Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Mon Feb 11, 2008 9:40 pm

I know it's not practical for you to come but it still hurts that you're not really trying. And I know I'm being selfish but I can't help it, I don't have alot of people I trust. I just want you there so badly.
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Post by shannon88 » Mon Feb 11, 2008 11:15 pm

hi its me your a dick
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Post by funkymusic » Mon Feb 11, 2008 11:59 pm

Why haven't you apologized?

I'm not like everyone else, you jerk.

I'm not going to kiss your fucking feet.

I'm not going to cry at your pain.
I'm not going to hug you.
I'm not going to do you favors.
I'm not going to go out of my way to make you feel better.

Why not?

You have never cried at my pain.
You have never hugged me without me approaching you first.
You have never done me favors.
You have never gone out of your way to make me feel better.

I'm not going to kiss your fucking feet until you apologize.

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Post by steady hands » Tue Feb 12, 2008 3:38 am


peb.


I'm sorry I'm not communicating well with you right now. I know it must be hard for you, listening to what I'm saying, but not being able to help. And I'm sorry for that. It's just I have no clue how to do this. This is what I've been training myself to do for the past five years, and trying to fight what i've taught myself is proving to be as hard as I thought it would be. I guess it's just that I don't know who I am without it. Without the si, and the drugs, and the booze, and the sickness. Those things were essentially what kept me alive while they were killing me, and I realize that now. I realize that all I was doing was burying the pain, when I thought I was killing it. I'm sorry it came to this. I just hope there's something left of me to fix.


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Post by powdahchica » Tue Feb 12, 2008 6:57 am

I can't believe you called it an affair. That's so painful, I'm not sure I can handle it. I wish you would have noticed how much it upset me.
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Post by amyfairy » Tue Feb 12, 2008 4:23 pm

thank you matt. you saying that i am cleverer than i give myself credit for (even though you were wasted at the time!) was the nicest thing someone has said in a while. :)

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Post by shannon88 » Tue Feb 12, 2008 6:28 pm

i seriosly think you are an asshole. sometimes i want to end our friendship
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Post by Holi » Tue Feb 12, 2008 7:17 pm

Argh!
Why do I have to Fucking lie all the time!
You ASKED me, 'are you self-harming' and I could've fucking told you.
It's not like I would've had to pluck up my courage to start to tell a story.
All I needed was to just answer with a simple one word reply.
But instead I just said 'no'
I sometimes hate being a good liar.

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Post by patchesmany » Tue Feb 12, 2008 7:48 pm

thank you for caring.
Thank you for your friendship.
You'll never know how much it means to me.

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Post by shannon88 » Tue Feb 12, 2008 8:20 pm

i cant stand you, im waiting for the right time to take you down
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Post by Blake 1 » Wed Feb 13, 2008 1:07 am

U: I love you so much and I hope we both start out working in the same area because I couldn't bear being far from you. :)

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Post by Spidey » Wed Feb 13, 2008 4:09 am

It has been a year today. 365 days.

I want that moment back.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Feb 13, 2008 11:38 am

i wish i could tell you how much silence hurts like a slap. like every other slap.
i can't. it's paranoid and neurotic. but my God, why can't you realise?


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stop nit-picking me. you are an anal bitch sometimes. and so are you. lay off. i'm doing so much. i'm barely managing, but i'm keeping my head above water - largely for you. so please please give me a break.
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Post by 5th section » Wed Feb 13, 2008 12:57 pm

I told you didn't I? I bloody well told you. Will you tke me seriously next time?
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Post by funkymusic » Wed Feb 13, 2008 2:25 pm

I pretend you don't matter to me. It hurts like hell. But it's better than letting you win.

...Or is it?

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Post by ultimate starshine » Wed Feb 13, 2008 3:13 pm

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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Wed Feb 13, 2008 3:18 pm

I'm sorry I'm not perfect but believe it or not I AM human and I have a life, so let me BREATH like I let you BREATH and everything will be okay? Got it? I fucking hope so...
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Post by Cuppy » Wed Feb 13, 2008 3:39 pm

That destroyed me.
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Post by shannon88 » Wed Feb 13, 2008 5:36 pm

i really appreciate you... seriously i dont think you know how much
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Wed Feb 13, 2008 7:04 pm

I get sad when you don't answer your phone when I call you. Especially after I've had therapy but I'm far too scared to bring it up with you incase you get angry with me. It just makes me feel even more alone.

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