Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

Holi · Post by **Holi** » Mon Feb 11, 2008 8:49 pm

I cut to punish myself, so I can keep laughing
So I won't have to feel ashamed and unhappy about myself
So I won't punish myself for being a horrible person, by not enjoying everything, the cuts do that for me.
So I can have a good time, and enjoy laughing, without feeling ashamed or guilty
All it takes is a little Razor...

fadingbutterfly · Post by **fadingbutterfly** » Mon Feb 11, 2008 8:51 pm

I sometimes don't want this

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Tue Feb 12, 2008 3:11 am

tanz wrote:i feel like i am really ugly and i don't like when people say that
i'm pretty because it makes me feel that they don't mean it.

well, either they mean it, or they don't but still want you to feel good about yourself. both options aren't too bad, no?

powdahchica · Post by **powdahchica** » Tue Feb 12, 2008 10:33 pm

I don't feel like an adulteress, even though I am in a relationship with a married woman.

Blake 1 · Post by **Blake 1** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 1:10 am

I think I'm using being sick as an excuse not to eat.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 11:33 am

i am weak and bad. you can see that.
that's why this is how it is.

Geordie · Post by **Geordie** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 1:40 pm

I wish I was having this operation instead of my sister. She'll be whole after this. I'll never be.

funkymusic · Post by **funkymusic** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 2:24 pm

I want to help that injured squirrel soo much. He keeps coming into our backyard. I know he is in so much pain. I want to help him.

I pretend I don't care because I know I can't help him, and it hurts too much.

ultimate starshine · Post by **ultimate starshine** » Wed Feb 13, 2008 3:11 pm

SOmetimes I wish you were here with me
You died and I iss you more than i would miss my own life
You knew about the SI
Yet you never told anybody,
You died, yet you never divulged it
You took my secret to the grave
and I must thank you
But the problem i have with this great grandad,
Is that i promised you i would get some help
Yet, I havnt
and that, is the thing i hate more than anything
I betrayed you and I am so sorry
I hope you hear my prayers
and i hope you hear my apologies in those prayers
I loved you
and i always will love yo
for the rest of my life
Im sorry

fadingbutterfly · Post by **fadingbutterfly** » Thu Feb 14, 2008 10:04 pm

I'm too tired for anything anymore

Geordie · Post by **Geordie** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 2:09 pm

The story is about you. I can see it happening. And I'm sorry.

MusicalMorphine · Post by **MusicalMorphine** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 5:42 pm

9 months today. I wish someone cared.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 12:14 pm

my dad died at 31 from some freak "heart thing".

i have a cardiologist appointment tomorrow.

i am praying the same thing is wrong with me.

Holi · Post by **Holi** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 1:50 pm

My best friend told me I was almost 'Emotionally Self-harming' and asked me if I was physically self-harming.
My Mum told me that I was in this cycle of 'Self-destructive behavior' with regard to my behavior and sleep patterns.
I get 'emo' and 'life is pain' comments almost daily from everyone

People are noticing.
Either this is the cue for me to tell them
Or to hide it even deeper
I don't know which one I should choose.
I don't know which one I want to choose.
I don't know which one I deserve to choose

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 7:33 pm

I like him, I really do. If I did not, then I would not be dating him. Simple as that.

But if faced with the choice between him and his mother:
(who I would date...
who I love more...
who has touched me...
who I'd rather keep in my life...)

I would choose her every single time.

caged bird · Post by **caged bird** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 7:38 pm

i'm so frightened that i'm crashing and when it all falls apart i'm going to loose my job, i've not been there long enough yet
why did this have to come back?

tanz · Post by **tanz** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 8:26 pm

I am so scared that i will loose all my friends. I don't want to loose them, i can't do this by myself.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Mon Feb 18, 2008 9:24 am

if this gets to be anything...

im going to have to pretend im not a virgin.

and hope to god that im not shit at it.

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Mon Feb 18, 2008 11:57 pm

I still gets those lows where I feel like crap. Just like I do right now. This is when I want to cut. I can't even describe how I feel. Empty, bored, sick....heck I don't know just bad. I hate this crap. Why do I feel like this? Why do I want to cut? I have what I want in my life, most importantly I have the man I love who loves me. Shouldn't that stop this feeling?

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue Feb 19, 2008 4:24 am

libertine wrote:i watch intervention episodes about ana and mia
while chewing and spitting

I used to smoke a bowl and then watch the episodes on drug addiction.

bus

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