Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by kittyfever » Sun Mar 23, 2008 5:33 pm

I am f-ing sick of you. I'm sick of feeling like I love you more, I'm sick of your non-care, I'm sick of your attitudes, I'm sick of feeling like everything is a lie. I'm fed up with you going to the office even if it's only 2 days a week, it don't think it's fair and I am going to find my own things to do because I'm sick of being jealous of you, and you not giving a sh*t..I can move on too.

I wish you had never even applied to my school, I don't think this is going to end well. How can it when I don't even feel loved? Ugh angry!

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Post by disastercake » Sun Mar 23, 2008 9:37 pm

i'm so lost right now i don't even know who this is to, it's awful. i just want SOMEONE to care to be there, and to help me feel better even tho I don't think it's fair to burden others with my problems
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Post by cheyenne danae » Mon Mar 24, 2008 3:31 am

mom~Quit saying you care, if you did you'd have forced me to move to virginia with you, no matter how upset I was. All the shit I've gone through would never have happened if you hadn't let me stay here with my aunt and uncle. I love them, but I've spent the past 11 years of my life wondering what it would have been like if I lived with you...I can garantee I wouldn't feel so depressed/unloved/unwanted/unimportant etc if you'd have cared enough to force me to live with you...

dad~go live with your new family and leave me alone. You chose them over your real kids when you married that biatch 5 years ago. You knew how we felt about her and her kids and yet you still went along with it...as far as I'm concerned you don't exsist so take a hint and get the fuck out of my life!


A.M.W~you're my best friend, I've been depressed for about a year and a half now, why haven't you noticed how different I act? Or how unhappy I am 90% of the time? You've asked what's wrong but you don't seem to truly care....Please think about my actions/moods/feelings and put two and two together...I'm depressed and your clueless!!

M.D.~Dude what the hell? You say you love me one minute then the next all you wanna do is fool around. You said the distance wouldn't affect "us" but apperently you're just like every other mofo I've been with. I'm done...If you love me tell me, if not give me some hint that we can't be together....Quit playing your fuckin games and tell me the truth. I'd rather you break my heart so I can move on then deal with this shit any longer...honestly I don't know which would hurt more...losing you forever or not knowing how you truly feel...
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Mar 24, 2008 7:21 am

im sorry i asked for help
im sorry I worried you
I dont know what I was thinking.


can we just be real friends first. I mean you always call me "best friend" anyway. can you just spend some time with me.


wow im so weird for even writing that too.

oh my god okay whatever
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon Mar 24, 2008 12:47 pm

I care so much for you, I only wish you could feel the same. I wanted so much for you to like me, when I would talk to you I would think carefully before I replied because I didn't want to screw up. I miss talking to you, I know we were never close, I tried but I guess I was never good enough for you. But I can never let it go. I'll keep trying in the hope that one day we can be proper friends.

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Post by Cuppy » Mon Mar 24, 2008 7:12 pm

WHYYYYY WOULD YOU DO THAT????!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!
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Post by funkymusic » Mon Mar 24, 2008 9:55 pm

Why do you do this to me? I can't understand why you are so obsessed with hurting me? Why do you feel the need to hurt me?? Both of you!

I'm acting angry.

In truth... I'm depressed. No motivation, hopeless, etc. I don't even have the motivation to cut (!!) let alone eat, sleep, do work, talk to someone.

Oh for fuck's sake! All I want is for someone to care about me! That's all I want!

Apparently, it's too much to ask.

I've lost it all. I'm going under. Again.

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Mar 24, 2008 10:39 pm

call me

call me


CALL ME!


FFS! It's been ... FOUR DAYS! Come on! CALL ME :evil:
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Post by disastercake » Mon Mar 24, 2008 10:54 pm

No, i don't know what i'm doing and maybe i am sort of a failure but i don't think so. i'm fine i'm surviving and i'm in school getting good grades on my way to a masters degree. give me some credit
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Tue Mar 25, 2008 7:45 pm

I wish you knew how much you mean to me and how good it was to finally talk to you again.

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Post by caged bird » Tue Mar 25, 2008 8:43 pm

i love woring with you, i feel like you trust me and that i get on well with you, but it hurts so much when you make these comments, i *know* they're not meant, but i can't help wondering if they are, i'm so much less secure then i look.
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Post by powdahchica » Wed Mar 26, 2008 1:39 am

I love you. And I know you're not going to leave N, but I really want to tell you that I love you anyway.
We're two months in, and I think if you let yourself admit it, you really care about me, too. But you won't.
I can't be the only one to risk being vulnerable.
I love you.
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Post by disastercake » Wed Mar 26, 2008 3:25 am

hello, i'm not here to babysit your child. you're out there playing video games when you can do that tomorrow before you go to work. i'm leaving for florida nd i wont' see you for a week. thanks that makes me feel great
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for there you have been,
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Post by funkymusic » Wed Mar 26, 2008 3:36 am

Fuck you. Fuck you. Why do you do this to me? WHY THE FUCK?

What is wrong with you? What is wrong with ME? Will we ever know?

And so it is back to the way it always has been and always will be.

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Wed Mar 26, 2008 9:25 am

I wish you would just do it already instead of just ignoring me.

It's not hard.

"I don't want to see you anymore."

"I just want to be friends"

God, I'd even appreciate a "fuck off!"

I could take it as an affirmation of my worthlessness and sink into depression and it would all be normal again.

Instead, I'm waiting around for the calls that never come, leaving my msn on all the time and chainsmoking at busstops hoping to accidentally on purpose run into you and it's fucking PATHETIC.

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Post by funkymusic » Thu Mar 27, 2008 1:33 am

ASK ME IF I'M OKAY! ASK ME WHAT'S WRONG!!!!

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Post by DecemberLivy » Thu Mar 27, 2008 8:30 pm

god, I love you so much :cry:
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Post by caged bird » Thu Mar 27, 2008 9:03 pm

when you said you sometimes find it easier to talk to people who've been there i wanted so much to let you know i could relate, that i've been that low, that i've wanted everyone to just leave me alone too, but i can't becasue my job says it doesn't work like that.

i hope you understood anyway
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Post by Callisto » Thu Mar 27, 2008 9:37 pm

i took your shit for long enough and now for the first time its me thats taking control and me that's telling you exactly where you can shove your 'friendship': up your skanky chavvy homophobic racist woman beating arse along with your shitty band and your bastard of a father.

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Post by SarahBee » Thu Mar 27, 2008 11:11 pm

I love you so much. I think you're depressed, and I want to help you get help. You deserve so much to be happy.
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