How you feel & what you're going to DO about it.

fishhead · Post by **fishhead** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 10:31 am

I'm worried because I have to talk to the principal at my school tomorrow about some issues I've been having. I haven't been to the school since last Wednesday (avoiding much?) and it's 3:30am and I still haven't managed to fall asleep. I did sleep all day though.. So hopefully I will be okay...so I'm going to continue relaxing here until 6, unless I fall asleep, when I will get up and take a shower so as to start my day off right.

Edited because I forgot to add what I was going to do about it..

Roxi · Post by **Roxi** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 6:32 pm

I feel fragile, depressed and just really sad...

I am going to

~ be gentle and nice to myself,

~ validate my feelings instead of saying mean , horrible things to myself.

~ take things slowly.

~ live in the moment

~practice distress tolerance

lily_trying · Post by **lily_trying** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 2:37 am

feeling: panicky, disassociated, sore, unsafe.

going to: -take meds without skipping them.
-keep grounding distractions on in the background-music, etc.
-keep researching ways to get help or support, but take breaks from it if feeling triggered.
-rest without feeling guilty for it.

midnightbluebird · Post by **midnightbluebird** » Wed Feb 20, 2008 7:54 pm

i feel panicked, and really angry at myself. (how could i be so effing stupid?!)

i'm going to try to validate my emotions
i'm going to try to not talk to myself so meanly
i'm going to try to do things today that make me feel capable and in control.

Cuppy · Post by **Cuppy** » Wed Feb 20, 2008 9:30 pm

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lizvlnc · Post by **lizvlnc** » Thu Feb 21, 2008 1:03 am

i feel really anxious and i'll start shaking and tapping on things.
and the more i try to get it out of my mind,
the more i think about doing it...

its really hard...
and i can't fight it off.

and i end up doing it anyway.

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Mon Feb 25, 2008 2:04 am

I'm feeling

~ urgy
~ Anxious
~ like I'm going crazy
~ scared to go into the kitchen for any long period of time
~ like I'm a burden to my partner
~ frustrated with my life
~ scared about seeing and feeling things that aren't real

I'm going to

~ distract myself online, try to find some craft stuff to do, or journal until the urge fades
~ go easy on myself, and take care of myself.
~ remind myself OFTEN that lots of people have issues in life, and that calling myself crazy isn't helpful.
~ Brave the kitchen only long enough to make some dhal, rather than ducking in, grabbing junk food and eating bad food all day.
~ remind myself that she knows, and accepts, why I'm avoiding the kitchen, and that she'd rather wash the dishes and cook the meals than take me to hospital.
~ remind myself rather forcefully that the reason life is so boring is to save up for the camera I need, so I can save up for the photography courses so I can be a photographer. Yes, it sucks now, but big picture wise, we're getting there.
~ I have posted on BUS asking for advice and help, I will hang around and see if anyone replies.

nadine-cee · Post by **nadine-cee** » Mon Feb 25, 2008 8:24 pm

I feel alone, like I have nobody to talk to. I'm scared I'm goiing to lose everything, Im scared that Im pushing everyone away.

Ihave no idea how Im going to solve any of this.

rhiannon · Post by **rhiannon** » Tue Feb 26, 2008 1:36 am

I feel confused and conflicted, like I'm waging war on myself. Exhausted, and I don't know if it's emotionally or physically or both or nothing. Insecure. Unhappy. Bust yeah, mostly confused.

I think I'm going to try again to write out why I feel conflicted on paper, although I was totally unable to sort it out that way last time I tried.

Nursing_girl · Post by **Nursing_girl** » Tue Feb 26, 2008 4:15 am

I'm feeling weak, panicky, pathetic, depressed, alone....awful.

I'm going to:

MAKE myself calm down....maybe start reading a new book....remind myself that worrying about stuff I cant change isnt going to help....try to get some sleep....try as hard as I possibly can to make it through my classes/clinicals tomorrow.

ultimate starshine · Post by **ultimate starshine** » Tue Feb 26, 2008 5:37 am

I am not tired

I am going to do some work so i am not behind

fishhead · Post by **fishhead** » Tue Feb 26, 2008 6:13 am

Fat, like a failure..

Go to the gym at 5am tomorrow.

the edge of the world · Post by **the edge of the world** » Tue Feb 26, 2008 8:46 am

hopeless,
uninspired,
apathetic,
unmotivated to do my homework and studying (which is really a problem seeing as it's midterms time),
like becoming an invisible blob of nothing

Motivate myself by giving myself some me-time without the pressure of school-work so I can clean my head and work on my goals:
- Right now I think I'm going to go take a bath and think and cleanse myself of this icky feeling and these bad thoughts.
- I will get one page done on this paper and an outline ready to finish it off tomorrow.
- I will do my German homework.
- I will get some sleep before Chemistry class.
- I will keep going to all my classes this week (and try not to be late

).
- Wed. I'm going to go to the stress clinic.
- Thur. if I'm still feeling like this, I will perhaps skip the pointless lecture class to go to the stress clinic again (they only have it Wed. and then during that class).
- This weekend I will reward myself by going to see my aunt and grandparents and getting away from this depressing city air.

DecemberLivy · Post by **DecemberLivy** » Wed Feb 27, 2008 12:14 am

I feel overwhelmed by work.

I'm going to go to bed now, and get up early so I can work for an hour or two before I leave for college. That way I'll get more done.

I'm.that.forgettable. · Post by **I'm.that.forgettable.** » Wed Feb 27, 2008 4:51 am

Sad. Hurt. Anxious. Afraid. Nervous. Frustrated.

Listen to music, try to find something physical to do.. something to subside the urges I'm getting... probably go write a little, and stab my notebook with my pen/pencil.

<3 I'm.that.forgettable.

the edge of the world · Post by **the edge of the world** » Wed Feb 27, 2008 9:08 am

lacking in hope (not really "hopeless"), lacking in motivation.

want to not be me. want to not be stuck being myself. I don't want anything to do with anything that i am.

crappy self-esteem moment.
very bad day

fed up
give up
messed up

brain tangles. angry. frazzled.

that I'm never going to get of this crap whatever in my head stuff

---

go to stress clinic tomorrow

fuck up my German test with style, at least

try to be forgiving and nice to myself

lily_trying · Post by **lily_trying** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 1:28 am

feeling: urgy, depressed, hopeless, hurt.

******

going to:
-keep distracted, keep playing music & things in the background.
-write about the reasons why i don't want to give in to the urges.
-think about contacting someone to talk to, and be forgiving of myself if i can't do that for now.
-think about getting help more, but not let myself feel guilty for now if i get stuck on that, and just keep working.
-let my body rest without feeling guilty about doing less.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Mon Mar 24, 2008 10:48 am

sad beyond anything
overwhelmed
drunk
stupid

*

finish drinking, drink water, go to bed.
go to uni, print out my readings.
read them the best I can.
see dr joy.
TELL HER.
go to class and try to hide so you dont have to debate.
and then.. come home and go through the books for my essay.
and i dont know.
keep breathing.
somehow.

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Tue Mar 25, 2008 5:03 am

terrified about something my partner said (we were watching the Stephen Fry manic depression doco, and she kept giving me weird looks, then said 'are you bipolar?!?')

I'm going to:
Wait till she's home, and ask her to help me try and find a therapist, so that, if there's a specific thing wrong with me, we can finally find out so it's no longer just 'she's crazy'.

handmade mute · Post by **handmade mute** » Wed Mar 26, 2008 1:47 am

Happy and calm

I'm going to: not think too much on it, and try to remember to pamper myself more often if this is how I feel afterwards

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