for eating stuff I shouldn't have
proud of myself for not puking
censored
tired
worried
stupid
scared by a nightmare I had about si
just
![:-? :-?](./images/smilies/icon_confused.gif)
![:( :(](./images/smilies/icon_frown.gif)
su in the back of my mind
like si thoughts are grossing me out
like I'll never be able to get it all done in time
like I need to ask for help and frustrated that I won't
just
![:x :x](./images/smilies/icon_mad.gif)